[jnem]

Ok I am home. Surgery is Nov. 30th The surgery is a bigger deal than I thought. I thought it was a day procedure with local anestisa (SP?) but it's not. It's a 2 hour surgery, 2 day Hospital and a very real scar! The scar can sit in one of 2 places, it's my choice where. One-They go in the center of my neck (where a mans adam'a apple is) or two- slightly off to the side but still in the front. The scar will be very noticible so it's a decision to ponder. I need to make a decision on where the scar we be by The 30th. Also did not realize the surgery will slightly damage my vocal cords so my voice will be forever raspy and I will not be able to speak for long periods of time. This doesn't bother me so much as I don't sing well or speak publically. I've always liked a soulfull raspy voice anyway. The scar thing is a bit much but thats why they invented jewelry...right! I've always wanted a thick gold choker

So that' the scoop. The only way to avoid this is to have radiation but that would mean TTC would be put on hold for 24 months at least at my age that is out of the question! So lesson learned..check thyroid early and often!


The great news is I can move on to RE after this!!!

Thanks for you kind words and keeping me in your thoughts!


Jen

[ara79]

hey jen. i am sorry that this surgery will be more involved than you originally thought. i can understand you comcerns. i'll be keeping you in my prayers and i hope that you have a succesful surgery, quick recovery and you find a beautiful gold choker!!! we're here for you! just remember, it will all be worth it!
amy
oh~just a thought...have you had a 2nd opinion?

[biggsista]

forget the gold choker..go for diamonds!!!

All kidding aside, I'm glad that you will be able to move on after this and plan for your family!

[jnem]

Thanks ladies. I thought I would come home and freak over the scar and voice thing but I surprised myself. Instead I can't stop singing!!! The Dr. told me singing will not be in my future, I told him my family will be very happy about that! LOL But the wierd thing I can't stop singing since I walked out of the hospital. I sang the hour ride home, I sang tonight jewelry shopping, I sang making dinner, I taught my daughter christmas carolls after dinner instead of vegging in front of the TV, I sang my daughter to sleep. I can't stop singing! I am so happy I am finally moving on! I have been stuck in unproductive IF like the movie GROUND HOG DAY, every month is the same story, month after month year after year..ugh! I can't wait to work with the RE and start trying to find solutions!!

I am still terrified of the surgery but I am keeping my eye on the prize...