[Tippy]

Heather/Charlie - I too am pretty crampy after the IUI today. But from what everyone has said, it sounds like that's very common. I have also had some lower back pain today, which isn't normal, but again, due to the procedure I'm sure. Also it's so hard to stay positive and think this could really happen, because the last 30 times I've POAS, I've gotten a negative.... so what's another one, you know?? But hopefully staying positive enough, will give me good baby vibes Just not too positive where I'll be so sad if I do get a negative. Ugh... being a girl sucks sometimes

Nicky - Join the club!! I think that makes 4 of us who have actually had our IUI's today, and plenty more this week!! Can't wait to take this journey with you!

Mooody - Good luck this weekend!! Hoping the timing all works out and you can get that IUI soon!

I'm interested how my body will continue to react to this... Bring on the 2ww!! Gotta be positive right?

[angsea]

I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster. I know you all know the feeling. After I got my first IUI - I was absolutely certain it worked. I was like a ray of sunshine - happy, bubbly and full of positive thoughts and prayers for anyone and everyone.

When I got the phone call, I turned 180 degrees. I cried for days and everything was doom and despair. When AF showed up and I began my next cycle, I cheered up considerably. It felt like this... incredible gift that in the face of my despair I was being granted another chance.

Then when I went in for my follie check and had no mature follicles... well, I quickly became all gloom and doom again. And I stayed that way for a long time. Even when my next cycle started, even while I was taking the femara... even on my way to get my follies checked - I was the spirit of negativity.

I was angry at God - myself... the situation. I was sad and hollowed out, left bitter and unable to cry anymore. I didn't think anything could change how I felt...

Then I heard the good news, that I have two good follies ready to go. From that point forward, immediately... the skies turned blue again. And I mean that in the literal sense. It was pouring rain when we got there, and when we left, it was a beautiful, perfect day! I've been on cloud 9 ever since.

Everything is a sign. I'm praying again, happy again... life is good!

But I dread the next turn around. In two weeks... my world could collapse again. I don't know how to survive these extreme highs and lows. I wish I could put myself on a even keel and just try to accept the good and the bad without so much force behind it, but I can't.

I know you all can sympathize. It really sucks how everything, absolutely everything in our lives are somehow tied to our infertility. When things are going good, when we have eggs and treatments and chances to get pregnant, everything is great! Your friendships do better, you perform better at work, food tastes better, your marriage is happier... but when things go south, when AF shows up or you get a BFN or don't have the money to pay for your next cycle - everything in your life seems harder. Your relationships suffer, your work suffers... everything is somehow more cruel.

It's a very rough ride to stay on and I sure do wish I could step off the next time it swings around the loading platform. I rate this ride #5 Extreme - not for the faint of heart.

- Angel

[athena3]

to everyone joining us! The more support the better

Angsea- you have put in to words how we all feel. Your writing is beautiful and your words truly capture the emotional ride. We can only hope for a miracle because this experience is definitely not for the faint at heart.

AFM: I triggered last night and just have to get through today. IUI is tomorrow morning…yeah!
Good luck to everyone!

[timing]

Charlie'smom - no, my RE didn't check the follicles or eggs, even the lining checking was after I asked the nurse. The nurse said they don't normally do a second u/s unless there is a need. however, from this board, it seems everyone is doing a 2nd u/s, even with b/w. I guess I'm just confused.

[Kris79]

Angel - You said exactly what I have been feeling lately. After my first IUI failed, I got back on the ride again, disappointed, but ready to go again. After #2 and #3 failed, I just felt my hope fading. Then #4 and I had new hope that Clomid would make the difference. I crashed hard when still I didn't get that coveted BFP! I told my DH last night how angry I am at God over this. I still have faith, but I just feel very angry that not only do we have very severe infertility and have to use donor sperm, we also have had to keep trying and trying. I just had such high hopes that it would work right away even though the doctor said it would likely take 4 to 6 tries. I know just how you are feeling...at first the ride almost seemed "fun" and the expectations were high, but now I just don't know how much longer I can handle month after month of anticipation and the crashes that follow. I'm praying this is the month all of us can get off this crazy ride and jump over to the pregnancy ride...while I'm sure there are lots of ups and downs with it too, it has to be better than this!!

Timing - My RE does very little monitoring. I had to beg to get an u/s this month and they're doing that the day I surge on my OPK or CD15, whichever comes first. They haven't done any bloodwork on me but they say it's apparent I ovulate on my own so there isn't a need to monitor my b/w. I just think to myself then how come other people who are going through this for the same reason as me are getting b/w and u/s?? I'm questioning them more now and plan to meet with my RE after this IUI and see what the plan is for moving forward. I really don't want to do more than 6 IUIs! So you're not alone in the fact that your RE isn't monitoring you very closely.

Athena - Good luck tomorrow!!

AllDeliveries - How did it go today?

MyLifeinStirrups - I love your name! I can definitely identify with feeling like I'm spending way too much time in stirrups! I hope this cycle is the one for you!

Tippy - Keep that positive attitude!!

Charliesmom - I hear you on expecting a BFN...I have come to expect them and figure someday I'll just be pleasantly surprised when a BFP shows up.

Heatherly - I have had cramping after all of my IUI's and I think part of it is the cervix responding to the procedure. I always have just weird little twinges. that this cycle will work for you!!

Nicky - Welcome to the group! Sending you baby dust!

Moody - I hope you get good news at the doctor tomorrow and you can have your IUI on Sunday

[timing]

Kris79 - talking about ups and downs during this journey! spiritually, emotionally, finanacially (we only did 3 IUIs, two with Femara, so it's not too much out of control, but if we need to move on to IVF, that will be a different story) YOu are right my RE doesn't monitor me very closely, I'm glad to hear that your RE is the same. I don't want to be too pushy to my doctor and his nurse, or give them the wrong impression that I know more than they do. I read it somewhere else that some doctors don't like their patients read all over the interne, getting irrelevent information and question them about it. My RE is very open-minded, I guess it's normal if we are ovulating on our own, there is no/few need to monitor us closely.

[Tippy]

Angel - I'm soooo sorry you're feeling that way. It seems to be a common trend when we're TTC. It's like there seems to always be ups and downs every month and it feels like it'll never end. Stay positive and maybe that will help your body respond better! Again, I'm so sorry you're going through an especially tough time right now... sending you some

Athena - YAY! Good luck with IUI tomorrow!!! Here's hoping for that !

Timing - You have every right to ask your DR whatever you darn well please!! It's your right to be nosy and curious, it's your body and your life for heaven's sake!! I wouldn't worry about being too pushy or anything... if you feel that way, find a doctor is doesn't mind you being involved. It's good to ask questions and be curious. GOOD LUCK this month!!

So DH and I had the IUI yesterday and baby this morning, so who knows... maybe that'll do it??!??! OH and I had a really sad dream that one of my sisters laws got pregnant with twin boys and I woke up crying. That's like what I hope for... twin boys... of course if I could have 1 healthly baby, I wouldn't ask for anything else, but twin boys, wouldn't that be so fun??!!

[waiting4news7]

I know what you mean by goosebumps! My moms best friend started a pray fast for me monday. Many of my friends at work joined in.
Keep praying!!

[Kris79]

Tippy - I hate those kinds of dreams. Although your dream is my reality...my SIL does have identical twin boys!! They are super fun...although they are now 7 so they kind of have a little attitude now. The same SIL also had a third little boy who is 22 month old and just had a baby girl a month ago. It's hard seeing someone else get all the babies in the family!! Here's hoping we will get our little bundles of joy soon too!! Secretly I kind of hope for twins, although I would be sooooo happy with one.

[MyLifeInStirrups]

Question for all my fellow IUIers, if you have B2B IUIs, when do you BD? We had IUI on Tues and Wednesday and BDed Wednesday night. Any baby making benefits to doing it again tonight?

[angsea]

I also kind of secretly hope for twin boys! I think that would be so incredible and beautiful. Twin boys, then 5 years later or so, a little girl.

I try not to think about it too much but that is my dream. I guess sometimes I feel a little selfish asking God for three children so I don't, I just ask him to help me conceive and leave the numbers up to him!

- Angel

[charlie'smom]

Tippy and Kris-

I too kinda secretly hope for twins, but hubby and I want twin girls, not twin boys! I guess if I figure I have to go through all this, I should get something extra out of it...LOL

MyLife...Not sure if there would be any additional babymaking benefits, but there are worse things you could be doing! I say if you are both in the mood, just (if you have to force it, it wouldn't be worth it...don't need that extra stress in your marriage!)

[mooodyb2000]

You definitely put into words what I agree most of us must be feeling. I know that after AF showed after the 1st IUI that I was miserable and obsessed on the next round, how much meds would be, when we would start and on and on until I drove my SO crazy. This time I think that part will be different, but I know it is a crazy time too. As far as the monitoring that I am reading about, my Re monitors often. Day 1-3 you have your initial u/s if all is good you start injectibles on day 3, day 7 u/s and b/w, depending on results you usually go back in another 2-3 days for the same, u/s and b/w and then if you still need more time you may even go back the next day for yet another u/s and b/w and finally you trigger and go in for b/w and the IUI. I thought that seemed pretty normal, but what I'm reading here, it may be a bit much. Oh well, they are great in my office and I leave it in their hands and Gods. Good luck to all to all who are in the 2ww. I hope to join you soon.

[TSYORK]

Add us to the running ticker-tape. Pre-therapy was Femara and Menopur. There were three viable follicles. SA: 42 million with excellent motility. IUI was 06/17. Also, taking Progesterone va-j-j tablets for the next two weeks to help the youngins stick!

[angsea]

Originally Posted by TSYORK

Add us to the running ticker-tape. Pre-therapy was Femara and Menopur. There were three viable follicles. SA: 42 million with excellent motility. IUI was 06/17. Also, taking Progesterone va-j-j tablets for the next two weeks to help the youngins stick!

Gratz on the 42 million, that's a great number! How big were your follies? I also had my IUI on the 16th. Here's to being due date buddies!

- Angel