[kcmour]

I cry everyday....over the weirdest things.....a song on the radio, my DH saying a curse word, my son's sneakers getting wet. I just never know when I may burst into tears!! My poor DH is afraid of me I think. I did not have this when I was pg with my son & I'm afraid of what may happen after I have the baby. I mean, I'm not sad or depressed....I just am very emotional I guess. Plus, my mom has me very, very upset. I asked her yesterday if she would be willing to watch our boys 1 or 2 days a week after my maternity leave is up & she said NO!!!!! She & my dad are both retired & are in good health. They keep busy doing "busy things" like cleaning & gardening, but they have nothing else going on (travel, book clubs, etc....). I have explained the huge expense of daycare to her & I just can't believe that she is not willing to help us finacially. But what has me most upset is that she is that it seems like that she just couldn't be bothered with her grandchildren. Am I asking too much of her? To top it off today is her birthday, so I have to see her tonight & preternd like nothing is wrong....I just know I'm going to lose it & start crying. UGGGGG!!! Sorry for the vent.

[ara79]

i'm sorry you are feeling this way kelly. there is nothing worse than feeling that you have lost control over your emotions. i know it must be overwhelming to think about child care, but things will work themselves out. i say try and have a good time tonight and then another time when you have calmed down a little bit you could have your mom explain to you a little more about why she can't watch the boys. maybe she has a reason that she isn't communicating to you. i hope that things work out. keep us posted!
amy