[Butterfly]

for this site as I am now sinking into a dark depression. I have had it up to here with the other sites where others are so blessed right away because they looked at their husbands and here I am healthy and longing to be a mother

Our dx is mild MFI (hubby has sluggish sperm with a 45% low motility) and unexplained. All my tests came back great last year when we finally went in for testing after not believing we wouldn't get pregnant.

I just wish this didn't have to be so hard most days. The kicker is that there are days when hubbyman is not in the mood too and yes, you guessed it, it's always around my o. It so helps to come and share these thoughts here without getting blasted.

I'll be 39 soon and refuse to give up, however one cannot make a baby by one's self. I do not want to go the IUI and Clomid route just yet as was prescribed by our fertility dr. Since we moved we feel led to try ourselves, since hubbyman is on Vit C, E and Zinc to help with his swimmers.

Ok that got longer than I anticipated, forgive me

Thanks for reading, if you did this far.

[tamtam]

Good luck with all of this it is a long struggle, but definately worth the effort.