[redtailscorpion]

Hi all I have read some your stories. I can relate to most except for the IVF ect. I'm not a person who is well off, but neither am I dirt poor. I have had 4 children, but have 3 living 18, 16, 9. I am only 34 yrs of age. I guess you could say i started out young. I got married a couple of years ago to a wonderful man who came into a ready made family. I have miscarried 3 times. 2nd miscarr. was a tubal pg. They cut me open found a bad infection in and on both tubes. Doc cut them out cleaned them and sewed them back in. Sometimes I wonder if I am being punished for having my children out of wedlock. Doc tells me that there is nothing wrong, but every time I start my cycle I get more depressed. At times it gets real hard to look at those precious babies. Especially since I have a 3 month old granddaughter. Another family member who is pg. I guess I should be grateful for the children I have. But to give my husband a child, that would make my world a better place. He says it doesn't matter, that we have wonderful kids. But it matters to me. Well this is my sad story I cut alot out , but I hope I didn't bore you to tears.

MY BEST WISHES TO ALL,
JESS

[einstein]

Oh Jess,

Your words make me sad. Don't think that you are being "punished" for not being married when your babies came into the world. Our God is a loving God. He would never, ever want you to feel that way.

I used to think that I was tempting fate and going against my religion because I was doing infertility treatments and then went ahead and did IVF. I ended up with two happy, healthy babies. Truly my angels! I know God must have allowed something good to come out of all that infertility heartache.

Have faith and give it all up to God. There is nothing more that you can do. You have given everything that you have. Now, it's up to God to do the rest.

My thoughts are with you. Cherish those three angels you have and hopefully another one will be in your very near future.