[crANP]

i Ladies Ok all you ladies with BFP;s here is my story. I lost a pregnancy in Nov after having a low (96) heart rate at 7 weeks. My beta also didnt quite double and I was measuring small. Now i have a BFP from IVF with one maybe two. My first beta was 157 and 2nd four days later 800's They were pleased with that I have an ultrasound tomorrow 5 weeks 6 days and they said they may or may not see the heartbeat. They really just want to check for 1 or 2. The problem is that DH and I are having trouble being excited because of our last experience. Has this happened to anyone else? Also anyone have an ultrasound at 5 weeks and what is the normal hr? Thanks Im so nervous

[LGB]

cranp-Congrats on your current pregnancy!
I just wanted to say that I had a m/c back in May and am gearing up to do our FET soon, and if...no, WHEN it turns out positive, I know I will be scared sh*tless until after the first trimester.
In my mind, there is nothing worse than actually making it "through" IVF only to lose the pregnancy.
I do understand and I think you have to take it all in baby steps, appt by appt.
One of the girls on another thread worked out her "strategy" to make it in between appts, which was to celebrate the milestones one by one and stay busy in between each one doing little projects, etc.
Hang in there!

[kblythe]

That was my experience, too. After a m/c and a chemical pregnancy, I was so pessimistic that I never enjoyed the first part of my pregnancy. I kept waiting for the bad news I was so sure to come. It ended up being wasted worry since I have a super-healthy baby. But given all that we go through to get pregnant and our disappointments along the way, I think it's natural to not allow our hopes to get too high. Having said that, your numbers look awesome.

As for a 5 week u/s, that may be too early to see any heartbeat at all, which would be NORMAL! They may see a flickering fetal pole, but I don't think they will measure the heart rate at this point. I certainly don't recall getting heartbeat numbers that early.

Ooh, gotta run. I'm at work.

Congrats on the pregnancy!

k.

[*Mimi*]

I'm glad I found people who seem to understand what I'm feeling!!!

I'm traumatized.. two miscarriages @ 5 weeks, now I'm pregnant, 6weeks, but it has been difficult to be truly excited about it

Today I feel better, because I saw a heartbeat.. but my RE said it still too early to say if this will end up ok...

I think I need to stick with people who really sympathyze with what I'm feeling

Does anybody know a thread for current preggos with history of previous mc's?

Thanks

[jkish34]

I feel your pain. I was preg back in 2001. told everyone. Then ended up with a molar pregnancy. I was devistated. Now I am going for my first IUI in August and am so scared of it happening again. I feel like no one understands what I am going through. I put on my happy face. I don;t want anyone to know when i do get preg. I feel as if i will keep it to myself until i am huge. I just dont see myself enjoying any of this because of my pain form my last pregnancy. I guess it's just something we deal with in our own way. hopefuly time will heal the old wounds. I agree talk to your doctor and see what they say because they are real feelings.

[makenalelu]

I know what your going thru. I had an ectopic in Sept 08, and then got pregnant again in Mar 09. I was "cautiously" excited, especially because I knew all my follies were on my left tube (which was the tube the ectopic was on, and had partially ruptured). Betas kept going up and then seeing the hbs at 7 weeks sealed the deal. After that, we let ourselves by super excited!!!

Try to enjoy it! Your betas look awesome and I'm sure everything will work out!!!

[Anj70]

Gosh!! so glad to see others going thru what i am. Had 2 m/c (one at 8 weeks; one chemical). Now pregnant... and so so worried. My third beta didnt quite double in 48 hours (although it tripled over 96 hours) ... and tomorrow they are doing an u/s and im TERRIFIED that they will find an empty gestational sac... or something wrong. Spent all of yesterday evening crying... my DH cant understand why im crying in advance of any potential bad news.

How do I explain that im just so scared and anxious... and that my optimism is at an all -time low, and im just steeling myself to hear bad news. Third IVF ... and 3 BFPs... but nothing to show for it.

When will my day come ?

[dylansmommy]

honey try to think that maybe this is your day..thinking the best and preparing for the worst is easier said than done(omg do i know) but sometimes you just have to try and be positive..think omg i am ..think this time next year i will be holding my sweet baby..think of all the diapers you will change(o wait maybe not) good luck hon i will be thinking of you
naomi