Back in the saddle again? - Page 8

WorldsGreatestAunt · #**106** (**permalink**) 02-19-2009, 06:47 AM

Thank you again for the congrats

Daisy, you post whenever you need to girl, you've been through so much. You are so strong and I don't know how you do it. Huge hug to you

Wanda!

Anj, you are awesome to be doing all of this stuff to make your body healither, I just know its going to lead to nothing but good things for you! When I cut out coffee about a year ago (tears) I switched to the herbal tea by Celestial Seasonings and have a few cups every morning. I prefer the rasberry but other flavors are good too. Goodluck to you!

Bullywrinkles · #**107** (**permalink**) 02-19-2009, 08:58 AM

Maren,
Oh I am so reileved to hear your good news! Yesterday I was so worried. Great Beta btw! Prayers a plenty to continue for you and Dre! Hang in there girls!

Daisy,
Hello there! It is good to hear from no matter what your mood. You have been through hell and I can't imagine how hard some days maust be. I want nothing more from you then for you to post exactly what you feel. We all have to put on our "happy face" so much of the time. But, truth be told, some days just really suck and we get it here. Letting it out helps and I don't think you are a downer at all. I think you are an incredibly strong woman that has endured so much. Be yourself here. We love you no matter what!

Anj,
Bummer that they cancelled the class! How lame! I love your attitude about the body and mind. It is good to focus on the things you can control. Cutting the coffe is hard. I dont have any caffiene anymore but it is interesting how once I tell myself I can't have something...it becomes so much more desirable. One postive about AF coming is I do allow myself a soda or cup of coffee. I applaude you for taking good care of yourself and keeping a positive attitude!

Wanda,
Hello and

! We always have room for more. I hope this is a good place of understanding and support for you. IF is rough. No one understand that more then our group here.

Ok, so don't laugh but I have a question for you all. How do you keep the (ahem) romantic spark alive when TTC? Specifically, when you are in the critical

time? I ask because poor DH seems to not be as (ahem) excited after "getting it" so much. I mean, when we are just having "recreational" time together, I wish it would last longer. But then comes "procreational" time and it like takes forever and I am pulling out all my tricks but it still seems to take a lot of effort to (ahem) cross the finish line so to speak. Sorry if this is tmi but I figure you all may have been here before too. I just get tired of pulling out my inner sex goddess and not getting the reaction it deserves. Ideas?

futuremom2b · #**108** (**permalink**) 02-19-2009, 09:47 AM

Wanda ~

, I'm so glad to see you over here, this is a great suppport group, and we are all at different points in our journy as we are trying to move forward.... I hope 2009 is your year....

This is a smaller group than our Jan. thread, but that's what I love about it, it's much more personal! When are your starting dates, or what's the plan?

Daisy ~ I can't believe what your posted about your friends baby, that is so hard. Do the docs. think that she will have the baby and will it still be alive? I don't know much about that, but I do know it's usually fatal. I'm so sorry. Are you supporting her even after what you've been through? How hard....

WGA ~ Wondering how you are feeling.... I was trying to use pine sol (does anyone know if it's not safe), it's too strong, so I had to leave the room!

Bully ~ Wow, what a question, give me some time on that! Good one though!

WorldsGreatestAunt · #**109** (**permalink**) 02-19-2009, 01:14 PM

Lisa, first of all thank you. Thank you for your support and thank you for the laugh I got out of your question, I loved the "ahems." I have no idea though. We have been trying to visit differnt areas of the house thinking we might find our "lucky" spot, so that has been kind of fun. My favorite is my closet, is that weird? But otherwise, to be perfectly honest, sex for me has gotten super boring and I'm kind of glad we are on a break until my 7 week u/s. Hopefully by then the romance will come back. I think it can be hard on both people in the relationship when a m/c happens, hard on our hearts, hard on dh's ego (maybe not all dh's but mine thought they were his fault b/c his morphology is poor). So I really think time is the key.. although don't take my advice, my sex life sucks.

Dre, I feel pretty good, other than a little nausea. Back pain is better but everynow and then I get lite cramping that freaks me out like af is coming. I know my beta was good but I am so terrified that tomorrow it will have dropped. I'm really really really hoping and

and

that that is not the case!

How about you, any new symptoms?? I think the pine sol affect is wonderful news, that is totally the symptom you've been searching for!

popcorn5221 · #**110** (**permalink**) 02-19-2009, 03:09 PM

Just recently suffered a m/c and found you're thread. Had to let you all know what an amazing group of ladies you are. Reading everyone's posts and with such honesty, I must say I have felt a range of emotions. From laughter, reading Bully's "green eyed monster"(I've felt the same way when we started ttc) to sadness(everyone's m/c and struggles) to joy and hope(WGA and futuremom, I'm

for you both). The hurt is still too fresh to share with anyone in the family(which my dh wants to do) but they didn't even know we were pregnant or are seeing an RE. I will in time, once I heal a bit more. Just reading about how everyone is still healing helps. Thanx so much for this thread.

Anj- I used to work in chinatown, and I would see all the herbal shops. I tried some chinese herbs for a malady(not fertility) and it worked.

all goes well.
---------------------------------------------------
Cindy
Me(37) unexplained
DH(42) low motility,morphology

spooky

sweetpea

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Nov 08 IUI #1 clomid,ovidrel

Dec 08 IUI#2 clomid100mg,ovidrel
12/26 IUI
01/07 HPT

01/09 Beta 319

01/12 Beta 1649

01/15 Beta 4976

01/20 u/s #1 one bean in right spot

01/30 u/s #2 saw hb 102bpm

02/10 u/s #3 no hb(8w4d)
02/12 d&c

southhampton · #**111** (**permalink**) 02-19-2009, 07:04 PM

Cindy -

I am so sorry for your loss. This is an amazing group of women.

Dre and Maren - How are the

girls feeling today

Lisa - You are too funny. I recall those days. Where my DH felt like it was more of a work bench then a bed.

for

is sure different then doing it for fun

That being said have FUN!!!

How is everyone else doing?? I am on the edge of my seat. Can not believe I start stims tomorrow

.

Samantha

Bullywrinkles · #**112** (**permalink**) 02-20-2009, 09:28 AM

LOL Right now! You ladies crack me up! I felt like a total dork when I wrote that but hey, I have to be honest and sometimes it is HARD WORK! I am just glad I am not alone and it is cool to let that out here. I had fun yesterday and this morning

but seriously, I feel like I have ADD and if it is taking too long I am thinking "did I let the dog back in?", "what should I have for breakfast", or "I hope I remembered to TIVO Grey's Anantomy last night". Ugh! But on the bright side, I got a + opk this morning so we are

our way to the finish line soon. I am really hoping all this "effort" will get us a BFP.

Dre & Maren,
What up ladies? Maren, you get beta # 2 today right? Good luck!

Samantha,

Grow Follies Grow!

Cindy,
Big hug and even bigger

to you! My heart broke when you talked about how you are not sharing this with the family. I totally know what you mean. Unfortuantely, few people truly "get" just how difficult TTC can be for a couple. I have not talked with anyone in my family or DH's besides my Mom. She lost my baby brother to SIDS when he was 4 mo old. Actually is was on Valentines Day 1981. So, she is very sensitive to how important having children can be and how devastating a loss is. I just hope we can be a good source of comfort for you right now during this time. These ladies have been so wonderful to me and when going through tough times it is such a blessing to have them. I am so sorry you have to join us but I promise to be a good listener and hope we can help!

futuremom2b · #**113** (**permalink**) 02-20-2009, 11:18 AM

[quote=popcorn5221]Just recently suffered a m/c and found you're thread. Had to let you all know what an amazing group of ladies you are. Reading everyone's posts and with such honesty, I must say I have felt a range of emotions. From laughter, reading Bully's "green eyed monster"(I've felt the same way when we started ttc) to sadness(everyone's m/c and struggles) to joy and hope(WGA and futuremom, I'm

for you both). The hurt is still too fresh to share with anyone in the family(which my dh wants to do) but they didn't even know we were pregnant or are seeing an RE. I will in time, once I heal a bit more. Just reading about how everyone is still healing helps. Thanx so much for this thread.

Anj- I used to work in chinatown, and I would see all the herbal shops. I tried some chinese herbs for a malady(not fertility) and it worked.

all goes well.

Cindy ~ OMG ~ I love this group, when you are low we all understand, even if we get

others understand your fears.... If you want to talk about SEX, or any other private thing ~ here we are! This is really an amazing group. Your MC happened 2/12 wow so recently, and I'm so sorry for your loss. I too understand not sharing with friends or family.... We didn't share about our IV, IVF, or MC when it happened in Augs. as well, and it was so hard, people were going on with their lives, and I just couldn't understand how and why at the time. It took at least 2 weeks AFTER D&C for me to start feeling like I could BEGIN TO HEAL.... I would be due April 11th, and I will never forget that date, and I am really bad with dates!
I'm lucky if I remember my anniversary! REALLY!

Feel free to vent, even though some of us are moving forward, we still feel the pain of our past. I am so fearful that when I go in I won't see that HB, and getting through the next week will be very difficult for me!
I hope you feel free to share anything you want. No one besides the girls on this forum know we did any treatments as well.... It's hard to not share, and it's nice as well..
When I told my SIL (like 2 months after the D&C), her response was "well most MC's are because of chromosonal issues", I couldn't believe what she had said, but after that I knew I had done the right thing by not telling others.....

WGA ~ I am soooooooo excited for numbers today....
Remember my nurse said a increase of 60%..... You can do it!

What time will you know something?

Bully ~ I love how open you are with sharing, I don't know too many deep people like me, and I love getting to know you better... I'm like WGA, my sex life sucks right now, I don't want any of it, I just want a US! I'm pretty psycho right now!
Poor DH wants to at least do other things, but I just have NO DESIRE!
But to try and help, besides you love of closets!

Which I'll have to try...
I would try some role play ~ Do you guys like to act! Could be fun!
Tell us how things go, we have to live through you, I know Sam isn't getting any!

Sam ~ How are those follies! SOOOOOOO EXCITING!

Daisy ~ Are you checking in?

Wanda, bits, and Anj ~

Our group is getting really big, I hope I didn't miss anyone! If so.... Post and update!

Oh as for me ~ Psycho untill that darn US...
Symptoms for me include sore BB's (mostly at night though), Peeing all the time, but I did that before I was

, and hungary alll the time, if you put some thing in front of me, I'll totally eat it! Other than that, I guess I have off and on bits of tiredness... I had way more before I up'ed my meds for my TSH? Strange, but true..... That's about it.....
Mostly I'm just psycho right now, and that's not really me, I am pretty level headed and pride myself on not being CRAZY, but I can admit, I am CRAZY right now......

reddee24 · #**114** (**permalink**) 02-20-2009, 01:43 PM

Sorry this response is so late, but I can tell you that I know exactly how you are feeling. I think of Halle every single day, multiple times a day. One minute I'll be completely fine and the next I'll think of her and happier times and lose it.
I think what helps to try again is that it gives hope for the future. Nothing will ever replace your lost child, but its still okay to want to another child.
I actually just started my new IVF cycle yesterday. When I took my first shot, it was weird knowing this is how I got pregnant with Halle. I got pregnant with Halle from a cycle that started in March, so I'm only a month off from last time. Its strange to think that if this does work I'll be due a month before I was supposed to have, Halle.
I'm scared this won't work, but to be honest, after losing Halle, nothing can be any worse. For me, it helps put this cycle and life in general into perspective.
The pain and fear never go away, but I do believe you have it in you to try again. Its amazing what strength you find you have when you least expect it.
Good luck to you and everyone else who is finding there way through their obstacles.

southhampton · #**115** (**permalink**) 02-20-2009, 02:35 PM

Reddee -I am so very sorry for your loss

. Wishing you the best of luck on your upcoming cycle.

Samantha

wanda · #**116** (**permalink**) 02-20-2009, 02:50 PM

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Originally Posted by futuremom2b

Wanda ~

, I'm so glad to see you over here, this is a great suppport group, and we are all at different points in our journy as we are trying to move forward.... I hope 2009 is your year....

This is a smaller group than our Jan. thread, but that's what I love about it, it's much more personal! When are your starting dates, or what's the plan?

Daisy ~ I can't believe what your posted about your friends baby, that is so hard. Do the docs. think that she will have the baby and will it still be alive? I don't know much about that, but I do know it's usually fatal. I'm so sorry. Are you supporting her even after what you've been through? How hard....

WGA ~ Wondering how you are feeling.... I was trying to use pine sol (does anyone know if it's not safe), it's too strong, so I had to leave the room!

Bully ~ Wow, what a question, give me some time on that! Good one though!

for the warm welcome!! Well to answer your question..my start date for should be around 3/6...I have an appointment for u/s and bloods that day with RE and she stated to me I would begin then since its day 21 of my cycle....I am extremely anxious and nervous about this second try....I really want this so bad and yet it seems so far from reach... I am going into it full speed ahead and

for the very best....I believe in God and I know that sometimes things happen for a reason...I think he is on our side because he knows our hearts are pure....let's see how it goes...will keep you posted ...

I am so glad the Jan thread produced so many

the thread seems to be dying down guessing people have moved to other threads like I have but that will always be my first home

reddee24 · #**117** (**permalink**) 02-20-2009, 07:56 PM

Thank you Samantha. Just keep me in your thoughts over the next few weeks and hope things go my way! I'll keep in touch in the meantime.

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Originally Posted by southhampton

Reddee -I am so very sorry for your loss

. Wishing you the best of luck on your upcoming cycle.

Samantha

MMason · #**118** (**permalink**) 02-21-2009, 08:54 AM

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Originally Posted by WorldsGreatestAunt

When I cut out coffee about a year ago (tears) I switched to the herbal tea by Celestial Seasonings and have a few cups every morning. I prefer the rasberry but other flavors are good too. Goodluck to you!

Last year before the MC I quit drinking coffee too...I had NO taste for it for some reason. Now I'm back to drinking at least 1 cup a day. I'm not sure if I could give it up again.

& HAHA..I love Bully's question! Baby making sex seems so different from the fun not thinking about it sex! Luckly the one thing that turns my husband on is a clean house...haha...so if he comes home and the house is really clean he wants sex. Weird, I know. He's borderline OCD in neatness. I have my own cake decorating biz out of my house so the kitchen is always full of cakes and frosting and drives him NUTS.

Popcorn...so glad u found this site. It helped me so much just reading everything and seeing that I wasn't the only one out there with such sucky luck.

I'm still pretty new to posting here but I just wanted to say:

Keep reading. It helps.

~Melissa

WorldsGreatestAunt · #**119** (**permalink**) 02-21-2009, 10:05 AM

Hi guys, sorry I waited so long to post the new beta numbers. They came out well, but I'm of course still a psyco like Dre and won't feel much better until I see that beautiful heartbeat. And then I'm renting one of those heart monitors b/c i cannot go 9 months crazy like this (although that is better than the past alternatives). Anyway the beta almost tripled in 48 hours to 733 and the progesterone went up to 67.5

The RE is already making me go down to 1 progesterone a day which is really scary for me, I hope he's right

Oh Popcorn I am so sorry for your loss! I’m glad you’ve joined our little group and I’m glad that seeing the different stages everyone is in has helped. I hope joy and hope find you again soon

Samatha, I am feeling fine, thank you for asking! Of course I am scouring the internet searching for similar betas to make me feel happy but I think I’m going to stop and just rely on the nurses, b/c the internet is a super scary place! How was your first injection??

Lisa, you describe the story of my life for like 6 months

. Ahhh, I remember when it used to be fun… Maybe when we can bd again, we should invest in some good old fashion porn

Dre, I’m getting excited for your U/S, I just know its going to be great. They are going to see 2 beautiful, strong heartbeats and you are going to get to add to your already beautiful family! I know my “gut feeling” probably isn’t much help, but I really believe its going to be ok

Reddee, I’m sorry for your loss, I really hope this is your cycle, you deserve it!

Wanda, I’m glad you get to try again so soon, goodluck!

futuremom2b · #**120** (**permalink**) 02-21-2009, 10:58 AM

WGA ~

I send you a PM, but that's amazing, good strong number! I'm so thrilled!

Reddee ~ I too wish you the best on your next cycle, I hate that we are so jaded!

Think positive.....

Wanda & Sam ~ March it is, we need to focus on you and Sam for a little while, because WGA and I are in a holding mode...
So Sam you are up first.... Keep us updated so we can pray for you and send you good baby vibes....

Bully ~ did you have a FUN WEEKEND (if you know what I mean), couldn't help but to tease you!

Popcorn ~ How are you doing? Can you still feel your hormones all over the place? Vent when you need..... Sending more hugs.

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