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akk, I have to say without DH I would probably be in the same boat. Any day that I feel overwhelmed where I just can't handle it anymore, he has me leave the room and he takes care of the girls until I'm able to calm down and get over the feeling of depression and sadness. I know I cried A LOT in the beginning and these feelings are perfectly normal. Just remember that it will get better and that you have friends and family to help you through this. I would definitely say that a nanny is a great idea. If we could afford it, I think I would opt for help as well. I am fortunate enough to have my mom only 15 minutes away and she only works a few hours a week. So, anytime I feel overwhelmed or tired, she'll come to help out. Post as much as you need to. I know for me when I get my feelings out, I always feel so much better - like a weight has been lifted. I think you definitely should talk to your doctor and see if they recommend medication. It's better to address this than just let it build and get any worse. Please, let us know how you're doing.