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Old 09-29-2009, 09:52 PM
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A purpose to it all

Through this journey of not being able to make a baby I have been having an identity crisis. Now I feel like I have no purpose in the grand picture of everything. I dont know what to do with myself half the time. Whats the purpose
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Old 09-30-2009, 05:02 AM
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Hang in there! I know what you mean about losing your sense of purpose though. I've always wanted to be a stay at home mommy, but with no babies... I just keep on working. I have a great job, fabulous career (interior design), but what I wouldn't give to have a reason to quit!
Hopefully, you'll start Clomid soon. I seem to be responding well, maybe you will, too!

Lots of to you!
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Old 09-30-2009, 05:02 AM
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Hang in there! I know what you mean about losing your sense of purpose though. I've always wanted to be a stay at home mommy, but with no babies... I just keep on working. I have a great job, fabulous career (interior design), but what I wouldn't give to have a reason to quit!
Hopefully, you'll start Clomid soon. I seem to be responding well, maybe you will, too!

Lots of to you!
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TTC #1 for 2 years

June- Clomid @50 -
July - Clomid @100 + trigger =
Aug- Clomid @ 100 (O'd on my own )=
Sept- Clomid @ 150 -
Nov- Clomid @ 150.... IUI on CD14

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Old 09-30-2009, 02:07 PM
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Throughout everything, I tried to do things that I could do at the time, hoping that someday I wouldn't be able to do them as easily. So, I volunteered for things at church and joined a women's Bible study, and spent extra time on my hobbies. I figured if I got pregnant, I wouldn't be able to do this stuff so easily. And, here's another thought. I know that the pain and grief I felt is what kept propelling me to keep trying, even though I didn't want to have all the tests and office visitis and bloodwork, etc. If we had exhausted all IF efforts, that pain and gried would have propelled me toward adoption procedures. Maybe your crisis has a greater purpose.
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Old 09-30-2009, 02:31 PM
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Nattylocs-

I can relate to this so much. I feel kind of stuck in my career in particular. But it's greater than that, I keep wondering to myself what is this all for? Where am I going? How do I keep meaning in my day to day activities? How do I deal with being told to take months off? Is there any more me to me than this?

I wish I had some answers, but I do hope that this journey isn't completely worthless. I know for me, my background is in counseling, and if I can ever actually get through this, I would love to help other women. But that's doesn't always help me out now...

Hang in there....

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Through this journey of not being able to make a baby I have been having an identity crisis. Now I feel like I have no purpose in the grand picture of everything. I dont know what to do with myself half the time. Whats the purpose
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Bryce (Lab/ Golden mix) Maya (Shih Tzu)
cats: Picabo Bucky
Married 8/02/2003; TTC since 12/2005 (almost 4 yrs)
Total: 10 IUI's (2 RE's since 2007, on and off with breaks)
(3xclomid, 2xFollistim) all BFN
3 tries with Femara- 2x lost both
6/1/2009- Natural M/C 6 wks
Rhogam Shot- Type O- & slow rising HCG but did double
8/3/2009- Chemical
Persistent cysts summer 2009

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currently on bcp & lupron

11/22- off bcp
Week of 11/23- start stims
ER/ET 12/6ish week
will need stitch in cervix for ET
baby aspirin after ER
regular acupuncture in IVF process- on and off for 2 years

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