[futuremom2b]

Sam ~ I totally know what you mean about laying low!
I totally GET IT!

Dr. WGA ~ thank you so much for helping me with this.... I'm just learning about my disorder and haven't really been labeled yet? I have not met with an Endo. doc. just yet, but plan on soon..... I'm still in denial that I will see a HB...... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Thyroid disorder:
July TSH 1.320
Oct. TSH 1.390
2/4 ~ BETA 265 P= 57 TSH = 6.27
2/6 ~ BETA 608 P= 82.4 TSH = 8.76
2/11 ~ T4 = 1.1

So I don't have an apt. with the doctor that has been helping my RE, he's not covered by my insurance, but he seems amazing! Going to talk to DH about it.

WGA ~ if you POAS ~ let us know, we are cheering for you!

Bully ~ I'm shocked that they are just finding this out now. What's up with that? Why only now?

Bits ~ so glad AF came and it wasn't bad at all! Please stay with us during your FET!
I don't know how to help you with your question.

Daisy ~ Thinking about you..

[WorldsGreatestAunt]

Oh Dre, please don't call me a doctor because all I have is a tiny bit of experience. But hopefully I can help a little. By your data my guess is that you definitly have hypothyroidism. Now I don't want to scare you but they want your tsh less than 2 if at all possible but really don't want it above a 5 when pregnant. But the main thing is that you are being treated. Basically your thyroid is not making enough hormones so they have given you synthetic hormones to supplement. Its confusing because a high TSH means your hormones are low. Basically your TSH level rises to help encourage thyroid hormone production. The issue is that a baby doesn't have a thyroid for a long time and thus gets this hormone from you. Women with "untreated" thyroid problems can have problems. HOWEVER, you are being treated. That little pink (i think its pink at 225, mine is blue now) pill is giving you and the baby just what you need. As your pregnancy continues you can expect that you will need more and more meds until it stabalizes. Without this medicine the baby can have problems after birth but your problem was caught very early on and it would be rare for it to cause you or the baby problems as long as you continue to be treated. I'm sure your dr. already told you but make sure and take your meds on an empty stomach as it absorbs more effiently. Also, if they prescribed you the name brand DO NOT take generic, my endo. is nutzo about this. I'm on synthyroid and have had zero issues with it. I hope this helps. You'll probably google pregnancy hypothyroidism and you may read some things that aren't so great. Remember that in most cases they are talking about women who are untreated and thus not getting the hormones they need. You are being treated, you are in good hands and you are going to be ok. I hope I have this all right as its been a long time since i've done much research. But alot of it came from the visit I had when I was pregnant and expressed my concerns to the PA. She said they'd had people even come in with tsh's over 10 that they were able to treat and went on to have successful pregnancies When is your next TSH bloodtest? Probably not for a few more weeks right?

[futuremom2b]

Maren (WGA) ~ yeah, they will re-test in 2 weeks, which would be 3 weeks since we up'ed the meds to .50 micrograms. Now I'm in the .75 micrograms.

What's strange to me is as soon as I up'ed the meds, all my pregnancy symptoms went away.... The tiredness, and cramping. I still have sore boobies, so I'm holding on to that with all I have.

Thanks for the info. And yes, I know it's serious, I wish I didn't have it, as with Avery I didn't have to worry about that issue at all, but I did have to stay in the hospital for 3 months with her rare contition, so I always have some thing that God wants me to think about! He is constantly challenging me to believe and have faith, and I work so hard to do it..... My hope is some day it won't be work, I'll just do it... That's what I will pray for at church tonight!

I wanted to send you guys a
VALENTINE POST from me:
This is from my heart!
Thank you for being there and being so great through one of my hardest times in my life. I am giving you all a great big !
THANK YOU!
Happy Valentines Day!

DRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[WorldsGreatestAunt]

Happy Valentines to all of you ladies as well! Thanks for keeping me sane!

[Bullywrinkles]

Feelin' the love ladies! I know it is a bit late but Happy Valentines Day to you too! I know I thank God every day to have found such a wonderful group!

[daisy2006]

Happy belated Valentine's day ladies! Hope everyone has a nice one. I made DH a romantic candlelit dinner last night and when he walked in the house he was so surprised (I think he got teary eyed). I think it was the best Valentines day we have ever has. We had dinner and then just sat at the table having drinks and talking util 12 am.

Dre------I did call a therapist that was recommended to me from psychiatrist at the hospital. I left them 3 voicemails to schedule and appointment and they NEVER called me back. Talk about rejection when you are already feeling down. It kind of soured the whole idea of talking to somone. I know what you mean about focusing on you pg symptoms. I was a freak about it. Mine would come and go for days at a time. They actually didn't even start until about 2 wks after I got my . Everytime I woke up in the morning, I felt my boobs to see it they were sore or not. It go to the point where I couldn't tell if they were sore b/c of being pg, or from me poking at them. Hang in there, I'm sure everything is fine. It's torment waiting for those ultrasounds!

Bits-----I saw that was the same special I was watching. It was the Bailey multiples. I made me so sad, but intrigued. I kept thinking about my little one.
DH does not like when I watch those showe either. I have to sneak them on when he is not home I don't know why we do it to ourselves.

Maren--- I keep forgetting too that DH needs support also. I have been a little selfish and need to remember that he is going through the same loss. Good luck if you decide to poas tommorow. Remember though, even if it is negative, it could just be too soon. I took an hpt after I found out that my beta was positive, and it still came out negative and I was pg w/ triplets.

Lisa----I am so sorry to hear about the results of your test. I am pretty sure that the septate uterus can be corrected w/ surgery. It is so unfair when you find out that you have so many things going against you. It was bad enough when I found out that I had pcos, but then to find out that dh has 0-1% morphology was just devastaing. Don't worry too much until you speak to the doctor. It may not be a bad as you think. Maybe you could think about scheduling an appt w/ a good RE just to get an opinion on what your best options are. It may be worth the drive.

Sam----I hoping that your cycle goes smoothy. Why are you so nervous this time around?

Well, I better get going. I should really clean the house. Soooooo many dishes from last night.

[southhampton]

Hi Ladies - I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day!

Maren- Will you POAS? It is so hard not to:

Lisa - What does this mean for you? Is there anything that can be done?

Dre - How are you feeling? Getting closer to us

Bits- I had a chemical pregnancy with my 1st IVF and then had a healthy baby boy with the 2nd. We also have male factor. I wish you the best of luck on your upcoming cycle.

Daisy - Thanks. I think it's because we had poor quality embroys last time and I'm nervous that it will not work. This whole process leaves me feeling so powerless. My last cycle I did not do acupuncture so I am hoping by doing acupuncture this time we will have a repeat of IVF#2. That is the only thing I did differently between IVF #2 and#3

Samantha

[Bullywrinkles]

Good Morning Ladies!

I had my appt with the OB today to go over the HSG results. The radiologist report says it is a Arcuate Uterus. But the OB suspects it may still be either a partial Bicornuate, or a Septate uterus. So, he is going to speak with a RE call me later in the week with the RE interpretation and suggested treatment plan. He said he suspects the RE will suggest a "wait and see" approach. Meaning, wait and see if I have another M/C, then do more diagnostic work (MRI or hysteroscopy). The treatment for 2 of the 3 possible deformities is nothing. But with the Septate, you will require surgery to correct before having a good chance at a successful pregnancy. He did say that my deformity does not appear to be too severe so that was mildly reassuring.

So now I wait. I am not sure how I feel about all of this. On one hand I was do the diagnostic work BEFORE having another m/c even though it will be costly. The idea of having another m/c is of course the worst thing I can imagine going through. But, after spending thousands of dollars on diagnostic work I may end up with a diagnosis that I don't need to do anything. Basically, it is the insurance companies dictating my level of care. This really sucks and I am sorry about the long post but I had to vent. I am also considering switching to a RE but the closest one is over 3 hrs away. Ugh! This is so frustrating! After the appt DH and I went to the bakery for some jelly donut therapy. It helped some. I am a total A type personality and like to be in control. As I have learned that the world of IF is one where you relinquish control, I sometimes struggle. I wish there were clear answers and a certainty that our struggle will result in a baby. But, we don't get that. I am really trying to keep positive and have faith that it will all work out in the end. This stuff allows doubt to creep in. Some days I feel so fragile and that one more piece of doubt and bad news and I may break. It can be so hard to keep that faith strong. Alas, I have no other option but to wait and see what happens and pray for the best. I hope to feel better after hearing the RE's opinion.

For now, it is cd 12 and we are coming into marathon starting tomorrow. Wish me luck! Oh, and I am really sorry for the novel here. I know the clomid makes me moody and I just needed to let it out.

Hope you all are having a good day! I look forward to hearing how things are going with you all and pray we can get another BFP in our group soon!

WGA,
poas news?

[WorldsGreatestAunt]

Lisa, once again I'm sorry you are having to go through all of this, its not fair after all you've been through. I hope the outcome of their conversation is good, please keep us posted!

Afm, yes I did poas this morning and I did get two lines. However, I'm scared. While I've had nausea and have been very moody, my lower back hurt like crazy last night and still hurts today. I know that can be common in early preg. but it was also a main symptom with my m/c and my chemical so it freaks me out. I don't have my beta until Thursday so for now I'm just going to take hpts each day and hope they get darker. I hate that I've lost my pregnancy virginity. I can't even wipe without analyzing the tp (sorry tmi). Oh well, I suppose everything happens for a reason and I just need to try and find some peace. Please that this is sticky for me, I don't think I can handle a third m/c emotionally. Plus the stats don't look very good once a person has third...

[bitsniu]

Hello Ladies,
I hope you all had a great weekend. I got my HCg results today they went to 21 the nurse said that is great news....my reaction: oh thats great news really I think to me it is a stab in the stomach! is still raging and I am begining to think I may go crazy. Dh and I were in the store yesterday and I wanted to run people over if I saw them with a baby or even buying diapers!!!!! Just needed to vent.

Worldsgreatest---good luck and I will your lines get darker!

[southhampton]

Maren - That is so exciting I had a lot of lower back pain with my son. I thought that was a good sign. Have you bought several different varieties of tests or do you do all the same brand?

Lisa - I am sorry that you are so far from RE. Will RE be able to do all the testing you may need?


Hi Ladies - I hope everyone had a nice day.
I have my baseline ultrasound and blood work to see if I am all set to start stims. So hopefully I will start stims on Friday or Saturday.

Samantha

[WorldsGreatestAunt]

Bits, I am so sorry. I know the feeling. For months including now, I see people at the grocery store and I just cringe if they have a baby, especially if they look unhappy. Now I know I'll probably look that way sometime but I can't even imagine it. Don't those people know how lucky they are? I'm sorry your having to go through this, each beta was a stab in my heart as well. I felt empty. I hope joy and peace find you soon

Southhamptom, yes I just use the cheap ones from online. They say they measure 20 and up and have found them to be pretty reliable in the past plus they are cheap so I can use one everyday. Now with that being said, i'll probably buy a nice one for Thursday to give me a little encouragement with my beta. Thank you guys for being so nice. I know how hard it is to hear other people get a bfp after you've had a m/c, I still have a hard time even when its friends or family(read post from about a week ago regarding sil).

[southhampton]

Bits - I am so sorry and I know exactly how you are feeling. I went and picked up some breakfast and I saw a family sitting there and the mom was pregnant. When I got into my car I cried just so sad still three months later. Sorry.

Samantha

[Anj70]

hello ladies... joining in this thread, as I also see sevearl others from my previous thread. My signature gives the details, but essentially have had 2 IVF cycles -- first ended in m/c in Sept '08 and second was chemical pregnancy (Jan '09). Am pretty devastated... still recovering from the shock ... and wondering where to go next.

Am taking a few months off... trying acupuncture, some Chinese herbs and fertility yoga (starting this weekend).

Anyone with chemical pregnancies... how long before you tried again ? Also, those with multiple IVFs .. have your docs said anything about how many IVFs one can/shd do?

to you all... its not fun finding ourselves on the "pregnancy loss" threads... but the support is always amazing!

Anj

[Bullywrinkles]

Marren!
Hooray! I am totally excited for you!
I know what you mean about the pregnancy virginty and how we all long to be blissfully unaware again. It is ok to share with us. I know if I had a bfp I would be a mess of feelings and crazy obsessive behavior. I will be praying extra hard for you that this works out! We are here for you and I can't be more happy for you right now! Now you get to wait for the beta, u/s all of that. Hang in there. I will be wishing and praying for you the whole time. Hugs and congrats!

Bits,
Oh sweetie! Your post made me laugh and cry. I know it is so hard to take comments like that from the nurse and not want to scream at them, HELLO, INSENSITIVE! I am sorry you are having to go through this. We are here when you need to vent. It is ok. You may feel like you are going crazy now but in time hopefully you will start to feel more like yourself. But the comment about running over the "baby people" really hit home. I thought I was the only one with the homicidal urges toward parents! I can't even look in the direction of the baby dept when shopiing because it seems like an oasis that seems so close but every time you step toward it is still out of reach.

Samantha,
Yay! I hope everything goes ok and you get to start stims! Please keep us posted how things go.

Daisy,
How are you doing?

Anj,
to our group! I am so sorry you are joining us but I hope we can help you through your journey. I really hope the time off to heal and focus on some alternative therapy will help. Fertility yoga sounds fun! I have done some reading as to how these methods can really help those struggling with IF. Right now I am reading a book called "Conquering Infertility". It talks about how to cope through mind/body techniques such as meditation and yoga. I hope to explore it further and look forward to hearing how things go for you. Our group has an amazing bunch of ladies that are so supportive and understanding. I hope this can be a good place for you to express your feelings and share.

AFM, I am doing better today. We start the -a-thon tonight. Yay! I have decided to try and just focus on the things I can control and try to let the rest go for now. Hopefully after hearing back what the RE says I will feel better. I don't know if he will be able to do the testing I need but hope to know more soon. Until then I am working on staying positive and not alLowing this obstable to cloud my hope. I had my nieces over yesterday for a special afternoon of playing and baking cupcakes. It was so fun. After the m/c I shut down and put up a wall to protect myself. Now that we are TTC again I realized my wall is still up and it is time to let it down. Being with the girls reminded me of all that I have been missing. And while part of me is sad because being with them only makes me want my own family so much more I also feel connected to my life again. It is easy to to get caught up in the struggle of TTC and let other stuff pass. I want to focus on the good stuff in my life and enjoy what I have now. I still hope to be blessed but I know it is probably best for me to let others in and participate in today rather then be so focused on tomorrow.

Hope all is well for the rest of you! Hugs!