[Overwhelmed!]

Well, not really sure where to start... I stated having some light bleeding and cramping on Wednesday and because of high risk with twins I was taken off work. Things seemed to be better yesterday and I went in this morning for an u/s to confirm everything is alright, but, it wasn't... We lost one of the babies... The other baby seems to be OK, measures OK and has a good HB... I was so scared this was going to happen and now I am so scared for the remaining baby. I'm trying not to be too sad, I still have a baby I need to be hopeful and happy for... I'm just so scared....

[MPisready]

Originally Posted by Overwhelmed!

Well, not really sure where to start... I stated having some light bleeding and cramping on Wednesday and because of high risk with twins I was taken off work. Things seemed to be better yesterday and I went in this morning for an u/s to confirm everything is alright, but, it wasn't... We lost one of the babies... The other baby seems to be OK, measures OK and has a good HB... I was so scared this was going to happen and now I am so scared for the remaining baby. I'm trying not to be too sad, I still have a baby I need to be hopeful and happy for... I'm just so scared....

Of course you're scared and saddened. Nothing anyone says or does will make that feeling go away. I am so sorry you are having to deal with this. I am so grateful for your on healthy baby and just know in my heart that he or she will bring you all the joy in the world in 7 short months.

[Nlp]

Overwhelmed- I am so sorry you are going through this! I am sure you are very sad for your lost twin. I will pray super hard for you that your other baby will be okay.

[Linz25]

Bad news. We had our us today there was no baby, just a sac. Why would everything seem ok (levels)? I feel like someone is playing a cruel joke on us.

[Nlp]

Originally Posted by Linz25

Bad news. We had our us today there was no baby, just a sac. Why would everything seem ok (levels)? I feel like someone is playing a cruel joke on us.

Oh Linz, I am so sorry for you!!! The very same thing happened to me last year and I honestly thought I was going to die.....I just wish there was something I could say that would make things okay for you. What did your RE say about your levels being so high? Seems like they would not get that high if there was only a sac???
I am praying super hard for you that you can begin your FET cycle soon and that you will have great success with it. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[jmom]

Overwhelmed- I am so sorry for your loss. Words cannot express the sadness and the joy for the baby you have.

Linz- I am so sad for your loss, too. It does feel like a cruel joke to get pregnant.. than it all fall apart. I was not as far along as you, but my u/s yesterday showed an empty sac too. I felt sadness seeing it and knowing a baby should be growing in there. We are strong and will make it through this. God does no tgive us more than we can handle..but sure seems like it sometimes.

Jana

[Overwhelmed!]

Originally Posted by Linz25

Bad news. We had our us today there was no baby, just a sac. Why would everything seem ok (levels)? I feel like someone is playing a cruel joke on us.

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I also had the same experience last year and thought everything was perfect until I heard "there is only small sac"... My thoughts and prayers are with you...

[hopefull09]

overwhelmed, I am so sorry that this happen to you and pray for your second one. you should be happy and strong for the sake of the baby that you carry now.
Afm, after reading your story I am scar for my babies as well. As I mentioned before I started bleeding Tuesday 22 and it steel coming. It almost 10 days. what was your color of bleeding? and how much it was? do you had colt?

[smiley]

Linz and Overwhelmed- I am soo sorry for your loss. A loss is a loss doesn't matter how. Its not easy. I just now feel like I am 'getting over it" and its been over a week and a half since we found out. AF came on Sunday evening and I'm still bleeding! My heart goes out to you.

Winnie- while your OB will probably do another beta just wanted you to know that it might not look like it doubled the way you want b/c it will be done in a different lab and might be different machines. I just wanted you to know so you would not worry. I work in the lab field and these things happen. My RE for instance makes you use the same lab for all your betas whetr it be them or another lab for just this reason. So if it makes you feel better - great but if it doesn't go up the way you think don't panic! OK?

AFM- trying to deal with life- tenative FET on Nov 11th. Trying to fill October with lots of fun stuff.

[WinniePoo]

Originally Posted by smiley

Winnie- while your OB will probably do another beta just wanted you to know that it might not look like it doubled the way you want b/c it will be done in a different lab and might be different machines. I just wanted you to know so you would not worry. I work in the lab field and these things happen. My RE for instance makes you use the same lab for all your betas whetr it be them or another lab for just this reason. So if it makes you feel better - great but if it doesn't go up the way you think don't panic! OK?

Thanks Smiley! I know the numbers could be skewed by it being at a different lab, it's more just for peace of mind. To me with this BETA (ob agreed to do it next tuesday) a rise is a rise and it will make me feel better. The other thing I am doing is POAS every morning with cheapies...the line won't change anymore...as dark as it's gonna get, but seeing that the line is still there makes me relax. I know I'm strange, but it's all I have right now.

[Overwhelmed!]

Originally Posted by hopefull09

overwhelmed, I am so sorry that this happen to you and pray for your second one. you should be happy and strong for the sake of the baby that you carry now.
Afm, after reading your story I am scar for my babies as well. As I mentioned before I started bleeding Tuesday 22 and it steel coming. It almost 10 days. what was your color of bleeding? and how much it was? do you had colt?

I actually had minimal bleeding, more spotting, that started pink and then turned brownish. I have to say that I really didn't think too much of it besides the typical paranoia about everything these days. I was told however that it could bleed almost as heavy as a normal period - I'm hoping not because that would scare me even more. Good luck to you and I hope everything will be well with your babies...

[Linz25]

Thanks everybody. This is just awful.

Overwhelmed & Nlp-Did you feel pg when this happened to you? My boobs are sore, and I am so tired. I even threw up for the first time this morning b4 my appt. I just wish this would end and we could move on.

The other bad thing is that I have to still take my Pio shots and go back next Fri for another us. This sucks. I also did another beta today. They did not call me back. I would think that if my beta is going down I could stop the meds. Don't you?

[Nlp]

Linz- with my m/c last winter we knew there were problems from the start. Beta began at only 30 around 16 or 17dpo (OB said they needed to be over 100). It did double for about two weeks, but stopped around 2500-3000. When we went in for u/s there was only a small sac and they made me come back the next week to make sure there was no growth (my OB said the u/s can measure up to a week behind....not sure what that means really because there was obviously nothing in the sac). There was still only a small sac the following week so they discontinued my meds (I was on progesterone supplement due to low prog.)

I did not really feel pregnant at all. I had tender breasts for part of it, but those went away before my 2nd u/s. No morning sickness or anything else really. I also do not have many sympotms this time, which makes me nervous.

I do think it is strange given your leveles were almost 10,000 and you were having m/s. I am so sorry, there are just no words to make you feel better. Just know that we all care about you and wish the best for you on your next attempt.

[Overwhelmed!]

Originally Posted by Linz25

Thanks everybody. This is just awful.

Overwhelmed & Nlp-Did you feel pg when this happened to you? My boobs are sore, and I am so tired. I even threw up for the first time this morning b4 my appt. I just wish this would end and we could move on.

The other bad thing is that I have to still take my Pio shots and go back next Fri for another us. This sucks. I also did another beta today. They did not call me back. I would think that if my beta is going down I could stop the meds. Don't you?

I had this happen with an IUI cycle and had symptoms early that then improved and I felt pretty good by the time I had u/s, so my levels were obviously dropping before the u/s. Not being on PIO it took 2 weeks after I knew that the pregnancy was nor viable before I had the m/c bleed.

What are your dates? Did they just see and empty sac or was there a yolk sac and/or a fetal pole? I don't think they would try and torture you if they had no hope that the pregnancy was viable...

[zozo20]

Overwhelmed and Linz - so sorry for your loss. I know words could ease your heart. lots of and hugs for you both.

youngtucker - thank you so much for the info. Will surely check Dr Yang. of Temecula OBGYN. This is a great help.

winnie - I do the same thing..POAS i mean... just to ease my mind that im still PG, its not strange to do that...

and to all!!!