[Lesmith]

Over the last two years I have had two early miscarriages. My doctor's said that I had low progesterone levels. They put me on Clomid and I got pregnant right away with twin girls. Everything seemed to be going great until I was 22 weeks pregnant. I found out that my girls at major issues. One baby had a rare disordered called Triploidy, a whole extra set of Chrosomes. Because she was taking all the nutrients from my placenta my other daughter was unable to grow and function. She had major brain dysfunction and growth restriction. My girls were simply not growing, at 24 weeks my girls weighed less than 7 ounces.
I induced labor and after my girls were born they found even more problems. My daugther who had Triploidy had a clef palet, and lip and no nose. Their fingers were fused together and they were so tiny. Also my placenta never grew right because my daughter was taking all the nutrients out due to all her problems.
It has been 6.5 months. I can tell you that I am a completely different person. My heart is still broken, I cry for my girls almost everyday. I've realized that a part of my heart will always be broken and I will always ache for my daughters.
I am slowly re-thinking pregnancy, but I know that I am no where ready for trying again. I just wanted to share my story. Thank you for reading.

[hopin4baby]

im so sorry you went through this. losing children is the hardest thing ever. i lost my triplets a month and a half ago due to incompetent cervix. everything i do reminds of them i cry every day for them. we have talked about trying again but it might take some time.

[Czech_Girl]

Your story breaks my heart and, in many ways, I can completely relate. Have they told you the cause of the chromosonal problems? Did they recommend genetic testing?

I lost twins at 20 weeks 6 days last October. One of the babies had IUGR due to the placental not properly forming. The other baby was perfectly healthy. Unfortunately, the smaller baby was never going to survive - something I only recently learned. Because she was slowly dying inside me and the placental becoming necrotic, my body wanted to "rid" itself of the nectrotic tissue and thus, I went into preterm labor and delivered both babies - one passed away immediately after delivery; the other lived 2 hours. It was the most painful experience I have ever been through. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about my girls, that experience and the meaning of life. That whole experience has certainly put life into perspective, something that no one understand until you've been in our shoes.

But I am hear to tell you that you can move forward, when you're ready. It took my husband and I several months of grieving and talking things out. Eventually, we decided it was time to move on and try again. Low and behold, we conceived naturally and our little baby is due in January.

Believe me, I haven't forgotten my twin daughters - I never will. But I am looking forward to celebrating the new life that we will be bringing into this world next year. You will have that some day soon too!

Wishing you a healing heart and the strength to move forward.

[TeresaWV]

I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my son in April, at 23 weeks, due to a clotting issue. The placenta was so full of blood clots that he couldn't grow. He only weighed 10oz when he was born. I still cry everyday. My husband and I are talking about when we should try again and I even have an appointment with a new RE but it's not until Sept. I guess I'm thinking by then I will know if I want to try again. I think everyone takes a diferent amount of time. Again I'm sorry for your loss.

[tko6666]

Lesmith, so sorry for your loss. That must be excruciating!!! Just wanted to give you some info on a new study. I am in a study which looks at triploildy and aneuploidy. We did IVF just to do this study. They biopsy the embies at day 5 and can look at all of the chromosomes!!!! This is much more accurate than older types of PGD and looks at all of the chromosomes. Out of 7 blasts, we have 2 chromosomally normal-I like the word healthy embryos. The others had different types of additions and deleations. (Turner's syndrome, trisomy 18, 19, and 22). We are now in the process of getting me ready for transfer on 8/21. Let me know if you have more questions.

[momfro]

So sorry to hear of all your losses. I too lost a son at 19 weeks due to unexplained reasons. Every thing was going perfect, terrible morning sickness just like my first pregnancy with my son, and then the news came that there was no heartbeat. The doctors said that it was Trisomy 18 due to the triple screen blood test results. After I delivered we opted for a nonevasive cell test of the baby and everything came back normal! My husband and I have been trying to conceive ever since our loss - 3 years and nothing has worked. We want to add to our family so deeply. We still are trying to make sense of everything today but only God knows. My personal feeling for those trying again after such a devastating loss is do what you feel is right for when you are ready to conceive. We knew we wanted a baby again so badly that we tried right away and now we can't get pregnant. You never know what the future may hold. Hang in there. My heart aches for your losses.

1 son naturally
stillbirth June 05
5 failed iui's
began new cycle with clomid, again...