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I am here after a long time and don't know whether people will remember me or not. However, some of the members of March 2008 might remember me as I delivered a baby girl then and was on this forum day in and day out.

Myself and DH was on the top of the world, but as they say there are pros and cons of everything. Dealing with a 17 month old is not easy and if you plan to work from home, there are thousand interruptions. I have also employed a day maid but that doesn't help much. My daughter is getting spoilt!

I also started working from home as a freelance content writer and the feedback encouraged me to add more quality to my writing.

These days I have been diagnosed with bipolar and on heavy meds thrice a day! Poor me On the top of this all, my father in law expired and my hubby's support system came crashing down. Though I insist but he does not like to share things with me. A couple of days back when my daughter fell down from the cot, all blame was on me. I tried calling my parents and the response I get was marvellous - Dad says take a sleeping pill and mom says go into a different room and sleep...as if everyone has disowned me. I feel very sad and helpless! If I talk to them about separation,they wont listen...

Now my DH wants me to go for ECT/shock treatment, whatever it is, and I am sh*t scared. When I inquired from the hospital, they said that apart from the 14 ECT sessions, I will have to eat all those yucky meds too. This doesn't seem fair to me either financially or coz of the fact how much my body can take it!!! My spouse thinks it would be better for him if I behave normally with him.

Does any one of you have bipolar? Have you gone for ECTs? How did you deal with your depression? Please come up with as many thoughts as possible as it would help me take the right decision.

Thanks.

A note for moderators: I am not exactly aware where to post this thread so have pasted it at a couple of places in the forum.

Thanks.