I think I am really depressed! It feels like everyone is pregnant! Except me! Even my dog is pregnant! I don't know how to go through yet another month with no pregnancy! This is not an easy thing to deal with!

I remember going through the same emotions as you. But, I never got upset that the dog was pg I guess 'cause "he" couldn't have pups! Anyway, I do understand your pain because I really got upset when my sister-in-law was pregnant for the 3rd time! It just seemed so unfair...it wasn't her turn...it should have been mine! How fair was that? But, God knew what he wanted for us, and that was adoption. We now have two beautiful girls. And, te funny thing is that I never get upset when any of my sister-in-laws get pregnant. Instead I rejoice in their blessing.
I'm not saying for you to give up on growing your own, but whichever way God leads you the depression and pain of infertility will fade. I know that that is kind of hard to believe, but it will happen.
Best wishes! Linda

[NadiaG3]

I can relate. I work in HR and I have employees coming up to see me about maternity leave. It's such a great thing too because since I have been married, all employees have to say to me is, "so, when are the Gilroy babies coming?" I have to smile and say, "someday" So frustrating.
I do remember though after my miscarriage in Nov. 2004, that I had to go to my assistant's daughter's birthday. In the toy store with my dh I come across MATERNITY BARBIE. I thought I was going to lose it. I said to dh, "Are you kidding me? Even Barbie can get pregnant." I left the store crying and dodging baby carriages left and right. Hang in there.
Baby dust,
Nadia

[thaas]

I feel that everyone around me is pregnant too! I am a teacher in an elementary school and there are 5 teachers pregnant and all are due around the same time. been ttc for almost 2yrs. had one miscarriage over the summer and haven't been able to conceive since - very depressed and hopless too.

[angels01]

I feel that way too. I just found out my levels are low, so they uped my dosage. There is even a hint that this cycle maybe cancelled and I'll have to start over. I'm so depressed. I have no one to talk to to find out if this is normal. To make this worse, I have to go to the doctor tomorrow to find out what to do. I really don't want to go. I try to stay positive but after 2 miscarriages, my hope has left.

Bethany

[bambiedking]

I feel your pain. I have been ttc for 2 years to no avail. My cousin has had a beautiful little boy and my husband's cousin had her beautiful little this last Thursday. Now, a stray cat that became ours about 1 year ago came home pregnant about a month ago. So she will be having the kittens any day now. I do seriously try to help her by giving her plenty of milk and food, but sometimes I just sit at the door looking at her crying or sitting on the porch petting her while crying. I bet my neighbors think I am crazy, ha ha ha!

I will keep you in my prayers!!!!

[CandM]

I know! Everyone around me is getting prego whether they want to or not. I have a friend that called to tell me she is pregant with her 3rd child....my response was "Congratulations" her response "I didn't want to get pregnant, I don't want IT"!!! IT?!?!?! Here's the kicker...she got knocked up by some married guy!!!! She is soooo upset about getting pregnant.

Here we are....loving, caring women who put our bodies through h*ll and spend all of our saved $$$ to get pregnant and we can't!!! It just ain't fair!

Needless to say, I was so angry and upset with her, I quickly ended the conversation and have been avoiding her. She knows that I am TTC and she has the nerve to tell this...ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bambiedking]

Originally Posted by CandM

I know! Everyone around me is getting prego whether they want to or not. I have a friend that called to tell me she is pregant with her 3rd child....my response was "Congratulations" her response "I didn't want to get pregnant, I don't want IT"!!! IT?!?!?! Here's the kicker...she got knocked up by some married guy!!!! She is soooo upset about getting pregnant.

Here we are....loving, caring women who put our bodies through h*ll and spend all of our saved $$$ to get pregnant and we can't!!! It just ain't fair!

Needless to say, I was so angry and upset with her, I quickly ended the conversation and have been avoiding her. She knows that I am TTC and she has the nerve to tell this...ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My hubby and I are going throught the "bash everyone who has kids that don't deserve kids because they don't take care of them". It makes me so angry seeing so many women having babies who cannot care for them properly and then my hubby and I are spending every penny we have saved on getting pregnant. I hope that one day I can do more in the community to help other women with this problem. However, right now I feel I must focus on myself. My hubby's cousin just had a baby in TN (neither her or her new hubby have jobs, they live in a apartment that his parents pay for) and the in-laws are mad at me cause I did not want to make the 2 hour drive to TN this weekend to see her new baby boy. I wish people would see that I am not being selfish, but I am hurting inside so bad that I cannot put myself through the torture of being around a baby right now. Of course, I went to her baby shower about a month ago and cried all the way home & for about 2 days after. My hubby stood up, when we were called about going to TN for the baby being born, and told his family that we would send our blessings but would not be coming down this last weekend. He said that he could not see me go through the emotional breakdown again. He is great!!!!

[Lentabbate23]

Isn't it so hard to sit back and watch all of this. For one I work at a hospital scheduling and about 20 of our calls a day are 15-16yr olds coming for their ultrasound and they dont have the slightest clue to whats going on, I just get so upset and discouraged. I try so hard not to but its so hard. And my sister who has never in her life wanted children also called me to tell me that she was pregnant and did want "it". She wasn't ready to be a mom. I think I have been ready to be a mom for about 7 yrs now. It just broke my heart everytime we talked, until it finally came to the point where we no longer talk anymore. I just cant sit with a happy face on all the time when its just not fair at all.

[wewishforbaby]

Wow, I read everyone's post and I can sympathize with you all. Unfortunately it's true, women who could careless about having a child, gets them by the dozen it seems and us women who would make wonderful, caring and loving parents and actually WANT our kids....have problems.

I feel for us all! I have not gotten to the point where hearing or seeing other people have babies bothers me and I hope I don't get there.

I've learned that in the process you have to remain as calm and centered as ever. People have no clue what you are feeling. My husband says he understands, but he doesn't. Throughout the process I've wanted to choke him about 50 times b/c he doesn't seem sensitive at times. Then you have family and friends constantly grilling you about when you're going to get pregnant and all you can do is smile and say "God willing, hopefully soon!" I've gotten to the point where when they ask me, I ask them back and it usually shuts them up.

I'm glad I found this forum and i'm looking forward to sharing the happy, good, bad and ugly with you all.

[layla]

Maybe I shouldn't say this, but I am so glad to hear someone else is angry. So many people on this site are so hopeful and positive, which is wonderul but I feel like negative Nancy most of the time (sorry if anyones name is Nancy). I am also glad to hear that you are upset about things like your dogs pregnancy because I get upset about things like this and feel like I am losing my mind and am embarrassed to tell anyone.

So, thank-you for your honesty. At the very least, you helped me to feel a little more normal. Best wishes. Layla

[nedege24]

my brother had 4 kids in 5 years he is 1 year older then i am, my mother will always say to him stop making babies and leave room on the earth for your sister kis being, i would start to laugh i mean what else can i do. DH like to hear that he also, hey it's better than getting angre and screaming at her.

[lizandted]

I'm new here, but thought I'd jump in.

The other day, 13 days into tww I had a breakdown and said to my husband "cats can get pregnant all the time but I can't". After he looked at me with the strangest look on his face. I guess he can't relate-he'll never carry a child.
I often feel like a failure as a wife because I can't have his child. I know that I'm making more of this than him but It's still hard.

[94VALENTINEWANTSBLNG]

OMG!! I don't know why but I thought I was the only one who thought like that. My dog has had two litters since 2005!! We have toy poodles and we let her have two litters because everyone in our family wanted one, but did not want to pay the price that they sell for. So we gave them away, but I remember thinking man, not only is she prego and I'm not, she had 4 the first time and 5 the second time. I am just trying to have one. Please GOD hear my plea!!! By the way both my dogs are spayed and neutered now. My female wasn't very nice with the last litter.

[Suria(O'Brien)]

I can see your frustrations on your urges of conceiving - I know sweetie it's a hard situation to be put in...........But just hang on there because there is hope always around the corner........It takes a bit of time and every spare second counts if you have faith in who created you..........For me I turned to God and prayed silently every night - a personal favour I begged but at the same time i owe it back to Him because my prayer was answered.......I got what i was waiting for!!! So dear have faith in yourself, stay positive because it always helps in circumstances such as this................Take care