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Old 06-27-2009, 09:04 AM
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Unhappy Obsession after 12 years

Almost 12 years ago, we found out that we would have to do ivf/icsi to conceive. We were heartbroken! I became completely obsessed. I was constantly on the internet searching for natural male infertility treatment options and emotional support, and I started watching shows about pregnancy & babies and crying all the way through it. Also, I couldn't be around anyone who was pregnant or babies. Then, slowly but surely, I went through the 5 stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance) and came back to "sanity"! *lol*

Well, we are finally gonna do the ivf/icsi, after many postponements. Here comes the internet obsession, depression at the site of , & crying at the site of a baby all over again! Why does this stuff have to happen to all of us?

Thank you for "listening" to my venting!
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Me (36) - all clear now
DH (37) - low count, 0 - 1% morphology, 2% motility
Fur Babies
- 1 dog & 4 cats

IVF/ICSI/AH Cycle 1:

9/11 - started bcps & antibiotics
10/22 - ER: retrieved 20 eggs!
10/25 - transferred 10 cell B and 8 cell B embryos
11/2 - diagnosed with moderate OHSS; 1st beta (11dp3dt)= 9.6
11/3 - 2nd beta (12dp3dt) = 24
11/5 - 3rd beta (14dp3dt) = 37
11/9 - 4th beta (18dp3dt) = 194
11/11 - 5th beta (20dp3dt) = 578
11/12 - emergency ultrasound due to OHSS complications - we have a gestational sac!!!
11/16 - 2nd ultrasound - saw gestational and yolk sac
11/30 - 3rd ultrasound scheduled to hear heartbeat



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Old 06-28-2009, 07:10 AM
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Sounds like you found your way to cope. Everyone copes differently.
Greatest luck on your journey!!!
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Me (33) = PCOS, Anovulatory // DH (33) = almost perfect
Roxy (black lab mix) Kaylee (yellow lab mix)

FET Dec '09
10/6 start bcp, 10/13 hysteroscopy for polyp removal, 10/31 Lupron
12/4 FET scheduled

IVF # 4 2009
8/28 Lupron, 9/11 Stimulation begins, 9/22 Retrieval (41 eggs) w/ICSI
No fresh transfer. 23 embryos frozen (at early stage [day 1])

IVF # 3 2009
5/24 Lupron, 6/12 Stimulation begins, 6/23 Retrieval (23 eggs) w/ICSI
No fresh transfer. 2 embryos frozen

IVF #2 2008
10/10 Stimulation begins, 10/20 Retrieval (33 eggs) w/ICSI
No fresh transfer. All 8 embryos frozen
FET BFN FET BFN (chemical)

IVF #1 2008
2/8 Stimulation begins, 2/18 Retrieval
No fresh transfer. All 6 embryos Frozen
FET BFN

IUI 2006-2007
5 failed IUI attempts

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Old 06-28-2009, 08:24 PM
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Obviously none of us knows why it's us and not our neighbors, relatives, friends, etc. It is incredibly hard to keep your hopes up when it seems like every month you are further away from the goal, and everyone around you is getting pregnant so easily. The thing that kept me focused and sane was seeing my specialist, and having a plan in place that I understood. I felt that every month we were gathering data about how I responded to CLomid (for example) and, even though I didn't get pregnant, we were learning about my body with every blood test and ultrasound. It gave him the info he needed to change our plan so that I could end up pregnant. I clinged to the plan and hoped it worked, or that this long process would guide me to our child, whether I gave birth to it or someone else did.
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2008/2009: 9 rounds of Clomid

Feb 2009: 1st rnd Follistim/Ovidrel
8 follicles > 16mm, 6+ < 14mm; cycle cancelled

March 2009: 2nd rnd Follistim/Ovidrel
2 follicles, both 19mm
5/1/09: 1st ultrasound - singleton
5/29/09: 2nd ultrasound - all is well
EDD 12/16/09
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Old 06-28-2009, 08:31 PM
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Hey, chin up!
My husband had very similar numbers to your husband. IVF with ICSI worked for us. There is a light at the end of the tunnel-and it is wonderful.
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IVF #1

9/12- ER/ICSI- 21 retrieved!
9/13- 18 mature, 11 fertilized
9/14- transferred 2 grade 2 (4 cells), 7 on ice
9/25- BETA#1 -51.9
9/27- BETA#2 -128
1/11- And we're having a......BOY!!!!
estimated 11 oz
30 wk 1 day u/s, est 3lbs 14 oz
32 wk u/s est 4lbs 6 oz
36 wk u/s est 6lbs 15 oz
37 wk 2/d = Ryan's birthday 7lbs 9oz 5/17/08

FET #1 3/13/09 3 thawed, survived and transferred- ended up chemical pregnancy
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Old 07-02-2009, 04:32 PM
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I did the same as wantinganother1. With me I could get pregnant and then I would miscarry! It was devastating and I had trouble going to church (moms and babies, walmart, you name it......I then decided that I just wanted to be a mom and DH and I started down the path of adoption. Well going the adoption route we also had two unsucessful cycles of clomid, but I also thought of it as information gathering. Maybe my doctor could figure out what was going on. Low and behold we adopted and had two biological children. With enough time and patience God will bless you. Get a plan together of what you want to do and then focus all your attention on it! It helped to know what I was going to do! Good luck and to you!
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~ovulate late in cycle, low progesterone, bicornuate uterus
DH 30
~Proud Dad and perfect!
Three DD's (1 adopted and 2 Bio)
~Princess I, II, & III

Three angele babies (Miscarriage)


Started domestic adoption process 01/07
Homestudy completed 04/07
Matched 05/07
Baby born on July 9th, 2007!!!
8lbs 2oz, 20.5 inches
Placed in out arms 7/11!!!
Forever family 02/08!!!



Two rounds of clomid before being matched resulted in BFN
Surpise pregnancy!
Baby is here 02/24/2008!!!
8lbs 2 oz, 20.5 inches




Clomid in October of 2008
Induction due to dangerous low fluid...not ready, but here I come!
Baby is here 06/12/2009
35 weeks 6 days, 6lbs 4 oz 20.5 inches

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