[EricaS]

OK, so I went for the blood work and waiting for the lab to fax results to lab because I didn't have the patience to go all the way to downtown Chicago to the RE office. Way too much going on in the city this week and I would have literately exploded in my care if I got stuck sitting in traffic. At least at work I can "occupy" myself a little better.

I am trying to stay calm and relaxed, but like some of you people have said before about your work place frustrations, I too work in a corporate office too and it took every ounce of me right now not to snap on one of our sales reps on the phone. I am going through my own mental/emotional crisis right now and it is an emergency that he gets educated on the difference between garment with an interlock seam vs.. a flat felt seam---SERIOUSLY--it took all of my energy to NOT SAY if you lose a deal because of your lack of seam knowledge you are not that good of a sales person anyway and maybe you should sell something other then clothing. But on the other hand, I guess he helped me pass 15 minutes of my time )

[di.ma]

hiiii everyone

congratulations to all the and wish luck to all of you (n me ) that are waiting to see a .

im back and also am soooo glad to see that fet's are going well and that we even have twins around here!!!! it is WONDERFULL!!!!

here goes an update on my fet.
i transfered 2 snow babies on the 25th and am on estrogen pills and progeterone to help.
i have been feeling a bit diferent...i now its too soon but i feel dizzy sometimes and hot flashes.is it normal??
how long after transfer do the babies' hold on ' to us???

i am sooo excited and anchious to see if i will be a twin again.i feel a bit scared since i have had a late misscariage with twins..

thak you all for helping me out when i was confused you all, are the best.
THANK YOU

[MrsReady2bMama]

Solange welcome back! Glad to hear you are doing well and had 2 lovelies transferred. When is your beta???

[di.ma]

Originally Posted by MrsReady2bMama

Solange welcome back! Glad to hear you are doing well and had 2 lovelies transferred. When is your beta???

my beta is july 8
but i dont think i can wait that long..
its been on ly 5 days but seems like forever!! i have felt diferente in the past 2-3 days..i dont know what to think..

to me, this is the worst part..having to wait sooo long to do the beta.
iv been wanting to do a test but i dont know how soon do the babies 'glue' on so..might be too soon...

[dressie]

Hi everyone,

Wow! A big congratulations to Leigh, Hazel, FertilitySocks and Shari! This is an exciting time for all of you – enjoy it, don’t worry about tomorrow – just relish this moment – today, now. Let me tell ya, in a year from now you won’t have time to think with a little one to take care of!

Gina, this is great news about your xfer! Thank God they survived the thaw and you only had to use two!

Crislyn & Julianne, thinking and praying for you today!

Wanna – you are up next!! Praying all goes well!

And I know I have missed some of you - please forgive me...

Erica, that was truly an amazing post – you moved me and grounded me… thank you for that… it’s like God knew I need to hear that yesterday… it is difficult to keep it all in perspective… and isn’t it funny how our mind can play tricks on us… I am thinking about you too and hope you get some good news today... now here’s my rambling….

Warning… long

I was on yesterday but really was in the wrong place and needed to digest the past 5+ years to ‘get a grip’ so to speak. I wish I had better news to share but unfortunately I don’t… I got the call early yesterday morning that the embies had not survived the thaw… I had prepared myself for this and while it is difficult, I am ok… I started to do the ‘what if’s’ but my husband stopped me before I got too far…

I feel like you are all very special in your own way and even though I have not known any of you for long – I wanted to share my story…we are so blessed and when I read through some of your stories, I realize everyday that we simply don’t know the pain that some of you have felt and could have felt if thing’s had not worked out so well for us…

When we completed our first IVF, we fully expected to use the remaining frozen embies in the near future. We had our beautiful son, Jack and literally on his first birthday got the shock of a lifetime when we found out we got pregnant without even trying, naturally, w our second son, Harrison! Wow! So at that exact moment, the thought that creped into my head was – what about the two embies...? at that time we did not know how many kids we wanted but I did know that given I was pregnant again that it would be at least a few years before we’d even think of a third.

Life continued, my husband got laid off right after Harry was born. We let our nanny go and he became a stay at home dad. We settled into having two kids and 1 income (not too easy!!). And once in a while we’d talk about the embies… we had no idea what to do! I was more concerned about their viability if left frozen for too long… so about 2 years ago, I was watching a documentary on HBO about infertility – there was one couple that had struggled for so long and still could not have a family. The program continued and the couple ultimately decided to look into embryo adoption. After spending a huge amount of time researching, testing, etc. they located a couple who wanted to adopt their embies… They had them xfered and they were so joyful and truly thankful when they found out they were pregnant. I remember sitting there bawling my eyes out for this couple and asking the question, why don’t they deserve a child, what makes me or anyone else for that matter so deserving or not deserving… of course, I realized this is not for me to question. And who was I to sit hear and ponder what I wanted to do with my precious embies when I had no idea when I would even know what I wanted to do with them! The next day my hubby and I talked… I asked him what he thought about adopting them to another couple / person – we still were unsure about a third baby and $$ was tight with the two we had… we discussed this option over the course of a few weeks and finally decided to give it a try. The one requirement was that we had to select the couple / person we would adopt them to… (most embie adoptions are done anonymously). We located a site that helped match couples and signed up (in case anyone is interested it’s called www.miracleswaiting.org ) so we began the arduous task of reviewing the profiles of couples and trying to decide who to talk to. We ended up meeting with 9 couples over the course of a year… in each case there was some issue that always prevented us from proceeding… the reasons range anywhere from – we did not like them for a variety of reasons, they got pregnant naturally (yea!), inexperience – backed out once they realized how much legal issues were at hand, to simply backing out because they wanted to reassess their situation. Finally we met a couple that we really thought were the ONE! We started to talk with our Lawyer to draw up the papers – we talked to the couple nearly every day and really started to form a bond… when we were near completing the adoption, out of the blue, their lawyer contacted our lawyer to tell us they backed out because they wanted more than two embies. Now I understand that BUT why would you have gone this far into the process without telling us that beforehand! The crazy part was that they contacted us! And it was clear we only had the two embies on our profile.

Well, so that was the breaking point… I started to cry and DH did too… we sat down for what felt like the hundredth time to discuss the situation… we circled back to the original decision to remind ourselves why we had made it and did it still make sense? Ultimately none of it mattered, what did matter was to make sure we did what was best for us as a family. We both resoundingly agreed that we would bring them home to us where they belonged… after all the turmoil we went through, all sings led to this choice – how much of a sign did we need? We were instantly relieved and a burden we did not know existed was lifted!

When we entered the FET process – we were really excited but at the same time cautiously optimistic – we went into it with the idea that we would be ok no matter what the outcome was and we are… ultimately we did all we could to ensure that those little embies were taken care of. I have to remember that; because if I sit and ponder all that we went through just to have them not survive the thaw would make me go nuts. But back to the point I made to Erica, you can’t help but get emotionally attached and even if you thought a year ago it would not matter either way – it does and you fall in love with the idea all over again. I digress – it has taken me a bit of time to sort this out – but I feel renewed, happy and blessed today! I have not faced the challenges that so many have – I do feel for all of you and the pain you have been through and continue to go through. I have to believe that there is a reason – we may never know why and that does not matter, what matters is that we continue, strive and challenge ourselves to face each scenario with a fresh intelligent perspective.

I’ve heard some of you talk about not being understood when going through infertility – what an understatement! I can’t even put into words the emotions I have felt over the course of 5 years! It is unfathomable the varying emotion you feel, stress, joy, hope, anxiety, I could go on and on. And there is no sience to any of it, what I feel is completely different than another may feel.

What next for us? Not sure – I know that we are madly in love, have a happy home and two great kids… what more could I ask for? We may consider trying naturally but maybe not… these past few months have given us a renewed perspective on the situation… we want to add to our family and in the spirit of giving every child a chance whether they are embies waiting to be taken home and not thrown in the garbage, or actual children with no family, we are considering fostering to adopt an older child that might otherwise not be adopted… I truly do believe that every child deserves a loving, caring upbringing – this is what helps establish who we become as adults. There are far too many children out there waiting to be taken to their ‘forever family’ – and they deserve that. I feel truly blessed to have gone through this situation and to have discovered a part of us that I may not known was there otherwise.

[MrsReady2bMama]

Dresden, you are an amazing, amazing woman. I am floored by your selflessness and the peace you have found with the gifts you have been given.

Solange, if your embies were day 5 I would think you could POAS as early as 7/4 and it would be accurate?! 7/8 is a long wait for you!! That is also my beta date and I just transferred yesterday. Sending you patience vibes!

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Ultrasounds! How many babies are in there?!
06/26 - z_momma 2 beautiful heartbeats!
07/06 - Midum


z_momma Betas: 06/11 = 173; 06/15 = 927!!!; 06/17 = 1465!
Midum Betas: 06/15 = 394!; 06/17 = 1195!
Leigh Betas: 06/27 = 317!
Hazel Betas: 06/29 = 104!
FertilitySocks Betas: 06/29 = 227!
Shari Betas: 06/29=9!!

Needs a Hug
Jewell - hugs & warm thoughts to you!
Lynn - thinking of you and sending you hugs and hope!
Dresden - you are an amazing woman - peace to you!

Upcoming Betas
06/30- EricaS
07/01 - rigby
07/02 - snapple
07/06 - ksm (Kelly)
07/08 - LVFC (Melissa) & MrsReadytobeMama (Gina) & di.ma (Solange)

Transfers Scheduled
06/30 - ClovesA (Crislyn) & Julianne
07/02 - wannabeamommy

[di.ma]

[quote=MrsReady2bMama]

Solange, if your embies were day 5 I would think you could POAS as early as 7/4 and it would be accurate?! 7/8 is a long wait for you!! That is also my beta date and I just transferred yesterday. Sending you patience vibes!

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no,sorry i didnt explain well

i had my transfer on june 25 . (5 days ago)
i wanted to do a teste this week but it might be too soon.

looks like we are having our beta in the same day.here goes to you.
i dont understand why my doc wants me to wait so long..i guess i have to until the day comes..

[ClovesA]

Well ladies, am home from my transfer. A little loopy from the valium (but very glad for it), but otherwise ok.

Got a call this morning from the embryologist. One of the two embies they took out didnt make it overnight and the other one was still going but of a poor quality - graded as a C. So, they suggested I take out my last two embies so that I could have a decent transfer. I agreed and they took out the other two. Since they took them out only an hour and half before the transfer they hadnt progressed far enough to get a grade at the time of the ET (they were early blasts), but the embryologist did feel that the appeared to be a bit stronger than the first two even in this initial stage.

End result is that three were put in. Cant believe it as I was bound and determined to only put in one or two. But, the first one they are only giving a 5% chance and the other two were uncertain because they hadnt been out long enough. The embryologist said she felt pretty good about at least one of them.

So, heres hoping. If this doesnt work than I dont see any other options for us. Since we dont have any more frozen and couldnt afford to do another fresh cycle (we already had to take out a second mortgage on our home to pay for the two fresh and this frozen) this very well may be it for us. So fingers crossed.

Ok, off for a nap. I havent slept the last two nights and am doped up on valium. :-) zzzzz

Check in with everyone later.

[EricaS]

Dressy--your post is exactly my sentiments and it is like reading my own words on this very day. I hate when people say sorry because that always seems like "the end", and this is not the end for you, by the sounds of it you will continue on with many wonderful and amazing things.. So I will simply say my heart is with you today. You are an amazing lady.

For all the rest of the ladies on this board. I meant what I have said before. I wish so much that I had come in contact with all of you at the beginning of my journey and not towards the end. You are a wonderful warm group and I will keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers in the future so you all can all be given that one special moment when God's gives you the chance to see your child's face for the very first time. Everyone should be given that opportunity at least once if they desire it..... Thanks you so much for all of your support, you will never know how it helped me though my short/long journey this time.

ASF--Call it intuition, or what ever you want but I received the call that I anticipated. I am sad now but later I will go home and I already know that there will be 4 little arms (and four stupid paws) that will instantly squeeze any sadness away and I will move on. I have one more IVF (and one functioning ovary) left paid by insurance if I choose to try one more time, so who knows, you might see me back in the future. I will continue to live by my own favorite quote "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, but today is a gift".

I have gotten sort of addicted to this board (even though I never intended to) so I am sure I will be checking back on a regular basis. After all the emotions, and the stories, I just can't wait and see all the happiness that will be arriving in 9 quick months so don't be surprised to see my name pop up in the future. Prayers and wishes to all of you.....

[Leigh66]

Good evening ladies,

My 2nd beta is in today and it's 1774. . I'm in shock. I wasn't expecting that high of a number but I'll take it. I'm so excited. This is such a blessing. I called DH and he's so thrilled. I go back for 3rd beta next Tuesday and if everything is okay, US is next.

Shari-- Who hooo, HPT +. I'm so excited. Sound like a late implanter. It does happen. KUP and I am .

Erica and Dresden-- Your stories are so moving and touching. My eyes welled up when I read your posts. You both are so supportive and I wish you much success in your journey.

Rigby-- Yes, I cramped and spotted after ET. The spotting has stopped but occasionally get twinges. The hot flashes are horrible. I just take it in stride. I deal with it more when I'm trying to sleep. I hope it gets better. I froze DH last night.. He had to get an extra blanket because I had the fan blowing directly at us. Oh well.

Thanks everyone for being so supportive.

[snapple27]

Wow...this forum has been buzzing with good news!!! Thats just awesome...
Congratulations Fertitly Socks, zmomma, Hazel and Leigh....I am soooo happy for you!!


Ericas- I hope your beta results come in soon!

All you ladies who had transfer...rest up and

I have 3 days to go until my beta.....still cramping and a little spotting, so just a little anxious. But I dont want to pull all of you down....this group is doing great...A+ for everyone.

Praying for all of you!!

[MrsReady2bMama]

Crislyn - I'm glad to hear you were able to transfer three! I definitely think you made the right decision to thaw the other two. I think there is for sure at least one keeper in there! Hope you got a nice sleep from the valium!!

Erica - I'm so sorry to hear about your beta. I really was hoping for you!! I hope that your girls gave you wonderful hugs last night and that you are feeling comfort and peace today. I'm glad that you are going to hang around these boards because I would miss you if you were gone!!

Leigh! Congratulations on the HUGE second beta!! I'm thinking you have to have twins in there my dear. Hope you are ready for that!!!

Hazel, FertilitySocks, Shari - good luck with second betas today!!

rigby good luck today!!

wanna you are the next transfer finally GOOD LUCK tomorrow!!!!!

Not much going on with me. I am WAAAAAY bloated. Did this happen to anyone else? I was so proud of myself b/c last time around I really gained weight, about 10lbs, going through months and months of treatment. This time around I've been really good with eating well and taking my walks and haven't gained weight. Then within a few hours of transfer there goes my belly, looking three months pregnant already. What is up with that?! I am so uncomfortable in all of my clothes, yuck. Happy to do it if it means a ++ though!!

***************************
Ultrasounds! How many babies are in there?!
06/26 - z_momma 2 beautiful heartbeats!
07/06 - Midum


z_momma Betas: 06/11 = 173; 06/15 = 927!!!; 06/17 = 1465!
Midum Betas: 06/15 = 394!; 06/17 = 1195!
Leigh Betas: 06/27 = 317!; 06/30 = 1774!
Hazel Betas: 06/29 = 104!
FertilitySocks Betas: 06/29 = 227!
Shari Betas: 06/29=9!!

Needs a Hug
Jewell - hugs & warm thoughts to you!
Lynn - thinking of you and sending you hugs and hope!
Dresden - you are an amazing woman - peace to you!
Erica - so sorry mama; find comfort in the four loving arms of your sweet little girls!

Upcoming Betas
07/01 - rigby
07/02 - snapple
07/06 - ksm (Kelly)
07/08 - LVFC (Melissa) & MrsReadytobeMama (Gina) & di.ma (Solange)
07/11 - ClovesA (Crislyn)

Transfers Scheduled
07/02 - wannabeamommy

[wannabemommmy]

Dressie & Erica- you both are amazing and ur posts are very inspiring and supportive. I wish you both lots of success and Good Luck.I would love if u both would hangout with us.

MrsReady2bMama - Thanks and happy thoughts ur way and lots of .I think bloating is good sign as it happened after transfer, means smthing is cooking there

Leigh - Excellent beta. I m thinking twins mama!!

Hazel, FertilitySocks, Shari - for you.good luck with second betas today..

Rigby -Good Luck today.

Snapple - Good Luck tomorrow.

Solange -lots of to you.

ClovesA - I think you have made the right decision to thaw other two. lots of to you.

well, I haven't slept well the last two nights but my RE prescribes restoril(sleeping pill) for the night before transfer so I hope to have good sleep today and relax for transfer. PIOs are getting little better for me now. DH is taking leave tomorrow and monday and there is long weekend so he will be with me for few days. He wants to stay home so I dont obsess on things and time flies faster. I am planning to watch 'Lost' and some movies and reading.

[ClovesA]

Good morning ladies... Dont you wish you had a camera inside of you at all times so you could watch what was going on? Actually, probably be a bad thing as I would sit there and stare at it all days.

Feeling ok about the 2WW so far (yes, all one day of it! lol) because I havent been super stressed out by it. But, my DS is constantly wanting me to pick him up. He stands by my bed and cries. He cant understand why mommy doesnt help him up on the bed and hold him.

RE told me not to lift anything over 10 pounds between now and the preg test. I cant imagine how it would be possible not to lift my DS for that long? DH is great, but I am his primary caretaker and the one who takes and picks him up from daycare each day etc. Gina, you have a LO about the same age, how are you handling this?

Wanna, how you feeling about tomorrow? Ready to get those little guys/girls in there? Will be sending warm fuzzys your way :-)

Rigby, pulling for you today girlie! Hoping all the best

[MrsReady2bMama]

Crislyn YES! Why doesn't someone invent this camera?! I've been obsessing with this info:

-1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
0dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
5dpt.. Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells
6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT

As for the little one - I've just been trying to lift her as little as humanly possible. She is 20 months old and about 20lbs. My DH lifted her exclusively on Monday; yesterday I only lifted her once, from the carseat into my mom's house (her daycare), and today I did carry her carefully once down the stairs. I figure once or twice a day is ok. I am also just lifting very carefully, concentrating on using my legs to lift and not straining at all. And definitely no rough-housing - usually I like to swing her all over the place and jump around My RE didn't say anything about not lifting things, nor about bedrest, basically just said everything is fine and go be normal (yea, right!)

wanna your DH sounds like a sweetheart!!!! Enjoy your relaxation time. Also, I looove LOST - how far into it are you? Can't believe next season will be the last one!