[jencat]

Anj: relax...1001 hpts can't be wrong!! Sleep well on the plane!

Sam, Zap: I hope you have girls...we need more girls in science!!! I am sure I have a boy because its growing so slow....

Today I am really sad... Some of you (maybe all of you?) know that I have been having alot of trouble with my family not being supportive and we finally agreed that not being in contact during my cylce was best for my stress level. So I told them I would call them in a month, but now I am not feeling ready to deal with them (primarily because my mom is the type where it is all about her and she is bound to immediately stress me out) and I would REALLY like to not have contact for the first trimester....and I am feeling REALLY guilty that I like it so much without them.. The good thing is my DH told me to deal with one thing at a time and rebuild bridges when I feel ready.. he said everything will be fine....I told him he has obviously never dealt with my mother when she's pissed...and he said 'well, she's never dealt with me....maybe its time she learned a thing or two (thems fight'n words!). I am SO glad I have him.... but still so scared of the wrath. I try not to think about it....it can't be good for the little embie...

Thanks for letting me vent...feeling so much better! Have a great Thursday everyone...I will try to check in later.

[Anj70]

hey Jencat back to you!
About ur decision... i think its a great one to keep some distance if you family isnt being supportive. Family is family... and when you are at a place where your cycle is going well, and things are going well .... and you feel like being in touch again... do so then... and on ur own terms. Dont be afraid to choose for what you need at this important, wonderful, but also stressful phase !!

Take care of urself... cherish what's going on inside you. I have some insensitive cousins... who i've totally cut myself off from... and even a few friends who recently had babies (and who I cant deal with at the moment)... and i do feel bad and petty sometimes. But I try to tell myself... this is for ME.

And its so nice to have a supportive DH, no? Mine also keeps me sane when I have my melt-downs.

you are and the have a baby on the way... !!

...and life is good!

[fefochka]

Jen, I am so sorry to hear about your family not being what they should be for you during this stressful time. Hold on to your DH and don't even think about them. It's all about YOU right now. Whatever makes YOU comfortable. You don't feel like calling them just yet? Don't! And don't feel guilty about it.

[SuzQ]

Jen, I can totally understand about your family. Vent all you want.
I think you should do what is best for you right now. In the end, they are your family and they should love you no matter what, and if you make then wait a little longer, in the long run they should understand.

[fefochka]

What kind of meds are you on?

I am still on Progesterone - a PIO shot in the morning and suppositorie in the evening. So sick of it! Have no idea how long I'll have to keep doing it for. Will ask my RE on Monday.

I've increased my folic acid dose to 800 after reading about it. Has anybody else done it?

[SuzQ]

Real Beta today was: 2,229.....
What is the likelihood that there could still just be one in there??? Or better yet, anyone heard of any freak stories of both of them splitting and giving you quads. That would just really set me over the edge.

I go in Tuesday and Thursday. They said we should for sure be able to tell on Thursday how many.

Another wait....it seems never ending

So excited today!

[cobiker]

Did you check out this website: Beta values main chart

You can compare numbers to others and under the beta charts tab (underneath the belly) there's numbers for twin and triplets. You would be on 19 DPO (count from ER). There's a chance for a single (2229 is still in range)- but I'm guessing 2. What do you think?

[SuzQ]

Originally Posted by cobiker

Did you check out this website: Beta values main chart

You can compare numbers to others and under the beta charts tab (underneath the belly) there's numbers for twin and triplets. You would be on 19 DPO (count from ER). There's a chance for a single (2229 is still in range)- but I'm guessing 2. What do you think?

I haven't looked at that site in a while. Oh good. I am thinking two too. However my pregnant coworker had a dream two nights ago that it was triplets.

[bitsniu]

Jencat---I can not believe they are not supportive of you...well I guess I can my in-laws are extremly religious and IVF is against their beliefs the mil is being supportive (so she says) and the fil gave me papers on other ways to have a baby (basically adoption) anyways stay strong and DH will be your support.

Suzq---your numbers are great!

AFM---My 2nd beta today went from 272 to 1393 and progesterone went from 16.5 to 56.39. I start my weekly ultrasounds on THursday at 11 I am ready to do it today!!!!! I continue to take endometrin 3x day and progesterone orally in the am and pm. Girls we are and I everything continues to go well for all of us ers!!!!! I still think I am in shock but I can now see myself yelling at the DH in the delilvery room 9 months from now! But on the other hand I know we still have a very long road to cross before we can get to where I envision us being, I guess I am just a big for thinking this....I should be loving that at this moment in time I can actually say I am !

[Anj70]

Im feeling so horribly depressed and upset... no real reason. But cant stop crying ... just saw something on TV ...and it was sad about someone's father dying.. and I just started crying. Earlier was speaking to my DH on the phone... and bawling my eyes out because (i) I dont feel pregnant (ii) and feel miserable becasuse we're not telling anyone... and I feel like we cant celebrate even being pregnant (because its too early... and anything can happen).

I so want a baby, and Im going to be such a great mom. Why is it so dificult... life is so unfair ! Im terrified becasuse my beta is on saturday morning and what if something isnt right. I dont know if I can stand going thru this heartbreak again.

I wish I was back home and had my husband hugging me... instead im 1000s of miles away, and crying in my hotel room. I hope I feel better soon... right now everything looks bleak and cant find my positive thoughts.

[jencat]

Originally Posted by Anj70

Im feeling so horribly depressed and upset... no real reason. But cant stop crying ... just saw something on TV ...and it was sad about someone's father dying.. and I just started crying. Earlier was speaking to my DH on the phone... and bawling my eyes out because (i) I dont feel pregnant (ii) and feel miserable becasuse we're not telling anyone... and I feel like we cant celebrate even being pregnant (because its too early... and anything can happen).

I so want a baby, and Im going to be such a great mom. Why is it so dificult... life is so unfair ! Im terrified becasuse my beta is on saturday morning and what if something isnt right. I dont know if I can stand going thru this heartbreak again.

I wish I was back home and had my husband hugging me... instead im 1000s of miles away, and crying in my hotel room. I hope I feel better soon... right now everything looks bleak and cant find my positive thoughts.

anj, hon...hang in there! I read your response to my rant this AM and I cried like a baby!! So effectively, we have been crying together! I am a mess as well, having a hard time with the positives. The important part is to just get it out. Then after a good night's sleep you will feel like new. You're almost home!! Take care of yourself.

[jencat]

Have I ever told you I love you?? Well I do. You guys are the greatest. I feel alot better. Thanks for making me feel better about my decisions about my family......

As for meds, I am on 2 cc of progesterone every morning, and 2 estrogen patches every 3rd day. Also on a multi vit w/ 800mg FA. To counteract the PIO, I take metamucil 2x/day and flax oil in the am. I also take co-q10 3x/week per my herbalist.

[zappy208]

Jen- I am sorry that you have the added stress of family issues on top of all of this other stress. Maybe once you are feeling at ease with your pregnancy, you can ease back into your relationship with them. And who knows- babies have a funny way of changing things so maybe your relations will even improve! But for now, don't worry and focus on you and your beans!

Cobiker- I work in a lab at Harvard Med School- been in this lab for 4 years now! But hey there are no jobs in academics this year and I am comfy where I am! SOunds like you are doing interesting stuff!

Anj- I just cried to dh for no apparent reason. I think these hormones are making us crazy. Have a safe trip back to the US!

Bits- great betas. And I agree about enjoying every minute of being preggo. I felt SOOO horrible today- but in a way loved every minute because I felt preggo. Though I will feel better if I see a HB on US.

Suz- great beta- sounds like two to me! I am kind of scared that I might have 2 too. It would be a blessing, but still kind of nervewracking to think about 2. DH is an identical twin- but his mom had a lot of help because her mom lived nearby. We don't have any family nearby.

Fefochka- Here is my list of meds every day: Metformin 1500mg, baby aspirin, multivitamin, plus xtra folic acid that I started day of my positive beta (I think 800ug total now), levoxyl for my slight hypothyroid, endometrin tablets (progesterone) 3x day, 2mg estrace vaginally every night. Man that's a lot of meds!

Have a nice evening ladies!!!

[SuzQ]

I just noticed your second beta... where have I been!??
Thank is great!!!

[kennieb1]

I'm confused. Everywhere I read (books etc) say that the heartbeat starts in the 5th week, but everything I have read on this board says its not uncommon NOT to have started beating by the 8th or 9th week? Has anyones RE said anything about this? I have my second beta tomorrow so I'm asking then but just curious if anyone knew in the meantime?