[MrsBiff]

so, when i imagine myself finally getting a baby bump, i see myself in perfect shape, and this really cute- you know its a baby in there- bump.

so, i have started working out my "problem areas" and changed my diet again to make sure that image is really what its like. i dont know why ive picked now to start working out, but i've already lost alot of the weight i gained from the rock bottom of my depression-probably about 10-15 pounds (yeah i gained about 30 pounds from being so depressed i didnt do ANYTHING) i'm about to the size i was when i got married. but except when i was 140 lbs, i never had a problem with my weight. i was happy with my size. i mean, i have some thick thighs i wouldnt mind getting rid of, but its never been something i felt i should care too much about. i'm a good weight for my size. not over weight, not underweight. but now, it seems like the only reason im working out at all is to make sure i look cute when i finally get pg. i just feel this constant need to lose the weight on my waist and thighs. and its constantly "i have to be cute when i get pg" no other reason.

i dont know what it is. i dont know why.

am i just losing my mind

[Persephone1881]

I don't think there's anything wrong with losing weight you gained while depressed. And maybe, subconsciously, it's a control issue. You can control the way your body looks when you can't control anything else. Just make sure you stay healthy and don't lose too much weight. The fact that you think you might have a problem will probably keep you from making yourself unhealthy.

[1of2mommies]

I was thinking the same thing. A healthy body-mass index rating is more important for a healthy pregnancy...I've generally heard that it's better to have a little extra weight than to be underweight when you get pregnant...

[themainissue]

Hey, good luck with your body goals! If it helps, I have felt the same feelings. I am in okay shape but my friend fertile myrtle always looks so cute pregnant because she's so naturally tiny. I do find my mind wandering to what I would look like pregnant a lot while working out. Nothing wrong with that, I think.

[MrsBiff]

im so glad im not alone. i was beginning to think i was crazy.