[laurarhodes]

This may sound crazy but does anyone ever fear your DH will leave you for a fertile women? Do you feel like you've let him down and you sometimes think about doing what Sarah did in the bible and let Abraham have a child with her hand maiden? Like before you could never even think of that but now it's like "well maybe that might work? It's crazy! I know DH loves me but that look on his face every month is the worst!! Plus the comments made about "Doing (insert acticity) with our children". When we got DH's test results back (3 times above average) he did a little dance and said "My boys can swim" I literally screamed and slammed the door on him!!!! Does it ever get better? Does the fear and almost shame ever go away? I'm I just crazy?

[gingerj]

I've felt the same thing at times. I want to give DH a child soooo bad! However, I know he loves me and there are so many options these days that you need to stay positive!! I don't fear he'll leave me for a "fertile" woman but at times think the tension & emotional stress of the whole IF process really can put strains on a marriage. Hang in there and use DH as your support too! Use the forum to vent!! Most men just don't know how we feel or how to handle our emotions at times. (I've slammed the door a time or two myself because of something he's said, very unintentional in hurting my feelings!) I wish you all the best and luck!!