[Pennycuff]

Okay....I'm having one of those days.....it's the 'angry' day...where I am angry that I am having to go through all of this to try and get pregnant and others are just spitting them out like little rabbits all around me.

The latest news...one of my employee's daughter is pregnant....oh, and she's 15 years old. WHY?? (I can't help it.....WHY does God give a 15 year old baby a child and DH and I, who are great people....have to go through all of this?)

I can't help but feel 'cheated'....because we have to try IUI in order to get pregnant...we have to spend all of this money because we can't do it the 'ol fashioned' way and it's not fair!!

How romantic is it to know that your husband had to 'deposit' in a cup and send it up a tube inside of you because God gives babies to 15 year olds but not to happily married couples who do a lot of good things for other people?

I'm sorry all....I'm just having a rough day today and I'm really struggling with all of this. I'm the ONLY one of all our friends and family to encounter this issue and I never DREAMED we would be facing this stuff. I just want to cry.

Thanks for listening.....I hope tomorrow is a better day.

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[J-LYN]

Girl you just go on ahead and vent... we all do it at times, and yes it's crap that these young kids just get knocked up, and we have to go thru hell.

Sometimes I feel like if one more person in my husband family says they are pregnant, I am going to scream! It's my time, already!!

Hugs and hope your feeling better now.

Janet

[J-LYN]

Girl you just go on ahead and vent... we all do it at times, and yes it's crap that these young kids just get knocked up, and we have to go thru hell.

Sometimes I feel like if one more person in my husband family says they are pregnant, I am going to scream! It's my time, already!!

Hugs and hope your feeling better now.

J-lyn

[Pennycuff]

Thanks J-Lyn-- Sometimes I just have to type it out to feel better.....I struggle every day with this stuff and I know how you feel about the family members who are announcing pregnancies.

My DH's neice just told us two months ago that she's pregnant....she's 20, living with other people because she can't afford her own place, works at Subway...Oh, and her boyfriend smokes pot all day and plays video games and she's not telling him she's pregnant. (they broke up because he 'roughed' her up). Last I heard, she's huge and they think she may be carrying twins!!! I am already dreading the holidays if this IUI doesn't work.....

It doesn't help that I feel 'selfish' for being upset... but I just cannot help my anger with God. I am now struggling with my faith...and that's bad too.

Best of luck to all who are struggling with this stuff.