[Angelwithhope]

Well I'm starting to cramp but not bleeding much more then I was this afternoon. I have pretty well come to accept that fact that this pregnancy will probably end too! It's just so frustrating! All my doctors told me it would not happen again and it is! We are going to take the couple months off and do the testing and maybe give it six months before trying again. I think this time around we really need to take the time to heal! I'd like to get another tattoo for this Angel baby as well. I'm really hoping that I won't have to go to the hospital and that I can wait it out at home until monday for my appt with my OB GYN.

[Angelwithhope]

Well just a quik update on me, I'm supposed to be four and a half weeks pregnant but it looks like I'll be miscarrying at home as long as I can. I have not seen a doctor, my DH says he will take me in if the pain becomes worse but I am refusing to go.

Would this be considered a chemical pregnancy since the loss is so soon? THe pain is manageable for now...nothing a few tylenol hasn't handled. I wish I hadn't taken the tylenol today though and went straight for my ibuprofen 400's. I guess I will finish off the day with tylenol and if things are bad tomorrow I will take the ibuprofen. I'm just praying that the days go back quickly so that we can get to monday.

It honestly feels like a really bad period. That's it. With bad period like cramping...nothing like the last time. The bleeding came on a lot faster this time around.

*sigh* I really thought our journey was over. BUt alas it is not. Dh and I talked last night about adoption, he's just not ready for it...he wants us to keep trying but of course push for every test in the book wiht our doctor at the clinic which we will do. We are both very numb and I can feel I'm going to need therapy to get me through this one. I hope DH will agree to go too as he tends to just become emotional-less when bad things happen. Sure he cried the last time when we miscarried Bean but with Peanut (this pregnancy) he has really shut down.

Anyways I'm hoping that y'all will keep us in your thoughts at least. And keep your fingers crossed that I don't have to go to the hospital which is a total waste of time for me. They do nothing but say, it's a threatened miscarriage and then do a pelvic tell me it happened and send me home. I'm just hopng to wait until Monday morning to see my OB GYN who will give me meds and send me on my way.

[Baby_Bunny]

Hi AngelwithHope i been reading your forums I am so sorry about your current circumstances and i know how dis heartening and soul destroying it can make you feel.
I too Faced this same event only a week ago, Only after 2 Days of finding out i was 5 weeks pregnant and feeling ecstatic and proud, i started to feel severe adominal cramping, and what started out as spotting turned into a full blown painful period.

It didnt make sense did i imagine my pregnancy? when the doctor took my urine sample (sorry for too much info) and blood tests that infact it wasnt positive at all, had he had it wrong? had i had it wrong? Or was it just not the right time?

Neverless, Last Saturday night i was quite happily watching a movie with my partner one moment, the next i was on the ground in complete agony, i was rushed to our local hospital where i was examined once again losing blood fast, another test was done and all of a sudden instead of 2 bright pink lines looking at me there was only 1. My HCG levels had said i was pregnant but my urine had said no. I sadly miscarried that night, much to my dispair, i came home that evening and cried myself to sleep.

I still feel sad for this loss now, but its made me realise what i want, I never planned that pregnancy, and it was a wonderful surprise but now I know i really want it to happen again. It made me feel some what complete, I felt like i was really making life work for me, and my partner. I felt so Comfortable, and over 2 days I really felt like i was glowing.

But i can still have that and so can you, Things happen for a reason, and all though you feel sad now, please look to the future and realise that you can still have what you want it just might not be now.

All the best

My Partner and I currently trying for another, Keeping an eye on my ovulation its becoming to get really exciting!

[jenedens6102]

Shawna, again I'm so sorry to be reading this news. I'm sorry I wasn't here yesterday to talk with you. I wish there were answers for what we're experiencing but sometimes there isn't. I just really came to terms with my miscarriage and the thought of trying again last weekend, so almost three months. I'm not saying I'm completely over it but I have peace now that I didn't have before. I think it's a good call to go through the testing, something has to point you somewhere - two miscarriages in a year is enough to sound off the alarms. Keep me posted.

[Angelwithhope]

Thanks Jen!! I know I haven't been the most active person on these forums and at times I've felt as though I never really fit in but I am so glad I have you ladies!! You all have been so amazing and supportive! Thank you all!! And especially thank you Jen!!

I will definately be pushing for testing. I will not allow them to say "oh it's nothing, here take clomid again!" I really have a feeling it is the clomid that is causing it! I Don't know why, but ya know when you just get that feeling that you know what's wrong or have an incling to what is causing things. I feel it's got to be something, I hope it's something simple.

[Naila]

Hello all.... i am new here. my name is naila and here is my story.... i got married in early 2003 and started trying July 2003.... a year later and nothing so being the anxious kitten i am decided to get everything checked.... A few test later, found that DH sperm motality was low.... he was put on medication and i started ........ In Jan 2006 are amazing doctor suggested taht we should also do IUI.... 4 cycles and nothing happened. We decided to take a break ... just relax and be healthy and BAM !!! got in October 2006..... We were over the moon.... The pregnancy was ideal in all respects and until Week 27. I went for my routine check on April 26 ... everything was great... the baby was a little champ... kicking and moving all the time. On April 30, i had a mild backache so decided to take a rest..... Went to bathroom and saw some blood ... went to L&D, got admitted , got everything checked just to be told that everything looks great. the spotting had nothing to do with pregnancy... but just in case the did a U/S.... placenta was OK, cervix was close, and above all my baby was perfect.... this was the first time DH had a look at U/S and was really emotional..... the next evening before discharge they again did U/S, just to see that my amniotic fluid has decreased.... they thought that it was a machine mistake and decided to do another U/S 3 days later. I was discharged....... the night went fine but i woke up with bad pains in my back..... My amazaing parents were with me and took me to hospital where i delivered my baby.... till that moment we were unaware of the gender.... it was a perefect little girl, a carbon copy of her dad (even she slept like hime), weighing 2.2 pounds..... my little angel grew wings and flew to Heaven...... I am devastated....... she was just so perfect..... we named her Ayesha........ this happened on May03, 2007 at 9:40 a.m. its been six weeks and i like to think that i am returning back to normal (DUH!)..... some are days are just so hard........ eveery day i wake up, spent the day and sleep while thinking every second of my beautiful angel...... Amazingly, they did not find any problem with her, placenta, cervix, umbical cord or me (Thank God)........ its just the WISH of GOD..... Currently waiting for AF to arrive. My doc says we can try after 2 cycles..........
LoVE TO SHARE THE EXPERIENCE WITH YOU ALL

Love
Naila

[Jacklyn]

Even though I've never been pregnant, I totally understand what you are going through. I will pray hard for you Wishing you a very happy and healthy pregnancy and a beautiful bundle of joy in the end

You take care. I surely feel that the innocence from all of this process has been stolen from us. I live with a lump in my heart and throat everyday.

[Angelwithhope]

Originally Posted by Jacklyn

Even though I've never been pregnant, I totally understand what you are going through. I will pray hard for you Wishing you a very happy and healthy pregnancy and a beautiful bundle of joy in the end

You take care. I surely feel that the innocence from all of this process has been stolen from us. I live with a lump in my heart and throat everyday.

If you're talking to me, I've already lost my second pregnancy, I am currenlty going through my second miscarriage.

I went to the doc today. He says we do not have to wait and that we can get back to trying as soon as we are up to it. He offered clomid but I shook my head so hard no that I am suprised it didn't fly off my shoulders!! I guess we will wait until July 30th and talk with my RE about starting IVF. This sucks so bad, no one truely understands unless they've gone through it but my friends have been wonderful. I've gotten so many touching emails saying "I don't totally understand, but I am here for you!" It has truely renewed my faith in my friends!!

[Jacklyn]

I am truly sorry that this happened. I also apologise that I did not read the entire thread before replying to your original post and hence missed the update.

I wish I could do something to make it easier. I will pray for you.

Take care

[jenedens6102]

What you said is right on, unless you've experienced a loss it's difficult for others to comprehend. I support your decision to see an RE and push for testing. You have gotten pregnant twice in a year and unfortunately lost them both....there has to be a reason for that. At least let's hope there is so that you can move forward in hopes of not having it happen again. However, I'd push for that before looking into IVF.

[Angelwithhope]

Totally Jenn!! you can bet I'll pushing so hard for that testing. In seven months is it normal to have two miscarriages...no...and we need to find out what the story is. I won't want to push for IVF just yet because if it's going to keep happening then whats the point right?

[anirtak]

Shawna,
You may have already answered this but have you had your thyriod levels checked recently. I had two miscarraiages within 6 months of each other and supposedly it was my thyriod levels. I have not yet gotten pregnant since my levels are ok, so I really will not know for sure that my thyriod was the reason until I get pregnant again and hopfully am successful at having the bean stick. Know that you are in my prayers and that I know how you feel. I know that there are no words that can make the pain go away. If you ever want to talk I am here for you.

[Angelwithhope]

Thanks Katrina. I have had them checked in the past and all the doctors said they were normal. I think on the last test they were 2.4 or something. Does this sound like an alright number? I will ask to see what numbers they've gotten in the past and ask about having my thyroid tested again. My mom has thyroid issues, as well as a few of her sisters so I dunno, it may be a possibility right? I am honestly clueless when it comes to this.

[anirtak]

Shawna,
normally a 2.4 level would be fine...but I was told if you are TTC it should be between .5 and 1.5. If your mom and sister have thyriod problems then you will most likely at some point in time have thyriod problems. It is genetic. I would definely get your levels checked out again. Keep us updated on what you find out.

[Angelwithhope]

Originally Posted by anirtak

Shawna,
normally a 2.4 level would be fine...but I was told if you are TTC it should be between .5 and 1.5. If your mom and sister have thyriod problems then you will most likely at some point in time have thyriod problems. It is genetic. I would definely get your levels checked out again. Keep us updated on what you find out.

This wasn't exactly what I wanted to read but I'm happy I did! I'm going to be taking a long list of things with me to the RE and talking about them all!

I also have a tendency to clot A LOT during AF. I wonder if this has anything to do with things!

*sigh* I never thought it would go this far. Not that I am not suprised, I'd just like my happy ending like everyone else.