[Sarah_84]

Hi girls! Sorry I've been MIA! Regina, I'm so sorry about AF. I'm glad you're sounding ok, maybe the break renewed your strength a bit. It sucks big time but I know you will get there soon.
Jessica, sorry I didn't get here in time to help you. I hope that you were able to talk to dh calmly and sort it out. He really needs to work with you on this and I hope he understands that! Let me know how you went!
No news with me yet. I'm just really tired, sore boobs and getting AF cramps which I now know for sure that it could mean anything yet, only time will tell.
I hope you are both going well and lots of baby dust to all of us! xoxoxoxooxo

[Mom2MandyandTristan]

Hey Ladies
Fortunately everything went well with hubby and he completely understood where I was coming from. He didn't make excuses he owned it and that is something I am very big on (you do something wrong own it and deal with it). He is going to work a little more on my days off so he can put more anyway and so he can take the stress off of me while I'm home with Tristan.
Regina, thanks again for the advice and Sarah don't count your chickens out until they hatch (not sure I said that right) but unitl you see her don't count out your miracle. Oh I really can't wait till we all have our BFPs and how cute if it happened at the same time :-)

[babyplease]

Hi Ladies!!!

Sara, I am so glad that you are okay. I was starting to worry about you. Sounds like your having a tough time with symptoms this cycle. I hate when you are waiting and waiting and getting symptoms that could mean either way. Why are we cursed with AF symptoms feeling the same way as pregnancy symptoms!!?? Is this a cruel joke that we have endure every month because Adam was dumb and convinced Eve to follow his lead? I'm glad that you aren't ruling it out though. I remember you said that you felt that way last time and it was positive. My fingers and crossed and I'm praying for your little miracle to happen . If not, just remember what you told me, "don't think of this as the end, just the beginning of a new cycle". Words to live by. I was actually a little startled this time because I had really heavy bleeding for the first couple of days. I usually don't have that happen. If it is heavy it's only for heavy for a day then I'm not so bad. Then I freaked out today because it's only day 4 and I didn't see anymore bleeding. I thought "oh no!!" I was doing so well with finally getting "normal cycles" and now it's messed up again!! But later in the day I saw bleeding again so now I calmed down. Our bodies should love us not scare us!! lol Sorry if I am rambling. Keep us posted on any developments and I send you lots of hugs, kisses and babydust Regina


Hi Jessica, I am soooo glad that everything worked out. I knew you would be okay!! Hopefully he will stick to the plan now that you have talked about things. You are right too.... It would be very cool if we all got a BFP at the same time!! Then we could be crabby together, crave all kinds of things together and share how much we drive our DH's insane!! lol That would be GREAT!! I know that no matter what we will get a BFP and until then we will continue to support each other thru good and bad!! I am so glad I met you guys. When times get tough I know I can talk to you ladies and you understand. That is a great feeling. I see that your weight loss is going along okay that way you can begin ttc again too. I haven't decided how I'm going to handle this next cycle yet. I may just do what I did last time. Less stress this way. Oh well, I am glad you are okay and I will check back soon.
Regina

[Sarah_84]

Hi Girls!!!

Jess, I'm so glad that you and dh were able to work everything out! How have you been? I hope you are all 100% over being sick now. xoxoxo

Regina, I really think it is a cruel joke but we will put ourselves through anything to get that BFP (and a baby to go with it!). I'm sorry that AF was messing with you, I hope she stayed normal for the rest of the time.

Unfortunately AF arrived on Sunday. I called my ObGyn and she said to come in for a scan before I start injections again for the new cycle and she found 5 huge cysts and she thinks there may be more that she couldn't see behind them. So now I'm back on a forced break. I have my appointment with the hospital tomorrow to organise the lap to remove the endo so I'm hoping that they get me in fast. If the cysts are still there when I have the surgery, the ObGyn said that they will drain them for me but if the surgery is still a while away then I'll just have to wait till they shrink naturally. I'm trying to stay positive, my luck has to change for the better soon.

Take care girls! Talk soon! xoxoxoxo

[babyplease]

Hi Sara, I'm so glad to hear from you. I'm sorry that the evil AF reared her ugly head for you too!! We are both in the same boat right now. I know it's disappointing that they found the cysts but at least they found them and you are aware of them now. Everything will be resolved when you start fresh this time. That's the positive side. You sound like you are keeping your head up so that's good. I am doing okay right now also, I am still trying to decide what action to take now though. I think we will continue on our own for at least a couple of more cycles and then have "the talk" again. It's nice to be able to be ourselves and not have the underlying pressure on us. In the back of mind I still think about getting pregnant everyday though. I'm sure you understand! You know I was on the babyhopes.com website and read alot about this supplement called fertility blend. I also read several post where women who took it actually got a BFP!! I'm thinking of trying it. Can't hurt right? Have you read anything about this? I figure we are doing everything else, why not give a natural remedy a try. Anyway, once again we are both in a new cycle together, but I have all the confidence in the world that we WILL get BFP's this year. It's just a matter of time now. As always I am sending you lots of hugs and kisses and babydust!!! Take Care!! Regina

[Mom2MandyandTristan]

Hello Ladies
Sarah sorry to hear about AF and now those cysts. Hopefully they do shrink on thier own.
Regina, I heard about the fertility blend too. One of the mom's in the parenting section took it and she just had her baby last month. I was thinking of trying acupuncture myself.
I have been trying to keep my mind off of Tristan's surgery next week by planning his bday party (in June lol) and my daughter's (in August) lol. I am scared but anxious to get it over with and start the healing. I am taking the week off from work but I'm sure there will be plenty of work to do at home. I feel so bad for him. I recently posted some new pics of him in the thread "baby pics post" and I look at that face and can't help but cry.

[babyplease]

Hi Jessica, I hope everything goes well with Tristan's surgery. I am praying very hard and sending you lots of hugs!!! I am sure that he will be just fine. Just keep the faith. Sara and I are pulling for your family right now. I know it's hard but stay strong. Just keep thinking that soon this will all be over and he can start the healing process.

On another note, I have been thinking about acupuncture also. I know so many people who benefit from acupunture with other ailments. Why not while ttc? I think I may try that in the future as well.

Again, you guys are in my thoughts and prayers and try to stay strong. It will all be over soon. He will be okay.

Sending big hugs your way Regina

[Sarah_84]

Hi Girls!

Regina, I have heard a few of the girls on here talking about Fertility Blend as well, it's meant to be pretty good. I think that accupuncture is a great idea as well, I'm just to scared of needles to go do it!

Jessica, I'll be praying that Tristans surgery goes perfectly and that he recovers fast! I know it's worrying but it'll be over before you know it and everything will be back to normal. Stay strong!

Well, I have some news. My ObGyn called me yesterday and asked me to come in this morning cause she needs to see me. I went in and it was because she had spoken to the other specialist about my cysts and stuff and that it was unusual so the other one told her to scan me again to make sure that they're shrinking and to do a pregnancy test.

She did the ultra sound and the cysts have started shrinking. Afterwards she asked me to wee in a jar. I told her that I already took a test at home the day before AF arrived and it was a BFN so she was like, ok and was gonna let it go but then she said that we'd better do one just incase because my periods weren't due when I took it at home. I said ok but that I'd just gone to the toilet before the scan so I can't promise anything.

Anyway, I managed to pee a small bit into the cup and took it back. She got the secretary to do the test while I waited. A few minutes later my doctor called me in to the room and said to me "do you see that?" and pointed at the test. There was 2 lines! I was like, what the hell?. She wants me to go in for a beta on Tuesday. I'm really not holding my breath because I was bleeding and it could be a chemical pregnancy but she said if we wait till tuesday, we will know for sure because the beta will either be high or almost if not completely gone. I'm praying hard and thinking positive. I'm scared to death of loosing another one but I'm just gonna enjoy it while it lasts and cherish every moment.

Take care of yourselves and I'll keep you posted either way. xoxoxoxo

[Mom2MandyandTristan]

Oh Sarah I can not even begin to tell you how excited I am for you. I know you don't want to be too excited right now But I will be for you. At this moment you are pregnant and until other wise I will believe in my heart (whole body for that matter) that it will last. I will keep my whole eveything crossed for you and you will be in all my thoughts and prayers. Hearing good news like this is awesome.

[Sarah_84]

Thanks Jessica! I'm getting excited but terrified at the same time. I went straight over my mums after the appointment cause it was her birthday (she reckons that that was the best birthday present ever! lol!) and I was pretty depressed but she got me excited and reminded me that she had her periods every month for 4 months with my younger brother and he turned out fine so I'm hoping that this is something that runs in the family and that it's nothing to worry about. I'm holding my breath till Tuesday's blood test. Take care! xoxoxoxo

[Mom2MandyandTristan]

Hey Sarah
How did your beta go? With the surgery I almost forgot to ask you. Hoping and praying for a good number!!!

[babyplease]

Hi Sara!! Wow!! That is such GREAT NEWS!!! My fingers and toes are crossed for you!! Lots of prayers being sent your way!! I know you've already had your appointment but you didn't let us know what happened!! You can't keep us waiting. I have no fingernails left!!lol Remember positive thoughts!! You ARE pregnant!!! YEAH!!!! Let's take it as it comes. Everything will be alright. You'll see.

Jessica, I hope Tristan is okay!!! I hope you and DH are okay also. I know this is a difficult time but I am sending you a big HUG!!!
We are all going to be just fine and this will all just be one more thing to make us stronger. I am a firm believer of that (even though I need to be reminded sometimes)!!
I was going to come here and complain to you guys about my week but there are just too many other nailbiting issues with you two right now. So I will just send prayers, hugs and kisses and wait for the good news!! Regina

[Sarah_84]

Hi Regina! I'm sorry, I thought that I had posted on here but I must have forgot! Unfortunately it came back a BFN. I'm ok, I think it's better this way because I would have been worried sick with the bleeding. Please feel free to complain, no matter what I'm going through I'll still be here to listen to you! xoxoxoxo

Jessica, how's Tristan recovering? I hope he hasn't had any more bumps since the table incident! Take care! xoxoxoxo

[Mom2MandyandTristan]

Oh Sarah I am so so so so sorry. I was really hoping and praying that this was it for you. Send you lotes of love and a big .

Regina, What's new with you? Feel free to vent if you need to.

Tristan's recovery is going smoothly so far. He has his 10 days post-op appointment on Thursday. We will find out if he needs anything else done.

[babyplease]

Hi ladies!!

Sara, I'm sorry to hear the bad news. I was really praying for you!! Your right though. It's better that you have a pregnancy that is healthy with no complications. Bleeding is definately not something you want to occur. I know a couple of women who didn't know they were pregnant because they got their period for a few months but they had complications. I want us all to have pregnancies that we can enjoy and relish in becoming new mothers. Not constantly worried the entire 9 months. So thank god that you are okay and ready to move forward.

Jessica, I am glad to hear that Tristan is doing okay. I hope that you and DH are doing well also. Have you seen any change in his behavior since your discussion over finances? I hope so. Everyone being on the same page makes tough times a little easier.

I had a pretty bad couple of days beginning with last Sunday. Sara, do remember me telling you about my husband's best friend's wife conveniently telling me that she was pregnant with their 4th child while we were out to dinner a few months ago? Remember how upset I was because she knew that we were ttc and I didn't think it was appropriate how or where she told me? Especially considering the fact that her husband had told her no more right now ( he is the only breadwinner and she is very immature and has no concept of money). Before I tell you what happened, I must let you know that she is having another boy. Anyway, to make a long story short, we went to a b-day party for their youngest ( a son who was turning 4) on Sunday. Their were lots of children there which was a little difficult but I was doing fine. As we are watching their son open his b-day gifts, I hear her mother say about 5 times "Boy, Logan is going to have some great hand me downs!" I got absolutely sick to my stomach. 'Logan' is the name that I had chosen if DH and I ever had a son!! She knew this!!! I was sooooo upset ! Not only did she get pregnant right away after she told me she wanted another one (almost as if in competition with me) but she's using the name that I chose for my child!! I know that I have no ownership over a name but geez!! I feel like she stole the last little thing I had to hold on to and pulled the rug out from under me. No wonder she didn't tell me any names she had picked out. She's using the one I said. I was so mad !! I felt like I could strangle her. I immediately got upset and tried to compose myself in the bathroom but I couldn't so I told DH I was ready to go home. He saw I was upset and immediately told his friend we were leaving and got the car. Can you believe the nerve of her? Some friend. I was so greatful for my DH though because he got me out of there right away and held my hand and comforted me the whole ride home. Even when I apologized for wanting to leave and hoped that I didn't embarass him too bad, he said for me to not worry. His only concern was me and his babe was upset we didn't need to explain to anyone. He said the party was boring anyway, lol
And he made me feel better about the name thing because he said that since we had talked about it, he met two people with boys named Logan and they were both really bad kids so he didn't like that name anymore! Ha, Ha, Ha!! Isn't that funny!

Anyway, about an hour after we got home, our 'friends' called our house but we didn't answer. I finally called her back the next day and she was apologetic but thought I was upset because I was overwhelmed with all the children at the party. I explained to her that it was the whole name thing and all she had to say was "oh". " You poor thing"! Can you believe that? She has no clue that she is an idiot!! I feel so sorry for her husband because during that same conversation she told me that she tricked him and stopped taking birth control to get pregnant again. It's like what he wanted didn't even matter. I cant' stand coniving women. Yet they are the ones who seem to get pregnant by just thinking about it.

After talking to her, I feel so much better about myself and my DH because I would never want to be that silly. My heart goes out to my DH's best friend. He has to live with her! lol She got pregnant with their first (twins) after they only knew each other a month and he married her and took responsibilty for his actions. He is our age (ten years older than her) and her immaturity is evident. She is only 24, but going on 20. We are all 33 going on 34 so maybe that's why I have no tolerance for her.

Anyway ladies I just wanted to share my frustrations with you. I know you will understand!! I just think it's going to a little difficult that first time I go see their new son after he is born in July. I think I will be okay by then but it's still not right. I know that one day I will be able to name and hold my own baby so I feel that will allow me to put my feelings aside and put this experience behind me. I will never discuss names with her again though.lol

I hope you guys have a good week and sending you both hugs and kisses. I will check back to see how you are doing!!

Regina

P.S. Lots of Babydust also. Our time is near!!!