[sarah16]

Just want to say welcome and good luck on your IF journey!

[kblythe]

Hey Margaret,

I just wanted to echo much of what the other girls are saying. We're a cyber-sisterhood, and you are always welcome to vent to us because we understand. We are all here because our path to motherhood has not been easy and for some, including me, it has yet to happen at all. So we are totally sympathetic to your pain, and you do not have to justify your feelings to us.

It sounds like you have been on the worst sort of emotional roller coaster. I went through an analogous situation ... My mom was dying of cancer when my husband announced he wanted a divorce and I had to deal with the death of my mother and my marriage in the space of about four months. It's impossible to keep it together all of the time under those circumstances. You've been hit with a triple whammy ... an ill husband, the death of the dream, and the pressure to keep working and nurture your son. You are certainly allowed to grieve. Hopefully, though, you'll soon start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. It's probably too soon to start thinking of adoption or donor sperm. But keep them in the back of your mind as options. Just a kernel of hope can really get you through some of the worst patches.

Kathryn.