[dante]

Well...I got back from my dr's office. My 3rd beta at 20dpo is 253. It should have been that number yesterday, but for 3days after 2nd beta of 108, the nurse said it was lower than what they wanted to see. The problem is my beta started really low and it is slowly rising, the worst combo. I need to go get a 4th beta next Tuesday.

At this point, I think I'll feel more relieved to pretty much let this cycle go than to hold onto that tiny hope of miracle. I guess that's how I deal with it. I'd like to put this behind me and start looking forward to my 1st FET for another renewed hope. I had originally thought this past weekend that this cycle was a bust, but I was excited to move on, then this happened. This slow suspense is such a torture. I'm just praying that this won't turn out to be an ectopic b/c I want to try my next one asap.

Carrie- I hope you get a nice surprise when you go in for an u/s on your next visit.

Dink2D- Hope you have better news than me today!

[Dink2D]

dante- Sorry to hear your news. I totally understand what you mean, I want off the rollercoaster too.

AFM: well it feels very bittersweet. So I got the test result, it did it's thing and I went from 32 on Monday to 143 today. The bittersweet part is that I have been spotting this afternoon, and it's all bright red. That's bad isn't it? And of course it's Friday and I won't be able to even leave a message till Monday. They don't want me doing another beta test till next Friday. If this is still going on tomorrow I don't know what I'll do. I don't have any lower abdominal cramping (I do have upper abdominal pain-right below the boobs) so I don't know if that's a plus or not. I'm feeling and overanalyzing every breath I have. This really sucks. I can't even feel happy about my numbers doubling.

[dante]

hey Dink2D- I'm glad you got good beta results. I hope and pray that the spotting is just a normal process considering many pregnant ladies report cramping and bleeding during their early pregnancies. I'll be thinking of you. Please get good rest in the meantime. Hope you get a nice beta suprise next week too!

For me, whenever I get random twinges, it's always on left side, higher than mid-pelvic uterus area. (kinda like where my ovary, fallopian tube is) I'm now seriously praying that it is not ectopic!!! I can't wait fast enough for next Friday to come. I guess it'll be another big day for both of us. I get the u/s so they know what's going on visually.

Try to enjoy your weekend. I'm going to try to do the same this week.

[Dink2D]

Well I'm 99% sure I miscarried last night. I'm waiting to find out from the doc what to do.

So hopefully I'm the only one and you both keep rising.

Best of luck.

[dante]

dink2B- I am so sorry to hear what happened. I hope you are feeling better today. When do you get to see you doctor? I'm so surprised m/c happened so quick when your beta was over 100s the day before. Were you still on your PIO shots?

To be honest, I've already come to terms that it will not work out for me either. I know it sounds weird, but I wish I was in your situation b/c I want this over to be fast and hoping it's not ectopic. I'm still on 3 different shots and suppositories and pills to support this pregnancy and really dread it every night. The big lumps on my butt are getting huge and painful even if I heat and massage daily. I haven't been able to wear anything but leggings. I hope my beta on Tuesday doesn't show this slow creeping up beta number and rather just go down so I can put an end to this.

Please let us know how your dr's visit goes. Please take care of yourself. You'll be in my prayers.