[Martz]

Hi! I'm new here. Today is the 14th day after my FET and it didn't went good. This is the second time ET i had. My first IVF was last March and it didn't went well, blood test within 14 days is good but the last test which is the HCG didn't went well. Sad again. I didn't know what to do.

[caligrl]

I am so sorry for all of the losses and negative betas. You are all in my thoughts. I hope the future brings you all the happiness you deserve.

[Seay77]

Oh My!! Sarah and Amison.....girls I am thinking of you sooo much right now!!!

The ones that have never been pregnany wonder why they cannot get pregnant and those who keep getting pregnant and m/c or other cannot understand why they cannot keep a pregnancy.

It all seems endless. I wish we could all meet for lunch or dinner and just talk it all out and hug and just have comfort in knowing that we are all in this together.

I know I said this before. But the best thing that has helped me is writing down all the BLESSINGS that I do have. When we are focused on winning the race in something in our lives, we tend to forget the other places that we've been in our lives and the successes that resulted from keeping up that mountain.

Here are some of mine:
1. I have a loving, supportive husband who is truly my best friend.
2. I have a wonderful home that I never have to worry about a place to sleep or food to eat.
3. I have a car that works and doesn't break down and that I can go anywhere I want when I want.
4. I have a relationship with my Maker that gives me comfort, patience, love, understanding and HOPE in the most uncomfortable situations and hopeless times.
5. I have an adopted son who is my light, that I would have never believed I could love him as much as I do

The first few days are always hard because you keep asking why, why, why..............but that is OKAY!!

You have to cry to be able to HEAL!!!

The most difficult paths we walk are the ones that change us the most (For the better)!!!.

DO NOT LOOSE HOPE!!! There is a plan just as Mel said..........We all have a plan..........we just have to keep seeking to find which one is ours.

One thing is for sure.......this board I KNOW has helped us all and that is a BLESSING for sure.

Thinking of you all and sending you TONS of prayers and hugs!!!

[Ariesstar]

Hi gals -

Wanted to send lots of hugs to Amison and Sarah. My heart is breaking for you both.
I agree with Seay, that we should all meet up someplace central and have a big "talk" therapy session. We are so blessed in many other ways and sometimes forget the simpler things in our life that bring us happiness and joy. I went to yoga yesterday and the teacher reminded us about the gift of our bodies that can do remarkable things........(sometimes even the simpliest thing as walking without a wheelchair) I know that might sound silly to some, but we all have so much going for us. And I know that we feel like our bodies are failing us, but we do have other options like adoption and surrogates.
AFM, I feel that I don't have many options due to my age.......I have one more fight in me though. Just one. I've been TTC for almost 7 years and am sooooooooo tired. I'm so happy for a lot of you gals that are still young and can keep trying. If it doesn't happen for DH and I, we'll have to think and fall back on plan B and just find solice in that.

I wish all of us many happy dreams to come true and maybe other doors that open to new opportunities.
BTW, I'm on vacation up in Michigan, before I start school. I'm looking out at Lake Superior with a big smile on my face. It's beautiful up here!

[Amison]

Hi girls....

Just checking in to see how everyone is doing... I started school this week - I suppose it is good to keep my mind off things...

I am feeling better and stronger, and I know Seay and Ari are right.. we do have so much to be thankful for. It is hard to see that through the tears sometimes

I want to start looking into adoption as well.... my emotions are getting fragile. It gets more difficult with each passing negative! DH is not quite there with that yet, and wants to keep on trying for our own. He didn't say know... but is more hesitant than I.

I hope summer has a few more sunny days for all of us... lots of hugs..
Amy

[Malone]

Amison - I have felt like you felt before. It just seems ridiculously unfair.

Sarah - how are you feeling?

Mel - I don't know how many times I have asked DH why my body doesn't work right. He is so kind and always tells me it is perfect. IF definitely hits your body image hard.

Seay - Your list was awesome. I know I truly have so many blessings in my life.

Arie - Your really sound at peace. That is great for your soul. It is good to have plan Bs. My mom always says that God doesn't close a door with out opening a window.

AFM - Met with my RE on Tuesday. He gave the usual positive talk.. "Everything is perfect, we just have to get the right one." I have done two natural FETs and he wants to try a medicated one. He said there is absolutely no reason to look into adoption or surrogacy at this point. He wants me to stay positive and gave me the name of a counselor...It is so frustrating...

I have gone back to accupuncture (did it with my first two and at least got c/p's)

Anyone else trying again Sept/Oct?

[Amison]

Malone...
Isn't it frustrating when the doctore keeps telling you there is no reason it isn't working?????? I know it is good that there is nothing "wrong" but I get so sick of hearing that - "everyhing looks fine, we don't know why it didn't work!"

We have to meet with the RE in a few weeks - who knows what he will say this time. My guess is we will be doing a fresh cycle in October....

[Malone]

I hear ya girl.

I did have the repeated loss bloodwork done and I have two blood clotting disorders. I was treated this month and thought it would definitely work.
Wrong!

Did you have that work done? Good luck with your next cycle. Keep me posted on what your RE says.
We are trying natural this month. I got this tea from my accu, I am scared to even know what is in it.

It takes like moldy cheese and grass clippings.
Yum.

[SYB]

Hi Malone, after thinking about skipping a month after two failures we decided to transfer the last blast we have in Sept. and my beta will be on Oct 4th if all goes according to plan. At this point it will be my last chance and then we will be moving on to adoption. I am hoping third times the charm and we get a BFP this time. Good Luck to you guys transferring soon. Mel I really have my fingers crossed for you.

[Amaya]

Amison: I am sorry! Words can't even begin to express the heartache this journey brings. I pray the next one is it! And I know what you mean about your RE telling you there is no reason it should not work because there are no known issues. It is a double-edged sword: on the one hand it is frustrating because there is no solution offered to bring you closer to your goal and on the other hand you feel blessed and hopeful that there is nothing additionally wrong to impede pregnancy

Sarah: What you are going through is unfathomable! It just is so unfair to be so close only to have it snatched away. I truly am sorry.

Mel, Malone, Seay, SYB & Ariestar: Your words are encouraging & you are right, this board is a blessing. I have fully felt supported by you all. It has definitely made this journey easier knowing that you all share in this journey. IF can be so lonely at times. Thank you!


I'm worried about when I'll be able to try again as DH & I will be a 5 hour flight away from each other. I'm not sure where to cycle next (PA, NY, CA) or whether I should just wait until May/June when I'll be back in CA w/ DH. Not sure....

[Seay77]

Hey Girls.

Happy to hear all your posts about trying again. I am on the same boat with being told everything is "perfect" just have to get the right one.....Easier said then done. LOL

I have my appt on Monday with my PCM (primary care manager) to hopefully get a referral for the hysteroscopy. Never seen this doctor. He has none of my medical records. So we will see what happens. I feel like if he just says "yes" and gives it to me then it was just meant to be and I am just going to keep moving on with it.

If he does say yes, I should have my surgery in Sept and then start a fresh cycle soon after. So am thinking October too. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

I would love to know all of us were going to start an October board........talk about having support again.

hope you guys are all having a good weekend!!!

[missthuyn]

Hey ladies! I'm from the August FET thread and I am lurking around at your thread. I just wanted to say congrats to all the pregnant ladies.

But mainly, I want to say my heart aches for those who got negative betas or had a loss. Just reading through your post breaks my heart. I hope you ladies can move forward and continue in your path to become mommies, like we all deserve to be. Thinking of you all.