Catherine,
I am so glad to hear you are doing well and getting through the pain. We lost our twin boys also but at 15weeks. It is so great that you did all those wonderful things for your boys with the ashes in the baby shoe and the necklaces. I think it helps. I have a bracelet with little footprint charms I wear everyday. I relate with and understand the feelings you are having. It sounds like you are making good steps to help you get through the pain.
Take good care of yourself.
Beth