[synamin]

when i was young mother always told me i was fat even though i was the smallest in the house, i went through issues with my weight, and ended up on laxatives abusing them daily, i did not realize the consequences of my actions i did not know the damage it could do, now im 24 and after five years of battling my addiction i am now laxative free, i had one marriage due to laxatives, i did not know i was pregnant, i have been trying for a year and some now and every month is harder and harder, this month is my 13 month and my cycle ends tomorrow, i know when my period comes, the tears will fall and the one person i can blame is myself, i feel worthless, and i cry i cant help it if i had known, when your young dont think i just want to be normal and now every time i visit my family they ask why arent you pregnant yet, what are you waiting for, its hell