[Escapedreamz]

It was the most joyous news we got...we were pregnant! I was given a due date for Jan.29,09. It just happened to be my husband's birthday! We were all thinking how amazing to be blessed with a little baby on DH birthday.

And then the worst news came to us. I had some red bleeding and went to emergency room on June 23 (day of my 2nd wedding annivesary). Ultrasound came back...baby's heart stopped beating. Baby was 8w 3d.

Just a week earlier we saw the baby's heart flickering and heard the heartbeat, awesome feeling.

This is soo devastating for my husband and me, and our immediate family.

Everything is in Allah's hands and He knows what is best for us.

I am very nervous about this D&C procedure they are having me go through on Friday.

The worst feeling was when they were doing the ultrasound, I looked over the screen, they enlarged it a lot and saw the little embryo all still and silent no heart beated.

It is annoying when relatives are trying to comfort me and say....think of it, at least the baby wasn't like 9 months or a still born...how is that fu*ken comforting to hear? Yes, I know the feeling would be much more worse in a situation like that...so what my loss shouldn't be validated? Unbelievable what people say.
We had a baby growing as much as it could and it's little heart stopped, I carried it for the many weeks, nurturing in my womb....and what, I have to just say oh well it was too small to be considered an actual "baby"? I'm sorry I believe in life as soon as the sperm hits homerun with the egg.

The image will never leave my vision. The loss will deepen my sorrow even more everytime when my anniversary date comes around and my husband's birthdate.

I just am soo hurt and loss for words. Sorry if I rambled, just had to let some of my sadness out.

[anirtak]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that family and friends try to help by their words but their truely is nothing that can be said to make the pain go away. I also believe that life begins with conception. Your baby will be with you in your heart each and everyday. He or she is with God looking down upon you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[libragirl72]

I don't really have any words to make you feel better, but I wanted to let you know that I am so sorry for your loss. I know you are hurting. And your feeling is painful no matter how far along your baby was.

I will keep you in my prayers! Take care of you!

[sunny72]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[HollyfromSC]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel, I had a miscarriage last year. Family and friends try to say things to comfort you...but the things they say are mostly dumb and there are no words to make you feel better right now. Just know the pain does lessen, but it never goes completely away. You lost your child.....and you are going to feel pain just like anyone who lost their child. You need to grieve just like anyone else does that loses their child. I did focus on the few weeks I had to be a mom to my child, even if it was in my womb. After my miscarriage I just kept saying...at least I had that small time to be able to be a mom. I wasn't sure I would ever get pregnant again....and luckily I did, but I can tell you....I am still scared and worried about having a miscarriage every day....but I just thank God that I was given anytime in my life to be a Mom, even if it is just being pregnant. Anyway--take your time grieving, you need to grieve and if people do not understand...then stay away from those people for now and surround yourself with supportive people. Take care.

Holly

[hopin4baby]

im so sorry for your lost. i just lost my two baby boys 3weeks ago and no word will make you feel better.

[bd711]

I am so sorry for your loss. It's devastating no matter at what point in your pregnancy you lose your baby. You're right that you'll always carry this with you. But believe me that you'll be able to pick up the pieces at some point. You just need to take care of yourself and allow yourself to mourn this right now. If people are saying things that are not helpful, tell them that it's not helpful. They're trying to comfort you, and they clearly are going down the wrong path. If they don't stop, get yourself some distance. You are going through a crisis and need to take the time to get through it. Also, I know you're scared about the d&c, but you will get through that. The physical part is not fun, but it's not unbearable. As you already know, it's the emotional part that is the harder piece.

My thoughts are with you.

[mmikowski]

I can say that I know exactly how you feel, last year I found out i was pregnant for the first time in 3 1/2 years of trying it was the grandest of news. My due date was to by Jan 31st however on june 24 I started bleeding and when we went the the re's office there was no heart beat. It was the worst day of my life. But it is now a year later and I have a wonderful little girl who is a great gift. It was hard to try again after our loss and let me tell you that it was so worth it! I will keep you in my prayers.

[Neta]

Sorry to hear of ur loss, hope ur heart gets stronger.

[bq122]

I Know How You Feel I Lost A Baby In My First Trimester Before My Son, And It Hurts Because The Moment You Hear Your Preg. Thats It Our Whole Life Revolves About Having Or Adding This Baby To The Family.
Its An Instant Love, And Then When That Love Is Lost. It Will Hurt.
But Find Strength In Your Belief To Help You Get Thru Each Day One At A Time.
You Can Vent To Us As Long As You Want Or Need Too.
Gob Bless..