[lilac]

Teri - I totally understand your nervousness! I always get really anxious and the first time I was tense for days beforehand... We're glad to help you in any way we can! Good luck on Friday and keep us posted!

KuddleyGal - , we're glad to have you join us!

Deej - my RE says mine is far to the right! Maybe we DO have the same thing...

[Deej]

Hello All: I am going to call the doctor tomorrow and see what my next move is. I sent messages to some ladies whose signatures resembled the situation I am in. Overall the feedback was to proceed with the surgery... If I have endo tissue, I will not be able to get pregnant until it is removed. No sense in delaying what may be inevitable.... Will keep you all posted.
Currently awaiting AF...
Kathlyn: Please let us know how you are doing! I am hoping and praying that what you described is normal and that all is well with you and lil one!

[lilac]

DeeDee - that sounds like a reasonable plan - let us know what the dr says tomorrow. Welcome to the joy of waiting for AF...

Kathryn - we're hoping everything is okay with you. Please let us know how you and the bean are doing...

[lilac]

Oh, and Erica - GOOD LUCK TOMORROW!

[kblythe]

Hey y'all.

Just wanted to let you know that there has been no more bleeding. (except from the PIO shot!) I'm 48 hours from my u/s ... fingers crossed.

What I thought was a chest cold is full-blown laryngitis! I'd cancel my plans for this evening, but I'm cooking, so I can't!

Good luck today, Erica. Deej, tell us what your RE says.

Kathryn.

[lilac]

Kathryn, I'm so glad the bleeding has stopped... try to relax even if you are cooking!

We all have our fingers crossed for your u/s!

[ELOVE]

Hello my fellow single mothers!!!

First let me say to KuddleyGal. You're more than than welcome to join us on our track to motherhood. These ladies are absolutely beautiful inside and out and they all have such warm spirits you heart can't be anything but full. Good luck to you.

Teri--Good luck on your appointment Friday. You'll get your ovulation. I haven't used an OPK but I have faith in my doc and the hcg trigger .

Kathryn--I am sooooo glad you stopped bleeding. I know we'll never really stop worring until we're holding our new little life in our hands (but then it's worrying for the next 18 years ). Like I said take it easy, keep your feet propped up and have an absolutely awesome u/s.

Deej--Did you test again this morning or are you still sure AF is coming? Well I'm glad to see your mind is more at ease with that difficult decision. I may have to make the same one here soon (but not today )

Lilac--How are you doing? Any more AF symptoms for you? You and Dee Dee's cases sound so similar so I hope you both get the answers to the big IF question.

Well today went really well. I had an acupuncture session at 8 am and I started having pangs on my right side about 0700. The acupuncture doctor wished me good luck and even said I probably wouldn't need any more sessions 'cause I'd be pregnant.

I then stopped at Walmart and picked up OTC progesterone cream and some Bayer baby aspirin. I was reading a lot last night on how they may help with implantation so I planned to ask my doc about it first before I start. He doesn't think I need the progesterone and he says the aspirin are for women who have some type of 15 letter word disorder. Do you think the aspirin would hurt? I can't see the harm.

Now for the IUI. This has absolutely been the most pleasant IUI thus far. The catheter went in smooth and I had the slightest discomfort. My doc was in a really good mood as well and was asking his nurse to check his schedule 'cause he wants to go to Chicago on 10 Jan. I know it's small, but just the vibe in the room was really really cool. I felt very good today. I'm supposed to go to work today but haven't made it there yet . I decided to come home type a few words to my support network and lie down for an hour or so.

Well ladies, here's my attitude starting today. I'm going to revel in my joy today that everything felt right. I'm going to live in this moment right now today. In a few short hours our NEW YEAR will be here and with that comes a renewed sense of faith. I'm going to have faith that everything will be just fine. Even if this time isn't successful, I'm gonna have faith I will be a mother soon.

I planned on taking a trip to Hawaii in July before I started this baby-making business, so I have that to focus on. I tested for promotion 13 December and the results will be out the first week of March, so I have that to hope for.

THIS 2008 WILL BE A GREAT YEAR!

We have 2 soon to be mothers, and I have no doubt we will have more in the coming months.

Here's to you my beautiful ladies... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

[lilac]

Wow, Erica, that sounds wonderful! I'm so glad it went so well and with that sort of attitude I figure it can't help but be a good thing! Here's hoping you're on your way to our first of 2008!

Don't know about the aspirin, but my doctor told me I 'probably' didn't need progesterone. When I asked him, he said it couldn't hurt anything, and since 'probably' wasn't good enough for me when I'm spending so much money, I got him to give me a prescription (though it's supps, not cream). It made me feel better and as though I was doing something, you know?

I had some pretty significant spotting during the night (this would be right after I knocked the prenatal vitamins into the toilet - apparently I'm not what you'd call coordinated at 3:30AM). I was certain AF would be here by morning, but the spotting has decreased a lot since the middle of the night. Only the merest glimpse this morning - I probably wouldn't have noticed it at all had I not been looking.

Deej, what about you? Any signs of AF? Did you test again?

[kblythe]

Wow, Erica! If what they say is true about getting pregnant when you are relaxed and have a good attitude, it seems like you should be getting a bfp this go-round!

Kuddlygal, I don't think I welcomed you yet! So

Lilac, those vitamins can be expensive! Try not to throw them in the toilet! lol

Kathryn.

[Deej]

Ladies, I am loving all the good news! Reading how positive everybody is feeling and the sharing of the encouragement is great. Perfect timing.
Erica: that is awesome that the whole experience was so smooth - the way it should be and that you deserve! BFP is on the way! How nice to obsess about somebody elses 2ww!! I am so very happy for you!
Kathryn: thank goodness the bleeding has stopped. did the doc say it is ok, wait until next appointment? So you are entertaining tonight but have no voice? That should be interesting!
Lilac: AF is finally trying to pay you a visit? We had all joked about chronic "wiping" to see if has arrived, well I could win the "wipe" award! No sign for me either, and I am on day 14. HPT this morning was negative. Once before I made it to day 15 (very first iui) but this one I think may be delayed due to the clomid.
I am so glad that everybody's spirits are high as the year draws to an end...
Elove: will you still be trying to make it to the party you had mentioned?
Anybody else have plans for this evening?

to you all, thank you for keeping me going and reminding me I am not alone!

[lilac]

Well, ladies, I am pleased to report that only half of the prenatal vitamins are a total loss (whew).

Erica, I hope you know that we are all going to be completely obsessing over your 2ww now...

DeeDee, I may be giving you a run for you money in the competition for the wiping award. Believe me, at day 21 after IUI, there's been some serious wiping going on! My previous best was 13 days, so I am smashing my previous record into itty bitty pieces. I mean, I wanted to make it to day 14 or 15, but this is nuts!

I don't usually make much of New Year's. I'm going to make myself a nice dinner and I'm going to have a drink and enjoy myself, but no party for me. In the meantime, I noticed that my baseboards and doorjambs are looking kind of shabby, so I'm busy painting them a brighter white. Apparently I didn't realize just how many door jambs this would be - I'm exhausted already!

[Deej]

Lilac: I am wondering when AF will arrive. I swear she is knocking at my door! How do you stay sane wondering where she is? After IUI #2, the cycle I had to sit out, I did not start until day 36. That was weird! This making it to a certain day is no fun when the hpt's come back negative! Did your doc say why your period is missing in action? Or is it from clomid? You definately win the wipe award...

I am also on a single mothers by choice forum, and one lady said she did not think 4 failed iui's was reason to believe there might be a problem. What do you ladies think? I am going to start a thread asking at what point did ppl either have a lap or move on to the next approach...

[lilac]

Originally Posted by Deej

Lilac: I am wondering when AF will arrive. I swear she is knocking at my door! How do you stay sane wondering where she is? After IUI #2, the cycle I had to sit out, I did not start until day 36. That was weird! This making it to a certain day is no fun when the hpt's come back negative! Did your doc say why your period is missing in action? Or is it from clomid? You definately win the wipe award...

I am also on a single mothers by choice forum, and one lady said she did not think 4 failed iui's was reason to believe there might be a problem. What do you ladies think? I am going to start a thread asking at what point did ppl either have a lap or move on to the next approach...

Usually my cycles are like clockwork. I mean, sometimes a day shorter or longer, but very rarely more than that, so this is really weird for me. Though having said that, I knew the prometrium would extend my cycle, and I did take it longer than I probably should have after the bfns, solely, I admit, to avoid having my period during Christmas! My doc is totally out of contact, but I'm not worried. I'm spotting again and having mild cramps, so it will be soon...

I think it depends a lot on your age and health and so on. My dr didn't think anything of 4 failed iuis for me, and they were all unmedicated. It was only after 6 that he said he wanted to try the surgery. I don't think you'd be wrong to go for the lap now, as what's been suggested to you seems similar to what I've seen others do. But neither do I think you'd be wrong to try another on clomid either. I think you're probably in that middle place where there might be a problem, but you haven't tried long enough to show that there really is one, you know? It's difficult to know what to do.

[Deej]

Thank you for your input! There are so many paths to getting pregnant, I guess you just have to have faith in whatever you choose! I am copying into this post a prayer that was on the forum main page....

Lord, Give me Strength...

• To keep my cool when another period starts.
• To keep my chin up when a co-worker announces her pregnancy.
• To have a good relationship with my friend in spite of her ability to conceive easily and not be jealous of her.
• To endure my sister-in-law's comments about toilet training.
• To keep from crying when I see children begging on the roads.
• To forgive my doctor when he keeps me waiting for two hours for a consultation - and then can't remember my name.
• To make the right decision about treatment

The last one was so right on for me, that I thought I would share and see what we can identify with! There was a baby boy at the office today, and I did have one of those insane moments where I was angry that this man who in my opinion does not need more children, had this beautiful child! Who am I to decide who should and should not have children?? The unfairness of it all, oh well. When I feel like that I have to sit down and write out a gratitude list. Another thing I had was told recently was by mom, that we do not get to pick our blessings... And, on a final note, the man who I was being judgemental about, the mother to that one year old is dying of cancer. When I start seeing all people with babies as having it all and being happy, it means my head is not in a good place! It means I am focusing on what I do not have, and I need redirection.
Do any of you ladies have moments like that? Erica, your post early today took me back to where I usually am: attitude of gratitude! I sooo thank you for sharing your positive vibe...

[lilac]

I like that prayer too. Some of it rings very true.

I do have a tendency to focus on what I do not have... namely, a child! Especially when my friends seem to keep conceiving by accident! There are times when what I do not have takes over my life and I do forget all the wonderful things I do have.

Looking back on the past year, even though I am still not pregnant (my journey started just over 12 months ago), I have left a job where I was underpaid and underappreciated, found a new job which if not my dream position, involves more responsibility, more respect, more prospects, and more money. I have a new home that I love. I have a deepening relationship with my brother (who is the only family I have in the same city). And (although this is not new) I have a close supportive family that is loving and sustaining. These are all very good things.

I am trying to focus on these instead of dwelling on what I don't have. I was thinking earlier before you posted this Deej, that my resolution for 2008 must be to continue my journey towards motherhood while enjoying the very good things I already have.