[kat21]

Hello! I have been wanting to post for a while but here goes...

I had a miscarriage in September that resulted in a D&C. It was totally devastating as I am sure you all know. The pregnancy was not planned and I was even on the pill. I am married and we were trying to wait for the "right time" but the universe had other plans. I quickly fell into the roll of expectant mom and I was very excited. When I found out I had lost the baby at my 12 week doctor visit I felt like I was loosing my mind. The experience made me realize how much I do want children and that I am ready. I will be 33 in December and have a very loving relationship with my soulmate.

SO, I started AF today which is 30 days since the D&C. My midwife said we could try again after one AF and I feel good about it. I am scared about what might happen but also excited about what might happen.

Wow, I feel much better.

Any experience, strength and/or hope would be great.

Thanks!

Kat

[r1stace]

Hi Kat, i lost twins at 20 weeks and it was horrible, it happened back in March. My husband and i are trying again this month and i feel scared but finally ready to try again. i realize that for me, the potential joy that a child can bring outweighs the heartache of possible loss. (My loss was a fluke thing, no explination.) i will just have to be monitored closely next time and go to a high risk doc. Good luck to you, also my birthday is in january, i will be 33 too.

[webjema]

Do you know - in yoгng age loss risk is smaller???

[jenedens6102]

I experienced a loss earlier this year in March. We had to wait three months to try again due to it being ectopic and the methotrexate injection I was given. All this after four and a half years of trying, three failed IUIs and an IVF where I didn't even make it to transfer, not to mention countless money out in drugs and all failures. We were so thrilled and beside ourselves that it had finally happened and happened on it's own! But the loss was difficult to take. Those three months we thought about what it meant to be pregnant and the hope we had that it could happen again. Whether it took a month, a year or another four years we were ready and excited. We got pregnant again our very first cycle we were allowed to try again. I was a nervous wreck for months. I didn't have many symptoms and just felt better then ever. I thought it was too good to be true and that any minutes my hopes would come crashing down, but they didn't. All I can say, as someone who has lost and is pregnant again is to live each day for the blessing that it is. Don't concentrate on the next week or the next month, just today. It was the only way I could survive. I set mini milestones up too and that helped. Make it to my first beta and hope it was higher then my last beta with the first pregnancy (because I waited for my first beta), make it to the first ultrasound, then the second ultrasound, then the heartbeat, and on down the list. I'm almost 20 weeks and I still can't believe I'm here somedays. What a miracle. Don't give up!

[kat21]

Thanks so much for responding!

Congrats on your new pregnancy!

I am trying to stay in the day but it is difficult at times. I keep thinking that I would totally be showing right now if I hadn't had the loss. Then I go from that to thinking of what could go wrong again the next time....if there even is a next time. I am doing WAY better since I have joined some of these forums. Hearing other people's success stories does wonders.

XO, Kat
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[jenedens6102]

Kat, I hear you there too. I think back to the three years I went on this journey alone, without this forum and what a difference the past year and a half have made. Knowing that there are others out there who know what you are going through, where you've been, how you feel, it's such a blessing and a help. With my first loss I keep thinking I'd be due in less then two weeks if not already have the baby if I hadn't lost that pregnancy. I don't think that will ever go away. I'll always remember the day I found out, the day I lost the pregnancy and the due date. But thankfully I have a life to look forward to as well. I'll admit there are still days when I'm nervous and apprehensive about something going wrong even now and I'm almost 20 weeks, half way there! But it's all worth it. Each day is a new day and a new blessing.

[lovingwife]

If you feel ready after one more month-go for it! I felt the same way after my miscarriage last Nov. I wanted to start trying again asap. It was very hard seeing other pregnant women, espcially when they were due around my due date. I ended up in tears at a dinner party when I met one of my husband's cousins who was due the same month we would have been. Then came my due date and we still weren't pregnant. That was probably the most difficult milestone. There will always be those reminders, but it does get easier as time goes on. For me, it helped to have the hope of getting pregnant again to focus on. Good luck and do what feels right for you and DH.

[kat21]

This is totally off the subject but how did you paste the code for your ticker off of Lilypie?

I made one and I really want to use it.

Thanks!

[jenedens6102]

When you create the ticker there are a few different codes that you can use. I just went with trial and error. Go to User CP at the top of the screen and edit signature. You can paste it there and then go to preview signature. If it doesn't come up right then it was the wrong code. I can't remember which one it was for me. Sorry.

[mrsjanowski]

I have never had a miscarraige but I could only imagine how devastating it could be. I'm sorry about your loss and I hope that you are able to find comfort in your new ttc journey. My thoughts are with you, and there are plenty of girls on the site that you will find very comforting to talk to! Good luck in TTC, a lot of us have and are going through the same thing.

[blessings]

Hi Kat

I am sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. Today is my first time posting/replying. I lost my twins at 22.5 weeks in late August. It is devastating. Today I have the strength to talk about it. We are also trying again soon. I feel scared.... but bringing a baby home outweighs any anxiety. I hope you are finding comfort in this community. It has helped me greatly. Good luck and Keep the Faith.

Isabella

[kat21]

Isabella,

I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

I can't tell you how much it has helped me to hear about other women going through the same things that I have been through. It is also great to hear success stories of those who went on to have a healthy baby after a loss.

I hope that your TTC journey is a short one.

XO, Kat