[crissa]

OK i had a major blowout tonight with the DH....I have been really emotional the past 3 days and I am trying to be super strong during the 2ww but sometimes a girl just gotta let it out....let me explain...my DH is my ROCK...he's the one that says "ok no more....be strong...be tough...blah blah..." this is all great and good and I do need that but not all the time.....so tonight we had a falling out and he went on and on about me being "different" the past few days...well i have to say that i have been "unstable" the past few days, but i can't help it...I'm nervous,anxious,scared,sad,happy,empty all at once...i feel lost at times....i know i cant act like this all the time but i feel as though right now al least he should understand....am i losing it....i'm usually so much stronger than this, but i have to tell you guys right now Chrissy is NOT strong....help

[ara79]

chrissy,
that is the worst feeling. about a month ago, i was feeling the same way. i really hit rock bottom and my dh sounds very similar to yours (he is my rock too) and we had a HUGE blowout. i mean, it was BAD!!! i felt like i could not get a grip on my emotions, and i thought i was going to lose it. really, lose it. here is what i did: i wrote him a long and detailed letter about how things were on my side of the story. then i asked him to write me back explaining his side of the story. i wasn't easy to read, but it was a rude awakening of how much my negative behavior was affecting my dh. we had a long talk and then decided we HAD to be on the same team to make it through this. i also found some articles that we read about marriage and infertility. it helped a lot. i posted them about a week or so ago. try to search for them and let me know if you need me to post them again. i am sorry chrissy, and i know that you feel so alone with out your dh right now. you will get past this, and i know that this will make us all stronger and closer as a couple in the long run. it a roller coaster ride, with lots of twists, turns, ups and downs...but it will be worth it in the end. i'm here for you! vent all you need to!
amy

[Just~A~]

Crissa,

The last 2ww we went thru was VERY difficult on us. I just want you to know that you're not alone in how you're feeling or what your marriage is going thru. My DH is my rock as well. I was convinced the 2nd IUI hadn't worked and I was miserable, wondering if I could go thru one more emotional cycle. I feel fortunate that we didn't have to do another one, and I hope the same for you. You two will get thru this.

~A~

[crissa]

thanks ladies.....