[ekburke]

Oh Ladies,

If we could just mold them into what we need them to be...wouldn't life be grand. It is exhausting!

I actually swear that I am Oing! You know that all too familiar twinge in the side....can you ovulate prior to HCG hitting 0? I look at it this way...I had a 5% chance of a blood clot causing my M/C...maybe I can defy the 5% chance of getting preggers on my own. HHHMMM?????

HistoryTeach...I too am a teacher and I took this summer off! It is disgusting how the baby raffle works...if you are young and not equipt...give them a baby!

Okay... I feel better! Jenn...my D&C was the best decision I ever made. I hope everything goes well...you are in my thoughts and prayers!

To all the rest...healing wishes!

,

Erin

[missywojo]

Good morning ladies!

Jenn--Will you get genetic testing done too now that you are getting the D&C? Also, make sure you let them know ahead of time if you want to know the sex or not. A friend of mine had the nurse tell her and she didn't want to know. Good luck tomorrow. Get lots of drugs!

Theresa-- I know what you mean about having to balance between another kid and our loss. DH doesn't have another kid, but in DH's family my sis-in-law just had a baby so the family is so happy about the first grand kid and so sad about our loss. Four days after our first u/s where we found out the HB was slow and the baby probably wasn't going to make it, DH and I stood up as god parents for sis-in-law's baby's baptism. I haven't seen the photos yet, but I am sure I have a vacant look on my face in all of them.

As to hubbies, I have found that I am better off if I just tell DH what I want instead of waiting for him to figure it out. (I would wait forever!) But he's having a hard time too. He really does NOT want to do another IVF. So in addition to raising the money, I have to convince him too.

As to pain/discomfort, I am sorry that you ladies are going through the extra pain. I didn't really have any. Just bleeding/spotting for two weeks. I guess I "lucked" out on that.

Hope everyone has a good day today.

[jennieves]

Hello beautiful ladies!
Back from my D and C, went perfectly and I feel good. I was very well taken care of during the whole process, afterall they were all my coworkers.

Ready to get back to normal and enjoy life before embarking on another IVF journey.

Oh about the genetic testing, I decided not to. My doc said, 25%of all pregnancies miscarry and my insurance co may baulk at paying for a 2000$ test on my first miscarriage. It made sense to me. I decided to not drag anything else out and just move on. I think no matter what the test said I would try again anyway. SO I am letting it all go.

[chuchu]

Jennieves, I am glad that everything worked out well today for you. Now, please take a time to rest and recover all your energy.

This week I have been feeling back in the game. Finally, I could work my hours and make some contribution. Phisically, I am doing soooo much better than last week. Just not using a sanitary napking makes me feel different.

Today I cooked some fish and made some white wine sangria (super yummy!!). And for dessert, crepe suzette..... OMG!! Delicious!

Tomorrow I wil start taking again my Prenatal Vitamins. I was curious about what is everybody taking? I think I am going to order some of that Royal Jelly for me and DH. Are you taking Estradiol? I am taking 3 times a day (RE says it will prevent my uterus from scaring).

I am going to bed.

[ekburke]

Hi Ladies,

Claudia, my RE discontinued all me meds. I am currently taking my prenatal (target brand...my insurance did not cover the script...it was not a preferred brand. RE said what I had was fine...400mg of Folic Acid)

I am interested in the Royal Jelly but am afraid to take anything not prescribed. Maybe I will call today and ask that they think...I have a meeting with my RE next week to discuss a game plan. I too am back in the game.

I got my 2 week follow up HCG level and I am at 64...I was hoping for lower, but what can you do.

I am heading on a day trip to NYC to meet my parents...I am super excited to get out of town for the day. I will check in with you all later.

Erin

[historyteach]

good morning ladies - how are we doing on this wednesday... i had a fight with my snooze button and the darn thing won

Erin - there is a possibility that you are O'ing, or your uterus may just be going back to it's normal size - i have been having all kind of little pains and cramps. as for the royal jelly - i have been taking it and i will talk to the RE about it next week when i have the appointment. i know that your beta isn't where you want it but you are getting so close! i hope that you have fun in NYC - my DH and i are thinking about going up there over Memorial day weekend and do all the tourist stuff, he has never seen the statue of liberty and i want to do the empire state building for some pictures, the last time i was there, visibility was zero.

missy - i understand about telling DH what we want, i think that is the best way but every once in a while i would like him to figure it out on his own.... a woman can dream. i can't imagine how difficult it was to go through the baptism. oh sweetie, i hope that you are starting to heal

jenn - glad that things went well with the D&C - i understand about the testing too but we have been unexplained and i was hoping for an answer. i didn't get any with the first, maybe something out of the second. make sure that you rest and take care of yourself

claudia - i am so glad that you are feeling better and that you are able to get to do some things. you must send me the receipe on the sangria - i love it from the olive garden - and i try but i just have not been able to perfect it yet.

well ladies i should get back to my students, have a great day

[Highopes]

Hi everyone - this post has really grown & it's nice to have all the support & understanding of what we are going through (yes, our dh's try but its not the same!) I go for my follow up appointment with my Dr. tomorrow (after my d & c in June). The Dr. should be tellng me the genetic results...I'm alittle scared. I don't know if I want to know, but part of me does!

I just wanted to vent about my day to all of you.....someone I work with announced she is 16 weeks along & since it is summer everywhere I seem to look there are pregnant woman around (am I the only one who's noticed this? Even the woman working at Dunkin' Donuts this morning was pregnant too!)......aagh!!!! Hope everyone is having a good week.

Sherry

[historyteach]

sherry - best of luck with the doctor appointment tomorrow, have you decided to know about the sex, make sure you make your decision before you go in because i didn't and i just blurted out yes and i wish i could unlearn that information...
as for the pregnant women, yes, they are everywhere and they seem to be to stalking me. i swear they have a radar and know just when to show up when i am at my absolute lowest. i know that it hurts but i keep trying to tell myself that it will be me in a couple of months.

are you close with the woman at work? that happened to me last year, and i ended up having to tell her for my own sanity that we could work together on a professional level but i couldn't do anything more than that... keep us posted on your doctor appointment. many blessings to all

[chuchu]

Hello everyone!!

I hope everybody had a good Wednesday. I worked the whole day!! I am tired but happy that I could make it through the day.

As for the white wine sangria:
1) I put a can of fruits in heavy syrup in a bowl and I added 6 oz of white rum. I let it marinate/soak for one hour.
2) I chilled one bottle of chardonnay and one bottle of Sprite Zero (trying to cut a little bit of calories... after all the wine! LOL!)
3) In each glass I put some of the fruits with syrup, wine (2/3) and Sprite (1/3)
4) Cheers!/Salud!

[historyteach]

Claudia - i do believe that may just have to be made this weekend.

how is everyone doing? do you find that some days you are perfectly fine and go along with your normal business and then the next you can't stop thinking of the what if's... like how far along you would be, what you would look like by now, etc. i just want to make sure that i am not losing my mind.

i hope that everyone has a blessed day

[ekburke]

Hi Ladies,

I am having a what if kinda morning. I think I am tired so I am more emotional, but I cannot get a handle on myself this morning.

Question: Does anyone still feel somewhat exhausted? I understand that I had a D&C two weeks ago, but I am still pretty beat all the time. Is it hormones, depression or just fatique from all the drugs and procedures. I feel great otherwise, but I am only 1/2 back to where I was in regard to physical activity.

AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!! Pregnant women make me sad!

,

Erin

[chuchu]

Jaime and Erin, sometimes I wish there was a pill that we could take and make us forget our emotional pains and aches.... Pregnant women and babies make me feel sad (everyday a little bit less) and then all the "if" thoughts appear in my mind. The biggest: what if IVF doesn't work next time??????

Jaime, I am haunted by what was supposed my EDD. DH and I have agreed that if we try IVF again it will be before March 09.

Erin, are you taking your vitamins? Maybe your iron is low.

I have received some wonderful e-mails from my friends and family that have really given me lots of inspiration. They all say that since IVF worked for us we should try again in the future. Since we are all Catholics, they all mention God in certain way or the other. I think I am starting to ease my anger towards Him.

I won't work today but I have to prepare a photo session for tonight. So, I will have to do some shopping for it.

For the weekend, we plan on watching the Olympics. I am going to be hooked for the next two weeks.

Love for all!

[historyteach]

Erin - i have been really tired and it has been almost 4 weeks for me. i am not really sure if it is from the procedures or the depression thing. but it has been getting better.

claudia - i am glad that you are getting some wonderful support from your friends and family. pretty much all i get is i am sorry, but they don't know what to say after that

i hope that each of you are finding a little more peace each day

[Pricklecushion]

Hi everyone,

Claudia, I saw you asked about prenatals. I can't take them until my beta is back to zero because of the methotrexate shot (it's at 22 now yay!), but when I do take them I take New Chapter. They're more expensive and you have to take them three times a day, but I've read they are the best. They are also better on my stomach.
Oh, and thank you so much for the sangria recipe. I'm going to try it for sure.

Erin,
In response to if anyone is still tired I feel so exhausted still and it's been weeks since I had the methotrexate shot. I'm supposed to be pretty much back to normal but I sure don't feel like it.

Missy,
I too have learned to tell my dh what I want or it will never happen. Sometimes I still wish he would surprise me though

Jaime, I totally feel like one day will be great and then the next is awful. My life has definitely been like an emotional roller coaster ride lately.

Jenni,
So glad to hear your D&C went well.

-Teresa

[missywojo]

Hey ladies.
What a crappy day I had yesterday. I have been trying to fill up my days with everything BUT fertility. Well, had to go get b/w to see if beta's down to zero yet (It's not, still at 73). So all I could think about is how we lost our baby. I was sad and mad all day. It was terrible.

As to EDD, ours was for my birthday!!! 2-9-09. So now in addition to turning 40, I will be thinking of what could have been. I know everyone says God won't give you more than you can handle, but I am wondering if he has overestimated my abilities.

Well, I am still trying to figure out how to finance the second IVF. I had a "CareCredit" account open from about five years ago when I did Lasik. They increased my limit -- but now I find out my RE won't take that card. Ugh.

I filled out an application for the Capitol One Fertility Loan, and was approved, but the interest is 16%!!

So, I'm back at the drawing board on the financing.

But, I will be making Claudia's sangria soon!!!