[Angelwithhope]

Originally Posted by pearlsofia

Good luck Shawna .. can't wait to hear your beta

thank you!! I'm so nervous!! I can't even describe it!

Only 49 minutes until my appt, I'd better go get some breakfast!

[AnnRN]

Congratulations, Shawna. I'm so sorry you are struggling, but so happy you were able to get pregnant again!

[kcmour]

Best of luck to you!!!! Can't wait to hear your #'s!!!

[jenedens6102]

Sending you well wishes today Shawna, let us know how it goes today.

[Angelwithhope]

Thanks everybody for your well wishes. I probably won't get to hear what my Beta numbers are until after my ultra sound. (I'm just seeing my OB GYN right now and he wants to do it that way.) I may call and see if I can bribe the nurse into letting me know or having my OB call me back!

I'm having a rough day today! Lots of tears and I don't know why! I was sitting in the office surrounded by these huge pregnant bellies and I still felt infertile! I don't think that feeling will ever go away! My doctor has told me to think positive!! And do nothing but think positive. he doesn't see any reason why I shouldn't deliever a healthy baby this time around. I sure hope so!!

Thanks again everyone for thinking of me!!

[jenedens6102]

You just definitely bribe them - tell them it's for your peace of mind as well as for the inquiring minds of your support group! Will they do a repeat beta? When will your first ultrasound be? I don't think we'll ever get over the feeling of being infertile but we also don't know that the person sitting beside us in that waiting room hasn't experienced the wait, a loss or the trials that we have - that's how I try to look at it anyway.

[Angelwithhope]

We are doing a repeat beta next wednesday again and I have my first ultra sound on June 18th.

I too try to remind myself that the pregnant lady sitting next to me could have had the same or worse time getting pregnant as I do. I guess the reason I felt a little upset was because there was a pregnant 16 year old being immature with her boyfriend sitting there the whole time.

But I can't control who and when we are blessed and I hope for her baby's sake that she and BF grow up in the next month!!

[jenedens6102]

I can understand that. I was going through my IVF as my 17 year old brother-in-law and his girlfriend were going through their pregnancy. While I love my nephew to pieces I know that his parents have a lot of growing up to do. Always makes me joke that DH and I should have gotten pregnant in High School - we've been together that long!

[Angelwithhope]

It's always hard to see young kids pregnant. But that's their bag, so it's their deal and I can't do anythign to change it!

I was thinking more today and I'm not sure I want to know my beta numbers. SOunds ridiculous doesn't it? But, I fear that if I knew what my numbers were from today I'd be on pins and needles for the next week and that would make it tougher on me. I think it's almost better I don't know until my June 19th appt with my OB.

[Angelwithhope]

Well today is not a good one ladies! I have had some brown spotting twice. I know that they say brown blood is old blood but at the same time I don't want to see ANY blood! I'm freaking out! I don't know what to do! I haven't called my doctor since it's not a lot just a little on the TP here and there. (Twice this afternoon.) I'm trying my darndest to relax. My good friend, who has also had a miscarriage, did some research for me (I'm avoiding google right now!) and she read that this can happen to women who become pregnant the same year they have a miscarriage so it could be part of that. I'm just crossing my fingers, toes....everything....that this baby stays PUT!

[jenedens6102]

Shawna, there was a big article that I read while I was pregnant. It was a part of my pregnancy calendar that spotting in early pregnancy is very common. Things are more vascular then normal. It could be a bit of straining for a bowel movement, it could be from having sex, it could be from something as small as a sneeze or cough. Don't let this stress you out. I know you'd prefer not to see anything but remember that if you do see something you'd rather it be brown or pink versus bright red. If you are concerned you can always call and request another beta. You did one on Wednesday so this will be a full 48 hours and then you can maybe rest a little easier this weekend instead of waiting until next Wednesday for your repeat beta. It's all about your sanity here!

[Angelwithhope]

Thanks for the info Jen! I called the OB GYN's office and he is not in today! And of course it was the new lady I talked to, had it been Cindy, the lady who I know better she may have given me some better advice other then to just go to the hospital! Which I won't because if it is what it is then there is nothing they can do for me there!

I'm trying to remain positive as it's still brown. I have an appt on Monday with my OB GYN early early morning! So hopefully he can shed some light onthis for us!! It's so incrediably nerve wracking! I just want everything to be fine and for us to have a healthy baby in February. I guess we'll just have to wait and see!

Thanks again Jen!! I appreciate it so much!

[jenedens6102]

Sorry they couldn't help you more. I guess I'm blessed with an OB who has a partner. When you are pregnant you see both doctors (alternating appointments) so that you get used to each doctor. They take 24 hour shifts at the hospital so you could end up with either of them for delivery. So if one isn't in and there is some pressing matter to discuss the other is available. I guess I'm blessed! Try and relax if you can this weekend. Sleep a lot, that might make Monday morning get here faster. I'll be thinking of you. Please keep me posted.

[Angelwithhope]

Brown has now progressed to red unfortunately! I'm not sure what to think...a sillypart of me holds hope that nothing is wrong...that maybe there was a twin that isn't any longer. But I am bleeding heavier now and still refusing to go to the hospital. I am not cramping that much....hardly at all today actually. I just have ot wonder if this is a chemical pregnancy or something. As the HPTs I took seemed to get lighter towards the last two...I don't know, I guess I should never expect for my life to change and I should have seen this coming.

Thanks for thinking of me Jen!! It means so much to me!!

[mom4kitties]

I'm so sorry that you are going through this right now. Try to wait and see what the next beta says though, because I've heard of several friends who got what seemed like regular periods throughout their entire pregnancies. The beta will tell you where things are at and I hope that you are just like my friends. I am thinking about you and sending lots of prayers your way!!