[anirtak]

Well ladies,
My EDD would have been tomorrow. I am and have been dreading tomorrow. I am trying to come up with something to do tomorrow to not make it hurt so much. Any ideas?????
To make things worse, I was cleaning my desk off today (I am a teacher) and I came across a card that another teacher gave me when I found out that I was pregnant...she too had found out two days earlier that she was also pregnant. The card was congratulating me and saying how she was so glad that we were going to get to experience this together. Well needless to say I read it today when I came acrossed it and began crying right away. She also happened to bring her baby to school today (she had her three weeks early). I am so happy for her but it just makes it so hard to think that is where I should be.
Thanks for listening. I don't know what I would do without you ladies. You help me stay sane!

[inhishands]

Hi Katrina, so sorry to hear about your sad day...its so hard, the only thing we can do is pray our day will come again. I just went through what your dreading tomorrow my EDD was 5/25 and i thought about it for days before the day actually got here.... i thought that morning i would be fine, but honestly, i was so sad in the morning, let out some good cries.... and finally got moving around noon and feeling better....
there is hope, you will get through this.. hang in there!!! were thinking of you!

[sarah16]

I'm so sorry about your day. I hope that you can do something nice for yourself this summer. Pamper yourself!

[ara79]

oh katrina, i am so sorry. i know i am dreading september 16th. i don't have any ideas of how to make the day easier, but please remember you are not alone and that we're here for you. again, i am sorry. i will keep you in my prayers.
amy

[SchmennaLeigh]

Our angel's due date was hard. I won't candy-coat it. My Husband did take me out for a nice dinner and I had some friends call and check on me. Basically? I hid from the world. It's what worked for me this year.

Hang in.

[anirtak]

Thanks ladies,
I have been ok so far this morning...a little teary eyed. I know once I get to work I should be ok. I have 32 five year olds to take care. I normally do not have time to think about myself during the day.

I have prayed to God and will continue to pray throughout the day for Him to give the strength to get me through this day. Thanks for your prayers and thoughts.

I check in back tonight to check in with you ladies and let you know how my day went.

[pearlsofia]

Katrina,

im so sorry you are sad. i will be honest i've been trying to 'ignore' the fact that my EDD would've been June 19th, which is Sunday. everyday after my m/c i kept thinking today i would've been this far along, but i was able to shut that out to the point that i lost track but for some reason June 10th is like super glued to my mind. i'm not sure how i'm going to handle this sunday. *SIGH* only with his strength will i survive that day, that's all i can say.

yes, i too wish i could hide under a rock. we are here for you and will be praying for you as well.

[jenedens6102]

Oh Katrina, I can only imagine what today is going to be like for you. I know that come November 12th I'll be in the same boat. Your mind never lets you forget, neither does your heart. So please rest assured that we are here for you. Whatever you need of us today we'll try our best to provide. If you need to laugh, need to cry, need to vent - we'll be here with you.

[anirtak]

Thanks for everyone's understanding and support. I got home from work just a few minutes and needless to say...I am crying. Today was really rough. I was doing pretting good until one of the teachers that I teach with tells me that her son and daughter-in-law are pregnant. She said it in a way that she was sympathetic becuase she knows how much pain I am in but she is excited that she is going to be a grandma. I had to fight back the tears. What bugs me the most is the first month they try getting pregnant it works for them. It is so frustrating that we have to work so hard at it when others don't. What makes them so lucky. I know that she did not know what today was or she wouldn't have told be today. It just made today all of the more difficult. And then at lunch she brings it up again to tell all of the other teachers. I just stared at my food. And then when I got back into my classroom...I went into the bathroom and CRIED. Thanks for listening to be vent.
I just keeping praying and thinking about my angel in heaven.

[mom4kitties]

I'm sorry to hear that your day was so tough. It's especially too bad that you had to hear about your coworker's grandbaby. Tomorrow is a new day...

[theresa0604]

Katrina (and all the other ladies who have gone through a m/c), I feel your pain.
The saying goes that God doesn't give us more than we can handle but sometimes it's just really hard to believe and live by that saying.
My EDD would have been June 14th ... my father's birthday ... I mourn for the loss of our child and I mourn for the loss of being able to give my father, and of course my mother, their first grandchild however God has a plan and I just have to have faith that our time will come.
I am also torn because my SIL is now pregnant (20 weeks) and every time she sends an update from Babycenter.com with her progress I am sad because I never got to experience what she is feeling.
We're taking the summer to re-group and will try IVF again at the end of the summer and hope that this will give us the family we so much want.
Please know that many are there holding your hand during this difficult time ... the sun will come up again tomorrow and will shine on us all.