[Treble.being.a.Mommy]

So, we've been trying for almost 15 months...

Baby sister gets married to a divorced guy 11 years older than her, he gets a reverse vasecetomy, odds should be against them...but they get pregnant in 2 months.

I was hoping I'd be first...

...now she's going to be induced on my wedding anniversary.

I feel like everything is being taken away from me. I tried to explain how I felt to my mother, but she scolded me, told me I was supposed to be more mature and more stable, and I'd better pull it together for my sister. She was going to visit tomorrow, but now she doesn't want to come. I'm apparently adding more unnecessary stress when I'm supposed to "pull it together" for my sister.

She says it's just a day -- to me it's like my identity is being taken away by a dream that was supposed to be mine.

I'm such a horrible person, but I can't help feeling the way I feel!

[want2bemommy]

You are not a horrible person AT ALL! We all feel this way around others who are pregnant specifically our family. People who aren't going through this do not understand. I couldn't be around ANYONE who was pregnant when I was trying.

[lisab1978]

You are not a horrible person, I feel the same most times my step daughter had a baby 5 weeks ago and lives with me so i lock myself away most days. I feel that a lot of people don't realise how lucky they are, my step daughter didn't even want children so it just seems so unfair.