[Persephone1881]

Yep. I'm angry. And I will not be made to feel bad about feeling that way. I am angry that I can't get pregnant naturally. I am angry that I wasted so much time before seeing a doctor who would actually do something for me. I am angry that people all around me have been having babies left right and crossway for the past three years. I am angry that my first pregnancy was/is apparently ectopic. I am angry that I now have to wait 2 months before we can try again because of the stupid methotrexate injection. I am angry that I have done everything I was supposed to do and lost my baby while other people who are completely oblivious to what could harm the miracle growing inside them get to keep theirs. And most especially, I am angry that my sister basically tells me to get over it when I tell her I'm angry. I am fully aware that the more I think about all the negative things, the worse I'm going to feel. But some days you just need to be angry!

Okay. I feel a little better. Today's rant is now over.

[lovingwife]

I'm feeling angry today too. Rant away!! Don't you just hate how people who aren't experiencing IF just tell you to get over it!!!!! Argh-that makes me so angry. O.k. now I feel better too.

[elizwhite]

I have had the same thoughts as you!! Don't let anyone tell you it's not okay to be angry!! It's all part of the process. I don't know what it's like to be pregnant, but I know the feelings of grief and loss. Be angry, then try to move towards healing and positive thoughts. I usually need to get good and angry before starting a treatment cycle. After venting, I get focused again. Just think how our babies will be even more cherished than those who take conception and pregnancy for granted ( :

[Persephone1881]

I started feeling better as soon as I posted this thread. I've accepted the situation for what it is.. it sucks, but I can't change it, so I just have to make the best of it. Now I have 2 months to focus on what I can do for myself and my home to get ready for that precious life that I know is coming soon.

[Berdy]

I'm so glad to see your rant! I can tell you after TTC for over 10 years, the anger has never really gone away. I get especially angry when people get "accidentally" pregnant, don't want the baby - or sometimes even worse - are HORRIBLE parents (in my opinion). It drives me batty. Here I am, a perfectly responsible woman who desires a family and cannot make it happen. I cry, I get angry, I get confused... Sometimes it's my own pity party. I get out of those moments and remind myself that I will be okay.

It's just super nice to know someone else goes through those feelings.

[Jacklyn]

You have all the right in the world to feel angry and its not easy to "get over it".
Sending you hugs

[bdillmaggs]

Your anger is very understandable. I feel it myself at times. But, I am glad to hear you are feeling better after your rant. Feel free to rant here whenever you need. We are all here for you.

[Vanna]

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[Vanna]

I am so angry today too. I completely understand your need to vent. I'm really happy that we have a means to do just that! I'm feeling like I'm about to get my period anytime now eventhough I am to take a pregnancy test on Sunday. I feel so angry and feel like I have absolutely no control over any of this.