[barb_wall]

OK...so why have i not posted on here and or responded in quiet a while...i don't really know...too busy...sick...just excusses...but i do know that as i sit here and read the posts of others that i have missed the support from everybody on here...i think i just needed a break from the continual focus on infertility...and OK...i am sure i am not the only one to admit this...and i hate to really even say it...but...the more and more i read of other's successes...the more and more i hurt...and even as i was wishing well for others...i really really really just wanted it to be me...and i do know my time will come...and until then i will wait...and trust...i do so enjoy sharing with other ladies on here that truly understand what i am going throuh...so...as of today...no more lurking for me...and i can't wait to share with others again...B

[sarah16]

We missed you! So glad you are back!

[passionate/angel]

i totally understand what you are saying. im a new member and i already feel that way. why me ??? when im i going to get the good news. especially when even your friends are having no problems at all and don;t understand. and the people that you expect to be there for you during this are not. if you want to chat more. im here. =)

[jenedens6102]

Welcome back honey. Yes, we all need to take a break from time to time. Many of us get so involved and wrapped up in the stories of others that we celebrate with them, we hurt with them, and we fear with them. Sometimes we just need to step back and concentrate only on ourselves and our situation. But in the end you are right, when we are aware we realize how much we miss the love and support of the others on here. I can second that!

[Ladybug20601]

I too have been gone for a while for the same reasons. I dunno, but after my #2 BFN from my IUI, something in me just said "eh, forget it." I was drained from the drugs, drained from the emotional distress, drained from driving 100 miles roundtrip 2-3 times a week. So I finally said I was taking a break from it ALL.

I am not even sure if I want to do IUI #3 in the fall because I can't take anymore disappointment. And, I still don't know why, after 2 years of actively trying on our own and 2 failed IUI's, why I haven't gotten pregnant.

I just don't want to deal with it anymore. Why do I have to go through this in the first place?