[amattern]

Hello, I am new to this forum, and need some advise from those who have already experienced the blessed, but heartbreaking news that your sibling is pregnant.

I've gone through several infertility treatments about 3 years ago. All failed, and I've moved on with my life, so I thought. My sister has just reached her 1st anniversary, and at 36 yo, she is pregnant with triplets. Naturally, no clomid, no fertility treatments whatsoever. Of course that got me thinking about trying again. Per my doctors recommendation, I had an AMH drawn. My level is very low, and not likely to be of any worth with infertility treatments. I am basically out of eggs. So now, I find myself ignoring my entire family. I live out of state, therefore, I have the grace of email and text messaging on my side. I hate the way I feel, my sister and I are best friends, and with her having triplets, she needs all the help and support she can get, especially from her sister. I am in the medical field, actually work in an ob/gyn office so I am very knowledgable about obstetrics. So, I find myself responding to my sister as if she were a patient and not my sister carrying my nephews.

Will this feeling last forever? I don't want to go home and visit while she is pregnant, it bothers me to even get phone pics of her ever growing belly.

Any advise? Any books or other sites that would help me get through this? It has become a torment instead of a thing to be greatful for and excited for. Any words of wisdom would be grateful!

[RobynRN]

I understand how you feel, I am going through the same thing with my best friend who accidentally got pregnant with her THIRD. It makes it worse because you feel bad that you feel the way you do, you don't want to avoid them and you want to be happy for them. But, that seems pretty much impossible. I don't know if it will get better, let me know.