I've been reading everyone's posts and I'm so glad I'm not alone. Out of my group of 7 best girlfriends, I'm the only one who has not conceived. My husband and I have been trying for 5 years. I really think we've only been trying for 2 because the first 3 yrs, we weren't really really trying. I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2006. I always had irregular periods but didn't really think anything of it as I was super active and involved in Sports all through college (gyno said this was normal). Once my husband and I started really trying in 2007 we received news that my brother in law had a baby in the care of Child Protective Services, so we fought for that baby and he was placed in our home 3 months later!! So we have a wonderful 4 year old!!! We felt fulfilled and were not stressed at all about having a baby and we were frankly too busy to start trying again. Well, last year we decided to start. My specialist checked us both out and my husband is Pefect, but me, not so much. I went on several cycles of Clomid with Provera to enduce my periods and it didn't work. We stopped for a few months and In may of this year started again. My doc felt it best to get rid of all the cysts on my ovaries so in July of this year I went in for a removal of a polyp and ovarian drilling. After the surgery I had my period on my own and tried to conceive naturally, but it didn't work. I was placed back on provera as my period did not come the following month and then placed on 150 mg of clomid. I just went in on Monday for my u/s to see if I ovulated, but nothing! So now my doc prescribed me the Follistim pen which I'm going to pick up today ($500)!!!!! I hope it works!! I was so upset yesterday after the docs office that I cried for an hour! My husband and I can't afford IVF at this time, so I'm praying that the follistim works. My doc says my ovaries look great, I have follicles, but they are just not maturing enough. He says everything looks great, it's just my ovaries are very stubborn. I'm optimistic with the Follistim, but I'm just not sure how I'm going to feel on Friday when I go in for another u/s to see if it worked. I've never felt so hopeless on this journey. My husband is so supportive and says that if it doesn't work we'll just adopt again. He says God may just have another plan for us. I love my hubby so much!! None of my friends understand, so I'm so glad I can come here and just let go!! This feels good! Thanks everyone!