[hopeful2bmom]

Ronni- You are hot!
Look at those sexy arms too!
I love your hair- And your house!

[Angelwithhope]

Ronni- You are so gorgeous Hun! I told DH about Texas and he asked me "Where? WHERE? WHERE?!" lol So where?! hee hee

[designdiva32]

Ronni you look beautiful. And of course typical design student me is looking at your lovely house too. I want to move to Texas and live where the houses are big and sexy and the weather is warm!

[jencat215]

Ronni-you are hot! I love your hair!!!

okay, so I was looking at that 18 children Dugger post and clicked on the link to the website. I am thoroughly disgusted. I understand that back in the day people had huge families because they needed help on the farm and crap, and that survival rates weren't good, but 18 children??? How do you give attention to 18 children? Is it fair to have your older children raise the younger ones?
Sorry, I am not a fan and it turns my stomach...

[hopeful2bmom]

Originally Posted by jencat215

Ronni-you are hot! I love your hair!!!

okay, so I was looking at that 18 children Dugger post and clicked on the link to the website. I am thoroughly disgusted. I understand that back in the day people had huge families because they needed help on the farm and crap, and that survival rates weren't good, but 18 children??? How do you give attention to 18 children? Is it fair to have your older children raise the younger ones?
Sorry, I am not a fan and it turns my stomach...

I am with you Jen. Also, I did not see the point in posting that either...

[Angelwithhope]

Jen- total agreement here! They are planning MORE if the "Lord" allows them! Pulease!! There is also a section where they say they were on BCP and it killed their second child and had to ask God for forgiveness. Excuse me?! I do not have to ask forgiveness for my miscarriages!

[parker john]

Ronni ... you are stunning you hot thing

I am serious about Texas in July ...

[sunny72]

Ronni, love the hair. And you look so in shape! I feel so squidgy compared to you. You should be posing for Buff Magazine (as in “in shape“ not “naked“ unless you have no inhibitions at all!)

Susan, you are so feisty fighting with the old supermarket biotch. One time I dropped DH at work at to kill time we went to Walmart on the way home. It was still kind of dark when we left and a man had creeped me out in there so when I went to leave I left my cart next to my car so I didn’t have to leave DD by herself even for a split second. I never do that, but the parking lot was virtually empty and I was spooked. So next thing I knew, an older lady pulled up in the spot right next to me even though the rest of the parking lot was empty. She gets out of her car and called me an a**hole. I was so mad that I flipped her off and continued to drive off. Next thing I knew, this old biotch chased my car and hit it with her fist and then ran off. I started to reverse and felt like running her over, but really was going to get close to the entrance so I could tell security that they had a crazy biotch in there and she just hit my car. Who does that? Instead, I reconsidered because DD was in the car and just let it go. I was soooooo mad, the maddest I’d been at someone in a long time and really wanted to run her over. (JK of course, ... sort of)

Josee, I feel for you with the IL problems. It can be draining. When we first go married, my IL’s were a big part of our lives to the point where I forgot who I was. I have to say they were very accommodating and welcomed me with open arms, but in another way I felt smothered and angry by the backstabbing and constant gossip. Hmm, I could write about this alllll day, but I’d have to FB it.

Rachael, I’m not sure that the fear that comes along with being a parent goes away. With me it was a paralyzing fear of SIDS, then it became a fear of her choking, then a fear of her falling to her death on the stairs and now it’s the frightening thoughts of leaving her in someone else’s care when school starts and I’m not there to prevent something terrible from happening. Sometimes I wonder if it’ll be like this always, and I suspect it might be. I know I micro-manage the poor thing, and it’s the biggest complaint I have about my own mother, but it’s just what happens I guess. I do know some people who are nearly as paranoid and mindful of their little ones. Not that they are neglectful, just that they don’t have the same level of fear.

As for pill popping husbands. I gotta say I am very lucky, well at least now I am. DH really looks after himself and takes all the supplements I insist his takes. Poor guy already take lipitor and bp meds, so he gets a bit of a belly ache sometimes . Unfortunately, as I’ve mentioned before probably, for the first 7 years of our marriage he was a hardcore alcoholic. I was so used to the dysfunctional behavior that it become normal to the point where I questioned whether it was me with the problem. The year before and the year after DD was born, things were really hard. He wasn’t a mean drunk, just someone that had to drink constantly because he’d shake and couldn’t function. One time he was hospitalized with pancreatitis for 9 days and couldn’t eat or drink the whole time. I still didn’t make the connect that it was alcohol related and he convinced me it was to do with hereditary high blood pressure etc.. We actually conceived DD in the sober window he had after that hospitalization and I was convinced for a while that it was because he had been soaking his sperm, but turns out his SA remained the same even to this day. Unfortunately he relapsed even after the grueling first hospital day.
After having DD my eyes were opened and that behavior became unacceptable. It may have been okay for me to deal with, but I wasn't having my DD in that environment. When I look at my photo album of when she was a newborn, I get really sad because he looked so wasted in all the pictures. I would get so upset when he’d fall asleep drunk and I would be up all night with a newborn every night, all night sometimes. I would think, what if we need him and he would be so **** drunk to help. Luckily he decided to go cold turkey and has been sober for two years. I wouldn’t’ recommend rehabing by yourself, because he had delirium tremens and a grand-mal seizure and nearly bit off his tongue. It was one of the hardest couple of days in my life. It took a while for me to get over it because he essentially lied to me about how much he drank for so long. I knew he like to tie one on at the end of the day, but because I was raised so strictly, I guess in a way he convinced me that it was me that had high expectations and it was normal to drink all the time. In his defense, his father had substance issues and had made some horrible scenes at family weddings. I am thankful in a way he was a closet drinker and not a social disgrace. It also took me a while to adjust to a new husband because I felt like I didn’t know the real him. He was so soaked with alcohol for so long that the new him took some getting used to. He didn’t fall asleep on the sofa half as much for a start and he was just so present. He was not longer puffy and the constant smell of alcohol was gone.
Now DH’s obsession is his daughter, fitness and making music (I‘m not sure I make that list). I can live with that. He’s still obsessive, but in a better way. I’m glad I hung in there because he’s a really great father and DH. He just had to shake the addiction. I’m not mad because nobody wants to be enslaved to a substance. I think I could probably be an addiction counselor because I had a few years of experience.
Thankfully, if all goes well, he’ll give DD the advantage of a father who’s got their sh** together because he didn’t have that.
Okay, sorry, got carried away with that one. All that from the pill-popping conversation. I guess I still have some unresolved emotions about it all. I haven't talked to anyone much about it. I just like to spill my guts here.

Kelly, I take a good sized teaspoon at some point of the day. It’s a pretty loaded spoonful - is that too much?

Shawna, I’m glad you can to the u/s. Yay for useful DH’s!!!!

Jen, I’ll have to check out the website now.

Martie, I hope everything is going well with your and the baby.

Alana, I don’t think anyone wants you to stress over baby registries. If you want to you should just buy them a little something special. You are very sweet going to the trouble. Sometimes people who work in customer service, just shouldn't!

I am having serious anxiety about my new job situation. New boss coming on board, longer hours, money will be as tight as a fish’s butt-hole and just feeling overwhelmed. So if I don’t have any sick days accrued will I not be able to even do an IVF anytime soon? Too much to think about. I was a totally crappy poop all day today because of it all.

On a brighter note, I didn’t know IKEA had food there. That was a nice surprise!!!

I think the Duggar’s are greedy and nuts!

[goob07]

Thanks ladies. Needless to say - I don't feel hot. I feel old and dried up but that's okay. I'm healthy and that's more than a lot of people can say.

Shawna - I live in a town called McKinney. It's about 40 miles north of Dallas.

Alana - I'm always nervous to post pics with the house in the background since you're the design star. You have awesome taste so thanks for the approval! The room in my pictures is my study/office. Here's the credenza/desk I'm always sitting at when typing to you girls...oh - and of course - my trusty sidekick Buster.

desk wbuster.JPG desk.JPG

And...FINALLY...here are a couple of great pics from when I had dinner with Jen and April. Aren't they adorable???

jen and walt.JPG mel and april.JPG

[hopeful2bmom]

Originally Posted by sunny72

Ronni, love the hair. And you look so in shape! I feel so squidgy compared to you. You should be posing for Buff Magazine (as in “in shape“ not “naked“ unless you have no inhibitions at all!)

Susan, you are so feisty fighting with the old supermarket biotch. One time I dropped DH at work at to kill time we went to Walmart on the way home. It was still kind of dark when we left and a man had creeped me out in there so when I went to leave I left my cart next to my car so I didn’t have to leave DD by herself even for a split second. I never do that, but the parking lot was virtually empty and I was spooked. So next thing I knew, an older lady pulled up in the spot right next to me even though the rest of the parking lot was empty. She gets out of her car and called me an a**hole. I was so mad that I flipped her off and continued to drive off. Next thing I knew, this old biotch chased my car and hit it with her fist and then ran off. I started to reverse and felt like running her over, but really was going to get close to the entrance so I could tell security that they had a crazy biotch in there and she just hit my car. Who does that? Instead, I reconsidered because DD was in the car and just let it go. I was soooooo mad, the maddest I’d been at someone in a long time and really wanted to run her over.

Josee, I feel for you with the IL problems. It can be draining. When we first go married, my IL’s were a big part of our lives to the point where I forgot who I was. I have to say they were very accommodating and welcomed me with open arms, but in another way I felt smothered and angry by the backstabbing and constant gossip. Hmm, I could write about this alllll day, but I’d have to FB it.

Rachael, I’m not sure that the fear that comes along with being a parent goes away. With me it was a paralyzing fear of SIDS, then it became a fear of her choking, then a fear of her falling to her death on the stairs and now it’s the frightening thoughts of leaving her in someone else’s care when school starts and I’m not there to prevent something terrible from happening. Sometimes I wonder if it’ll be like this always, and I suspect it might be. I know I micro-manage the poor thing, and it’s the biggest complaint I have about my own mother, but it’s just what happens I guess. I do know some people who are nearly as paranoid and mindful of their little ones. Not that they are neglectful, just that they don’t have the same level of fear.

As for pill popping husbands. I gotta say I am very lucky, well at least now I am. DH really looks after himself and takes all the supplements I insist his takes. Poor guy already take lipitor and bp meds, so he gets a bit of a belly ache sometimes . Unfortunately, as I’ve mentioned before probably, for the first 7 years of our marriage he was a hardcore alcoholic. I was so used to the dysfunctional behavior that it become normal to the point where I questioning whether I was just me with the problem. The year before and the year after DD was born, things were really hard. He wasn’t a mean drunk, just someone that had to drink constantly because he’d shake and couldn’t function. One time he was hospitalized with pancreatitis for 9 days and couldn’t eat or drink the whole time. I still didn’t make the connect that it was alcohol related and he convinced me it was to do with hereditary high blood pressure etc.. We actually conceived DD in the sober window he had after that hospitalization and I was convinced for a while that it was because he had been soaking his sperm, but turns out his SA remained the same even to this day. Unfortunately he relapsed even after the grueling first hospital day.
After having DD my eyes were opened and that behavior became unacceptable. It may have been okay for me to deal with, but I wasn't having my DD in that environment. When I look at my photo album of when she was a newborn, I get really sad because he looked so wasted in all the pictures. I would get so upset when he’d fall asleep drunk and I would be up all night with a newborn every night, all night sometimes. I would think, what if we need him and he would be so **** drunk to help. Luckily he decided to go cold turkey and has been sober for two years. I wouldn’t’ recommend rehabing by yourself, because he had delirium tremens and a grand-mal seizure and nearly bit off his tongue. It was one of the hardest couple of days in my life. It took a while for me to get over it because he essentially lied to me about how much he drank for so long. I knew he like to tie one on at the end of the day, but because I was raised so strictly, I guess in a way he convinced me that it was me that had high expectations and it was normal to drink all the time. In his defense, his father had substance issues and had made some horrible scenes at family weddings. I am thankful in a way he was a closet drinker and not a social disgrace. It also took me a while to adjust to a new husband because I felt like I didn’t know the real him. He was so soaked with alcohol for so long that the new him took some getting used to. He didn’t fall asleep on the sofa half as much for a start and he was just so present. He was not longer puffy and the constant smell of alcohol was gone.
Now DH’s obsession is his daughter, fitness and making music (I‘m not sure I make that list). I can live with that. He’s still obsessive, but in a better way. I’m glad I hung in there because he’s a really great father and DH. He just had to shake the addiction. I’m not mad because nobody wants to be enslaved to a substance. I think I could probably be an addiction counselor because I had a few years of experience.
Thankfully, if all goes well, he’ll give DD the advantage of a father who’s got their sh** together because he didn’t have that.
Okay, sorry, got carried away with that one. All that from pill-popping.

Kelly, I take a good sized teaspoon at some point of the day. It’s a pretty loaded spoonful - is that too much?

Shawna, I’m glad you can to the u/s. Yay for useful DH’s!!!!
Jen, I’ll have to check out the website not.

Martie, I hope everything is going well with your and the baby.

Alana, I don’t think anyone wants you to stress over baby registries. If you want to you should just buy them a little something special. You are very sweet going to the trouble.

I am having serious anxiety about my new job situation. New boss coming on board, longer hours, money will be as tight as a fish’s butt-hole and just feeling overwhelmed. So if I don’t have any sick days accrued will I not be able to even do an IVF anytime soon? Too much to think about. I was a totally crappy poop all day today because of it all.

On a brighter note, I didn’t know IKEA had food there. That was a nice surprise!!!

I think the Duggar’s are greedy and nuts!

Heidi- You are very strong to have handled all of that with DH. It's tough when there is addiction involved. No matter what they are addicted to.
I am glad that you are past that and kudos to DH for being sober.

Did you get a cinnamon bun at Ikea? A hot dog? SOmetimes I drive to Ikea to look at rugs and really all I wanted to do was get a cinnamon bun...

[goob07]

Heidi you and I were posting at the same time. Now it sounds like my post is being cruel about your DH's health struggles. That wasn't my intention AT ALL. I had no idea he (and you) had been through so much. How wonderful that you two were able to make it through those dark days. DD has a wonderful set of parents to look up too!!

Shawna - Yay for DH doing the legwork and getting you in for your u/s!

[sunny72]

Sorry for the novel.

[sunny72]

Ronni, I love your house. No, make that - I want your house.
I love the pictures. Jen you look great in red and you and Walt always look so happy. Same too for April and Mel.

Susan, I'm embarrased to say that I had the $4.99 chicken masala, DD had fried chicked and fries (which kept jumping into my mouth) and then we all had vanilla frozen yogurts. I told DH I didn't want anything else to eat all day and now he's making a cherry pie, a lemon meringue (sp?) and a peach pie from scratch. Great ! I know I should be thankful to live with such a prolific (or obsessive) cook/baker but there's no way I'm just having one piece. He says he's taking one to work, but we'll see about that.

[hopeful2bmom]

Now I want DH to drive to IKEA to get me a cinnamon bun. It's a 50 minute drive.

[Angelwithhope]

Now I want to go IKEA too, and it's an eight and half hour drive! *sigh* mmmmm IKEA anything are yumm-o!!