[hodyhouse]

I'll try to keep this short. I have been struggling with infertility for two years. I have dropped out of two IVF cycles because I'm 41, type II diabietc and I fear having a child with Downs syndrome. I got okayed for acycle today but dropped my medicine off and dropped out. I desperately want to go through a cycle but when faced with the reality of it I back off. Is anyone out there like me? I am so conflicted and know that my doctos thinks I'm psycho. Please tell my your stories.

all of this involves such tough decisions - do not beat yourself up over that for one. i think you ultimately have to go with your gut and keep your physical health the priority. one thing though - have you considered pgd? it's a procedure used in conjunction with ivf where the dr. can screen the genes of the embryo before tranferring it (or them) into your uterus and you would know what you'd need to know ahead of time and also avoid the need for amnio later on. just a suggestion ...