[Tanya324]

Today I am fighting with the choice of calling my doctor and asking to go to a RE we said that we would wait until after Xmas but I am just so tired of not having a Child, I want to be a mom.... I am worried about my mental health the other day I went to see friends (the ones that have the little girl who just turned 1) she was home with her daddy and giving him a very hard time when I walked in the door he was like here you Tintin and handed her to me she just need a new face you know dad was getting stressed and she could tell so I got her clamed down and we were playing on the floor and she hugged me and for a small min I imagen she was mine and that I think is so scary what was I thinking and my family wanting me to hold the new baby I am scared to hold him because if I do I will not want to give him back I am so tired of begin the only person that I know who is not a mommy yesterday was mothers day my husbands family all went to see his grandmother his parents and his brothers family and they did not asks us if we wanted to come and i know it's because I am not a mom and I just wish I could be one and having that litte girls arm around me was just so much what I want one of the things I can't wait to have is the baby hiding it's head in my shoulder because that's were it feels safe and when she hugged me my heart just wanted her to be mine I really am going crazy sometimes I just want to say I am pg I think if I say it enough maybe it will be true ........

[jf5505]

I feel your pain, I want it so badly too, somedays are just so much harder than others. When my sister had her son, I grew so attached and when I found out that things were not going to be easy for DH and I, I found myself not wanting to be around him as much, b/c it made me really sad and long for my own. I know it will happen, I just want it to happen soon...If I were you I would go to an RE now, what do you have to lose? If you need to save the money, Understand that, but you could at least go once and see what he has to say. I am sorry your having a bad day, I wish I could make it better for you...Take care ...sending you lots of HUGs....

[30somethingmom]

Tanya,
Sending you a big hug as well! Mother's Day is a very difficult time those who are struggling with infertility. I remember how hard it was for me also. I would cry every year. I longed to me a mom so much and felt so left out when everyone except me had children. I became close to my niece and always dreamed of having a little girl just like her one day. But there were times when I never thought my dream would come true. I was so devastated every time things didn't work out for us. Then one day after many years and many heartbreaks, our daughter came into our lives.

Hang in there! Your day will come also. Hopefully it will be very soon!

Take care,

[karm]

I'm with you on having a hard day. Or a hard mother's day.
You just start to feel like will this ever happen.

I say call the RE. I know when I was just TTC on our own I felt lost. Having the RE direct us as what to do made me feel like I had hope.

I too have missed numerous gatherings when all of my friends and family had it geared around the children. You just feel left out. It stinks feeling left out.

[einstein]

Seeing little ones -- even strangers with their babies out in public -- is so hard! I know, I've been there. I cried for days when my one niece was born because I was so sad that it wasn't me. Call the RE. Go in. Why wait another 7 months? You'll only be more stressed out.

[starbright7543]

Go in and make it happen!!!!. Don't procrastinate, just be strong! Everyone of us is on your side and we support you 100%.

Elisha

[AveryL]

I would definitely go to the RE you have nothing to lose and every possibilty to gain!!! Did you promise yourselves or your DR? It's your choice either way,so I vote GO FOR IT!!!!!!!

[Tanya324]

The money is a big factor for us but we said we would try alone until xmas and my husband broke his leg in January so we only were getting 60% of his income for the last few months he just went back to work and we need catch up on few things and we need a new roof on our house sadly I am faced with putting a new roof on my house or paying to have a baby it just is not fair this world we all live in I have a cousin who has been in and out of jail and lives on welfare and is having a baby in June a boy they are going to name him logan and my husdband and I both have ok jobs waited to start a family so we would be ready for the baby and we just can't seem to get it right.

[AveryL]

That totally bites, I'm really sorry for you guys, I hate luck it so rarely works in your favor. I wish ther was some kind of grant or something for people ttc. In fact if I win the Mega Bucks this week i'm going to start one. I read a very interesting article when we were first ttc that adddressed the unfairness in fertility treatments for the working middle class, it pointed to the fact that that it is so difficult to get assistance getting preg unless you are wealthy and have excellent insurance,which has changed a little over the years but not much. I'm going to really be wishing for things to go well for you guys.