[maybebaby1]

Originally Posted by lisa_kev

Maybebaby1:

Hi, I hope you're doing better today. Please post when you get your info from your doctor. How are things with you and hubby?

A little update on me:

I had more workup done today (CD14) and was told I'm all ready for my B2B IUI's. I will trigger tonight and go in Monday and Tuesday for the IUI's.

Was told my estrogen was 221, LH 5.95 and I have one follicle on my right (like last time) but this time, it's bigger at 20. I had two they thought on CD 11, but the other never matured passed 14.

My guess is I'll take a BETA or HPT anytime after June 2nd. Please keep us in your prayers. and I'll do the same for you.

Yay Lisa!!! How exciting! So today was your first IUI and tomorrow is your second? I can't wait to hear what your SD counts are!!! Do you feel so much better doing back to back? I swear it's gonna work for you this time, you have one GREAT mature egg and you have all your ovulation hours covered! I can't wait to hear all about it!
They rescheduled my follow-up appointment for the 27th. So I am interested in what they have to say. As for my hubby, we have started talking more, but things are not getting better. He has been really mean to me lately and insulting. I told him I will not deal with that and deserve better than to be treated this way. I'm kindof at a stand still and don't know what to do. I think deep inside I hold resentment of not being able to have more children and that he has the issue and is also the one bringing in the finances which can't fund for us to keep trying. I know that is SO wrong of me, but I can't help it. I don't know where this is going to leave us I am just trying to get through the day at this point.
I am for you and thinking !!!! I can't wait for you to tell me you are you guys deserve it!! I will check back to hear from you! I want to know about how you IUI went!!!

[lisa_kev]

Originally Posted by maybebaby1

Yay Lisa!!! How exciting! So today was your first IUI and tomorrow is your second? I can't wait to hear what your SD counts are!!! Do you feel so much better doing back to back? I swear it's gonna work for you this time, you have one GREAT mature egg and you have all your ovulation hours covered! I can't wait to hear all about it!
They rescheduled my follow-up appointment for the 27th. So I am interested in what they have to say. As for my hubby, we have started talking more, but things are not getting better. He has been really mean to me lately and insulting. I told him I will not deal with that and deserve better than to be treated this way. I'm kindof at a stand still and don't know what to do. I think deep inside I hold resentment of not being able to have more children and that he has the issue and is also the one bringing in the finances which can't fund for us to keep trying. I know that is SO wrong of me, but I can't help it. I don't know where this is going to leave us I am just trying to get through the day at this point.
I am for you and thinking !!!! I can't wait for you to tell me you are you guys deserve it!! I will check back to hear from you! I want to know about how you IUI went!!!

Maybebaby1:

Hi! Glad you logged on to post. Yup, had my IUI today. The count was 10 mill after wash and I forget what the mobility was, 49% *I think*? I had a different doctor this time and to be honest, I felt like I was being rushed. Last time I was given the info without hesitation and this time I had to ask. I don't know what the pre-wash count was, but will surely find out tomorrow so I stay on-top of Xytex. Maybe TMI but after I woke this morning, I went to go pee and I was wet more than normal, and all the way to the appointment I kept feeling like I was leaking. Glad I wore a panty liner. I triggered last night at 6PM with the Ovidrel, find it hard to believe I ovulated that soon. I don't know what to think.

Tomorrow is another day and the second IUI. Mom is going with me, I need the company. I drive a little over 3 hrs one-way for the IUI's and I'm sooooooo tired right now. Since Sunday I've been traveling. Tomorrow will be the 3rd day of going up there.

Gosh I hope it's our time. DH and I talked some over dinner and he's so scared of multipules doing IVF, not to mention the cost. I have the same reservations. We're just praying that this works. I cannot see us doing in debt and having nothing to show for it. I just pray that it's meant to be. I ended up getting teared up and he supported me with a bear hug. I'm just so scared.

I'm so sorry you're dealing with a non-supportive hubby. I just don't know what to say about that. Financial stress, fertility stress, relationship stress...maybe what you need is a vacation!

I'm off to bed to get some zzzzzzzz's. Thank you for being so supportive, we gals need to stick together!

[lisa_kev]

Maybebaby1:

Just a quick update. Had another IUI today and count post wash was 8.9 million. Not as good as yesterday so I'm not that pleased-upset is maybe another word. I will call the andrology dept tomorrow and verify what the counts were before wash. I guess having a total of 28.9 million is ok. I'm so worried and nervous. I take a test on June 2nd.

I'm going to really try to not over anaylize everything this time and enjoy these next 2 weeks. In the last 3 days I've driven close to 1,000 miles back and forth from appointments. I'm exhausted. I start the suppositories tomorrow.

Take care

[maybebaby1]

Originally Posted by lisa_kev

Maybebaby1:

Just a quick update. Had another IUI today and count post wash was 8.9 million. Not as good as yesterday so I'm not that pleased-upset is maybe another word. I will call the andrology dept tomorrow and verify what the counts were before wash. I guess having a total of 28.9 million is ok. I'm so worried and nervous. I take a test on June 2nd.

I'm going to really try to not over anaylize everything this time and enjoy these next 2 weeks. In the last 3 days I've driven close to 1,000 miles back and forth from appointments. I'm exhausted. I start the suppositories tomorrow.

Take care

Lisa !!!! Oh, you will over anaylize everything, we ladies just can't help it!!! The 2 week wait is the longest 2 weeks ever! Isn't it weird, 2 weeks usually flies by, exept when you are on the wait. Well your SD counts are better, but still disappointing. Good thing you did back to back, you definately covered ovulation time. Really they aren't disappointing, all together they are great numbers and great mobility. I am for you!!! It's your time!!!

[lisa_kev]

Maybebaby1:

Hey, just checking in. Did you have your follow up appointment today? I thought I remembered somewhere it was the 27th, am I wrong?

If so, how did it go?

Today is 8DPIUI for me and absoultly no symptoms whatsoever. Last month I had pulling and tugging all the way thru. The only mild cramping I had was the day of and day after the IUI.

I've been trying to keep myself super busy. I worked in the yard planting flowers for the season and it was the long holiday so DH and I enjoyed being outside and each other.

I get an email from my cousin, who's 10 weeks along now and yet again...complain, complain, complain. She said she's having to go to size 10 already (she was super skinny and is a total gym buff). She asks me if I have or know anyone that has clothing for her. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. All I can say is that if this doesn't work we are planning to tell people so maybe it'll be a bit easier to be around.

I'm thinking of you. Hope you have a good day.

[maybebaby1]

Originally Posted by lisa_kev

Maybebaby1:

Hey, just checking in. Did you have your follow up appointment today? I thought I remembered somewhere it was the 27th, am I wrong?

If so, how did it go?

Today is 8DPIUI for me and absoultly no symptoms whatsoever. Last month I had pulling and tugging all the way thru. The only mild cramping I had was the day of and day after the IUI.

I've been trying to keep myself super busy. I worked in the yard planting flowers for the season and it was the long holiday so DH and I enjoyed being outside and each other.

I get an email from my cousin, who's 10 weeks along now and yet again...complain, complain, complain. She said she's having to go to size 10 already (she was super skinny and is a total gym buff). She asks me if I have or know anyone that has clothing for her. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. All I can say is that if this doesn't work we are planning to tell people so maybe it'll be a bit easier to be around.

I'm thinking of you. Hope you have a good day.

Hey you!!! I was thinking about you too, I was wondering were you went! Yes if you tell people it becomes so much easier! I don't know how you can even listen to your cousin!!! I would never talk to her again....or until I was pregnant. I read a book on Infertility and have learned to be very selfish at this time. You have to worry about you. Well you are already on day 8!!!!! I'm sure it seems like forever for you! I have been pregnant twice before and the only syptom I ever had to tip me off is sore boobs. So no symptoms doesn't mean you don't have a little peanut in there!!! I am for you!!!

AFM...Yes my appt. was today, you are so good! Basically the dr. told me to do a HSG to make sure my fallopion tubes are open, I passed it up last time. I asked him about doing unmedicated cycles and he made a good point, your still paying alot of money, why not increase your odds by doing medicated. Sooo...my husband is getting insurance from work and it covers half of IUI. So maybe next month! Are you going to POS? Well I will be thinking about you! Keep me updated!!!

[lisa_kev]

Originally Posted by maybebaby1

Hey you!!! I was thinking about you too, I was wondering were you went! Yes if you tell people it becomes so much easier! I don't know how you can even listen to your cousin!!! I would never talk to her again....or until I was pregnant. I read a book on Infertility and have learned to be very selfish at this time. You have to worry about you. Well you are already on day 8!!!!! I'm sure it seems like forever for you! I have been pregnant twice before and the only syptom I ever had to tip me off is sore boobs. So no symptoms doesn't mean you don't have a little peanut in there!!! I am for you!!!

AFM...Yes my appt. was today, you are so good! Basically the dr. told me to do a HSG to make sure my fallopion tubes are open, I passed it up last time. I asked him about doing unmedicated cycles and he made a good point, your still paying alot of money, why not increase your odds by doing medicated. Sooo...my husband is getting insurance from work and it covers half of IUI. So maybe next month! Are you going to POS? Well I will be thinking about you! Keep me updated!!!

Maybebaby1:

Glad you updated too! Sounds promising about DH's insurance. So you think sometime in June? That's not bad at all. Will they cover any workup or just the IUI?

Today is 9DPIUI and if I count my #1 IUI then it's actually 10DPUIU. I was tempted, of course to POAS this am, but resisted. I'm just not ready for that yet. I'll wait until sometime this weekend to get my nerve up. If this doesn't work we will tell some family members and proceed with another IUI in June. I'm praying this is our time. I over anaylized everything thing last month and it didn't get me anywhere. I've been trying to stay busy, thus that's why I've not been on here much to update. =) At least the weather is warmer and I can stay outside and work on my flowers...something I love to do.

Take care!

[lisa_kev]

Maybebaby1:

Well today is 11DPIUI and I couldn't resist POAS this morning. Just like I thought, . I used the 1st Response (non-digital). Yesterday and over night I had cramping, just like last cycle. I'm in fear of showing up any day. I just don't "feel" pregnant-not the least bit.

DH and I are not giving up as of yet. He told me the other night he's "in this to win it". We're casually discussing IVF further. Not sure what our next step will be. Shady Grove has the shared-risk program (aprox. $20,000 for 6 cycles). However if we chose the shared-risk then it's $20,000 + meds + donor sperm out of pocket using no insurance. One cycle costs about $9500 and if we used insurance and they authorized a cycle, we'd be out half of that, $4750. It's just so sick! I'd hate to think we'd (potentially) spend upwards of $10,000 on IUI's with no success. The rate we're going, it won't take long.

My step-mom is an RN and she mentioned she had a patient yesterday who was all of 12 years old and had a baby.

I'm all for doing a cycle of IVF but have to have DH on board 100%. It's all so overwhelming and I can't discuss with my RE or nurse until Monday.

[maybebaby1]

Originally Posted by lisa_kev

Maybebaby1:

Well today is 11DPIUI and I couldn't resist POAS this morning. Just like I thought, . I used the 1st Response (non-digital). Yesterday and over night I had cramping, just like last cycle. I'm in fear of showing up any day. I just don't "feel" pregnant-not the least bit.

DH and I are not giving up as of yet. He told me the other night he's "in this to win it". We're casually discussing IVF further. Not sure what our next step will be. Shady Grove has the shared-risk program (aprox. $20,000 for 6 cycles). However if we chose the shared-risk then it's $20,000 + meds + donor sperm out of pocket using no insurance. One cycle costs about $9500 and if we used insurance and they authorized a cycle, we'd be out half of that, $4750. It's just so sick! I'd hate to think we'd (potentially) spend upwards of $10,000 on IUI's with no success. The rate we're going, it won't take long.

My step-mom is an RN and she mentioned she had a patient yesterday who was all of 12 years old and had a baby.

I'm all for doing a cycle of IVF but have to have DH on board 100%. It's all so overwhelming and I can't discuss with my RE or nurse until Monday.

Oh hon, I am so sorry about your bfn I can't believe it!!! It is not over until ugly *** aunt flo shows up. But I understand what you are going through {{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}
As far as IVF, if you do deside to do it, I would do the shared risk program, definatly. I say that because I was so confident that it would work the first time being the odds were about 60-70% and didn't plan ahead if it didn't work! The idea of being able to know you can just jump on the ban wagon and do it again would be comforting. I KNOW you will get from IVF!! Your chances are SO much greater than IUI. Because you are using donor sperm that would put you in the 70% range! I understand the financial aspect of it though too. Ouch! The whole cycle is very much like IUI exept of them taking the eggs out and puting them back in. Which to be honest is very simple and same discomfort as IUI. So I would say go for it if DH is on board and you can finantially do it! That is a great saying "I am in it to win it" What a awesome husband you have!! You are very lucky! That is the right attitude about it too!!
I am still for you this cycle, and am always here if you need someone to talk too.
-Tiffany

[lisa_kev]

Maybebaby1:

Great to hear from you today To be perfectly honest, I've had a hard 2 days. Yesterday I was really feeling low and today is about the same. I tested this AM (13DPIUI) and another dissapointing . Cramps are getting more intense and I'm expecting tonight or tomorrow the way I'm feeling. I'm not planning on wasting another POAS. All I have left are the digital ones and DO NOT want to see the words "not pregnant" (sigh).

I'm telling my dad as soon as I start my period-that's what DH and I agreed upon. It'll be hard, but a big weight lifted once he knows. We might even take June off, not sure what the next day or two will bring. Next we'll tell my cousin who's pregnant so maybe then she will not lean on me for support as I clearly do not feel sorry for her.

Thanks for checking in today. Funny, but it does make me feel better.

How are things with you by the way?

Keep in touch.

Lisa

[maybebaby1]

Originally Posted by lisa_kev

Maybebaby1:

Great to hear from you today To be perfectly honest, I've had a hard 2 days. Yesterday I was really feeling low and today is about the same. I tested this AM (13DPIUI) and another dissapointing . Cramps are getting more intense and I'm expecting tonight or tomorrow the way I'm feeling. I'm not planning on wasting another POAS. All I have left are the digital ones and DO NOT want to see the words "not pregnant" (sigh).

I'm telling my dad as soon as I start my period-that's what DH and I agreed upon. It'll be hard, but a big weight lifted once he knows. We might even take June off, not sure what the next day or two will bring. Next we'll tell my cousin who's pregnant so maybe then she will not lean on me for support as I clearly do not feel sorry for her.

Thanks for checking in today. Funny, but it does make me feel better.

How are things with you by the way?

Keep in touch.

Lisa

Lisa, I am so sorry for you and your DH My heart goes out to you at this disappointing time. Yes you will feel better once people know but also don't expect them to understand. Unless you have been through it personally you cannot describe the magnitude of what is really happening. They all mean well but when you tell them, even the most loving people can say the stupidest things...so brace yourself my friend! Maybe taking June off is a good idea let your body rest and get back to normal...and once your refreshed and ready you can go for it again!

As for me, I am getting divorced now. Yup you heard right. This has tore us apart emotionally and finantially. I know my husband drinks but didn't know to the magnitude. He spent $1,218.00 at the partystore last month. I looked through the records, but blames me for all our money problems. He has turned evil and said things that can never be taken back. He now wants to work things out but I need PEACE in my life. So that is what I am going to have to do. I have been a homemaker and don't know how I am going to financially support myself.Agh...I am super stressed, but try to stay hopeful Let me know how your conversation with dad and cousin go. I wish you nothing but the best!

[lisa_kev]

Maybebaby1:

I am so sorry to hear of your divorce. I hope you find the peace you're looking for. You're so young, how long have you been married?

As for me, I told my dad today. It actually went ok. Long story short, he said that as much as he wants grandchildren, he's ok with the fact that it might not happen. Not exactly the response I was hoping for, but I'm glad it's out in the open. At least he knows and won't be hinting about grandkids as much.

Started my period this morning. We've decided to take June off-no meds at all, just prenatals. I have a IVF consult on Fri June 12th. We'll see what happens then. If insurance covers half or if we qualify for financial assistance then we are pretty sure we'll give it one shot. If not, we'll go back to the IUI's. I really need this month off.

Again, I'm sorry to hear of you and DH splitting. I really wish you the best. Take care.