[Sirens24]

I'm starting this thread because I think it will shine some light on some women, to know that they are not alone. When it comes down to having a miscarriage, it just really puts a damper on things, and whether you are trying to get pregnant again straight away, or if you are going to wait to try again, everyone can voice their experiences and wishes, and hopes and dreams about being pregnant again.

So, my story is thankfully short and sweet, but I found out I was pregnant 3 days prior to my a/f being due. I used the First Response, which can detect Hcg levels up to 5 days prior to a/f. My fiance and I were trying to get preggers that month and first try we succeeded. At 4 weeks and 5 days, I started to bleed lightly, light pink, but only when I wiped. So didn't think nothing of it until I woke up the next day, where I had heavy bleeding, and blood clots no larger than a dime but many.

I went to the hospital after my B-day party at my moms house, and they did an unltrasound, and said that they couldn't really see anything at all. They did bloodwork and then I went home to wait until 2 days later to get more bloodwork to compare Hcg levels.

At 4 weeks and 5 days, the Dr. said I should have been around 10 000 but I was only 25. Two days later after the second blood test, I was back to prepregnancy levels of 3.9. That's where I say I would be lucky, because I have read different threads on different sites where some women don't go back down for weeks. It was obvious that even if I had of stayed pregnant, it would have not been a very healthy baby. So, I am assuming now that, since my Hcg levels are back to normal, I should be able to try to get pregnant this month.

I am hoping that I may ovulate and get another positive prego test within the next month so I will come back and update this thread and let everyone know

[jenedens6102]

Every miscarriage is difficult whether you loose your pregnancy early or late. The hopes of having a child we all hold close to our hearts. After four years of trying I had my dreams come true in a natural conception, many doctors had given us a less then 1% chance of ever conceiving. However, two weeks later that pregnancy was terminated due to ectopic. My levels were rising but not appropriately and finally stalled. During my ultrasound they found no signs of pregnancy in my uterus and I received the methotrexate injection. I was told to wait three months before trying again. We got our "ok" to go on June 25th, I ovulated on the 29th and now Ethan is 8 months old. I still mourn the loss of my first baby and will never forget that he/she was my first pregnancy. I have it written in Ethan's baby book as he came home from the hospital a year to the day that I lost my first pregnancy. We came full circle in a year. I never thought we'd be here and was so devastated when I did finally conceive only to loose that hope within a few weeks. But God is in control. I turned my despair and sorrow into light - that pregnancy showed me that regardless of doctors and their statistics I could indeed get pregnant and on our own. No more medical treatments for us. Did I think that within the week of being told we could try again I'd get pregnant? Definitely not, but I did and I couldn't be happier. There is always hope to be had. As my husband used to say "keep reaching for the gold."

[nmirwin011108]

This is a very good thread.

We found out on September 25th, 2008 that we were FINALLY pregnant. On November 6th we had an ultrasound (which was just one of many due to my severe case of OHSS) and our twins no longer had their heartbeats November 11th, we went for my D&C.

Going through this loss was the hardest thing my DH & I have had to go through. We were just so excited that it finally happened and I went through so much with the OHSS that we just prayed every single day that it would be a healthy pregnancy and that we would get to meet our twins, but obviously it took a turn for the worst.

It'll only be going on 2 weeks since my D&C and I feel happy and positive some days and miserably sad and that it will never happen again the other days. I know in time it will get better, but I will never forget them, no matter what. It was the best and worst experience all in one, but I would't change it for the world. They are and always will be a part of us.

We want to start trying right away. We have to wait 2 months, so in the beginning of the year we will be trying! Please that we all get ! Good luck to you all and please update when you get some news!

[jenedens6102]

Have you thought about ways to memorialize them? I bought a rose bush for Jordan, it was white and called "Honor" which I thought was appropriate. I planted it on Mother's Day and it started blooming around the time I got pregnant with Ethan. I also have a miscarriage necklace that had three birthstones on it. One for the month conceived, one for the month lost and one for the month the baby was due. I also bought a stone to go next to the rose bush. It was angels wings wrapped around a baby. There is a picture on here somewhere but I'll find it and post it for you girls later. They may be gone but never forgotten, always a part of us!

[jenedens6102]

Here is the picture I was talking about:

http://forums.fertilitycommunity.com...e-dscn1161.jpg

[nmirwin011108]

We have not "yet" done something for them. A lot of people have given us that idea and we really want to do something, but we haven't decided on what yet for sure. The picture you showed of what you did was beautiful and the necklace idea is the best I heard! Thanks for the wonderful ideas. I just hope that I will "emotionally" be ready to do something for them soon. I also hope that when we start to try again maybe we will be just as lucky and get pregnant right away, on our own!!!!

[Angelwithhope]

My DH and I have been through three pregnancy losses but not one of them do we regret or are angry about for we had our lives touched for just a moment, a few weeks, how ever long it was.

We saw our first baby's heart beat shortly after we learned we were pregnant due to spotting. The ER doctor told us that he guaranteed we would be holding our little one in our arms in eight months. A week later I began to bleed uncontrollably and lost our first Angel baby. (In december 2006)

In May of 2007 we lost our second Angel, too beautiful for Earth and I believe God needed another Angel for himself.

In February of 2008, we experienced the ectopic pregnancy that nearly took my life. I owe it all to the nurses, ER docs and OB surgeon who saved my life that day. I was bleeding out into my abdomen and nearly died after surgery. Every day I try to show those doctors and nurses that saving my life, wasn't in vain! That I am doing everything to prove that I deserve what they did for me.

Each loss has taught me more then any surprise and right away successful pregnancy could have ever shown me. It showed me patience, that my DH and I could do wonderful things, that we could be each other's rock, were strong for each other and most of all that we needed to appreciate what we DID have and not what we didn't have! We have each other!!!

In July of 2008, we completed our first IVF and in August found out we were pregnant with our twins. Yesterday, we found out we are pregnant with healthy twin boys! All my past pregnancies, they will never ever be forgotten and the boys will know about their siblings who came if only for a short while! We are blessed for all that God has brought us to, but most importantly we are blessed for what God has brought us through!! There is much hope, we just need to hold onto it and not let anyone rip it away from us!