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Hi Everyone,

Laurie - your girls are so sweet.

anna- the movie was good...i haven't followed the indiana jones movies as much as DH so i thought it was good. He thought Raiders was the best.

well, i had to be a downer on such a happy board, but i have been in tears the last 24 hours. My DS has been crying non-stop...my DH has him right now and all i can hear is screaming. I don't know what is going on but i think i may be developing post partum depression. i almost physically am unable to care for DS...i am focusing on my DD while my DH takes care of our son. I think because i have been such an independent person with lots of interests, and i am now limited because my DS is not doing so well, i am starting to get major cabin fever. We are interviewing a nanny on tuesday in hopes that can help me during the day. my mom is going to go home in 2 weeks after being here since march and i am terrified.

also, my DD, who has been so great with eating, etc...started throwing up and i took her to the peds and they think she might now have reflux. i think that is what may have triggered this depression. i just have this emense feeling that i want to get in the car by myself and drive somewhere so i am not here and come back when the reflux/colic is gone. but i can't do that to my DH, he's so wonderful and caring. plus that would be a horrible thing to do to our kids.

i am going to call my OB on tuesday to ask about anti depression medicine. This is very foreign to me, i feel like i have always been a strong and realistic person.

has anyone else felt like this? i just want to feel better and be a good mom. plus to struggle with IF and then not feel happy now is such a let down...i thought i was through the toughest part of my life...but this is the toughest by far.

thanks for reading...it's a long post.